venting.

bloody hell.

my day just got wasted. it was all fine. i wldnt hv minded stayin in front of the com all afternoon when i got home at 2.45pm. so i turned it on, did sum things on frenstr & was unwinding when my mom called.

"Grace," she went. "wld u like to come down to novena? im done here, we can go see the doctor. u said u wanted to, dint u?"

i did, but i totally wasnt in the mood then. so i said after a pause. "but i just got home leh," in this reli bu shuang voice dat alrdy indicated i dint want to. but, she went "if u today dont come down, i cant go with u le leh." as if she's doing me a huge favour by going with me. oh, right. i am so sure.

so i went down & she made a wait awhile at the pharmacy, which was alrite but then as we were walking down, i said i thot we had to make an appointment 1st? & she was all, oh no, we can walk in. i alrdy had doubts when she called me, & my bad feeling abt it just intensified as we got closer.

lo & behold, i was right. we so had to make appointment 1st. so i stood there, dying to say i told u so & give her my best its all ur fault face. becos hello, if she had REALLY wanted to bring me to the doctor (which she didnt want to,of course), she wld hv MADE THE APPOINTMENT when i reminded her last week. AND, there was no way she cld hv 4gotten cos she so KNEW dat i wanted to go v badly. she just totally din wana spend the money on me. ''u'll grow out of it," she tells me. HAH.

plus, she was the one who told me i had to make appointments 1st. then wad does she do? oh nth, except call me down on the last weekday of the sch holiday & waste my time & her money (transport,duh) on a receptionist's chat. whoopadoodle.

so DUH, i was damn pissed & my mood got steadily worse as we went back to TTSH. there, she tells me "oh, u hv to go polyclinic get letter 1st & i got no time go with u de leh so u find some way go get it urslf." =.=

ugh. omg. see wad i meant? she wasnt being nice by accompanying me there, she was making me go down on a tiny chance dat sum1 cancelled an appointment & i cld walk rite in. & btw, if she reli did 4get & wadevr, plus reli wanted me to go see the doc, she wld hv gone to check if there was a slot 1st BEFORE dragging me down there & wasting time. but did she? no.

to make things worse, she further worsened my mood by saying she wanted dessert & asking me to choose wad i wanted. so i saw this nice choccoberry ice cream thingie & she asked if i wanted ice cream, so i said, its $3.50 leh. she says, no only $1.50 wad, indicating the pathetic one scoop ice cream, which i bet was tinier than a 50cent cone at macs. i gave her a withering look which she totally missed & then i asked if i could hv a durian ice kachang. she missed the ice kachand part & thot i meant the durian ice cream, which was the same price as the durian ice kachang, $2.50. she said, "dont want lah, so expensive, i can buy at NTUC for $2"

cheapskate.

so i gave her another withering look, which she again missed. then i said fine i dint want anth & stalked off the queue. i was tinkin "she better not assume im stayin til she's done. she better noe im leavin b4 her." at the counter, she asks me. "do u want ice kachang?" i skipped the look & just said no. we sat down & she starts babbling away happily abt sum crap dat i had zero interest in, trying to make me forget dat it was all her fault i was wasting 2hrs of potential computer time & whatnot. hah. did she reli xpect me to be SO nice & 4get her blunder? i hope not, it reli proves she doesnt noe me at all.

so i asked if i cld leave 1st. u noe wad she does? she immediately gets a black face & tries to pull the guilt trip on me. "ni zhe ge ren mei ci zhe yang de leh. want somebody do smth for you den once its done dont bother abt her anymore. im ur mother leh, u treat me like that. u want to go u go lah."

hahha. wad a laugh. wad did she do? make me come down for NOTHING. waste of my time. so needless to say, it didnt work (duh, it was completely untrue) & i just kept a blank face. once she finished, i stood up & left. just left.

i shant drag the unfairness of the way she treats me to the house chores. (which btw, i do most of. cos she clearly hasnt done much recently. im sure there's plenty of stuff she can do w/o straining her arm.)

God i hope she reads this. it isnt a big secret that she's been reading my private stuff alrdy so why not this?


i feel so much better now. if any1 wants 2 try put me straight, dont bother.