hunger : the enemy

why do ppl need food to live? why must we get hungry? i hv no money and no understanding mother to give to my allowance earlier. and im not allowed to eat food at home, because "it's not put there for me to eat," and gawd, im STARVING.

emergency money once again used for food. damn it!

i wish huiting would hurry up in replying me.

ok she just did and she doesnt wanna go downstairs to eat w me. and it's only downstairs! depressingly hungry. gawdddddddddddddddd.

portfolio review in like four days. woot.

tights, tigers and...F1 cars

hahaha i couldnt make F1 cars start w T for the title. oh cool i shd call it 'tights, tigers and titles' :D

am loving my new tote to the maxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx. you know it fits A3 sized board!!!! still got alot space left. COOL RIGHT.

anw just got in shortly after midnight and went to ate my mac 'n' cheese woot niceeee.

then i went to use com and thus i havent bathed ew i know yucksss. i spammed twitter again and went to check all my fave shopping sites yum i love one of the new collection! and like i think im really gonna buy some stuff fr here. die no money larhsxsxsxz. hahahahhah twit alert.

waa today started out real bad. i was supposed to wake at 1030 but i completely did not hear my alarm! i was gonna go to sch and collect my stuff then go meet HT at city hall at 1245 but get this : I WOKE UP AT 1234!!!! hahahaha 1234. LOL. but yeah, 12.34pm.

i freaked out and texted HT immed. and then i recalled waking up and SWITCHING MY ALARM OFF OMGGGGGG damnit it's become a horrible habit!!!! arghhhhhhhhh hate me.

so i ran arnd getting ready and reached sch at 2.10 (it takes like 45 min to get there so i left home quite fast alr haha), left at 2.30, saw Cliff, asked him if he was gonna go and he said yes but he ps-ed us! anw i left at 2.30 but for some weird reason reached marina sq at 3.35pm. take so long to get there meh??? oh i know all the walking time right. hmm. and yeah i was gonna take 51 but cleverly rmb-ed that stupid F1 wld interrupt all the bus services. *more bitching on F1 later.

so mong js khai mich and leslie were gonna go into the movie at 3.45pm but ht and i werent watching since we'd alr watched the ugly truth on tues. DAMN FUNNYYYYYYY ME LIKES. aiyah forget to discuss and laugh over funny scenes w them. the 2hrs that they wer ein there passed real quick for me & HT. we went to LJS and ate for like an hr. i managed to eat slow :) and we talked abt 'deep' stuff. by 'deep', i mean non superficial stuff like the size of the butt of the cute guy walking by. ahahha i just painted a real bimbotic image of us which is quite untrue.

anw after eating we went window shopping. i say window shopping cos we'd alr really shopped on tues at the same place so this time we just tried stuff on and fantasized bout them. aw i want a knitted sweater. and the sweater fr topshop.and that jacket fr pull&bear. sigh.

then round 6 they called and we met up again and proceeded to stone at random benches cos we can never decide where to go. we ended up at BK waiting for alicia and then mich left just b4 7. then alicia came and brought her friend w her, and oops i cant rmb her name but yeah. we went to the food court and on the way up, we saw a....YELLOW SHIRT GUY. hahahahha. HT went crazy and spent the rest of the night looking for him. lol. i helped. like surprisingly alot of guys decided to wear yellow today. ahahhaha.

somehow we passed the time til almost 9 when we realised Marina sq wld be shut down by 9.30, or at least the bridge to it wld. so we headed to raffles city where we walked aimlessly about until we decided to go to bras basah complex the mac. then HT and i got outcasted and spent the next 45min or so being well, OUTCASTED :(

then round 10.15 she wanted to leave so i caved and was like, okayyyyy. some bitch w ugly dark eye circles kept staring lah walao dunno what's her fucking problem wanna fight isit huh huh huh! *takes deep calming breath*

as we were leaving fr toilet we saw tree who just arrived so we went to say hi and bye then we left. oh wait i forgot to mention the F1 cars right.

before dinner mong js and ht wanted to go see/hear the cars drive by, well lemme tell ya it wasnt hard to hear them. ugh. like i seriously cannot understand why the hell they wanna hv the race, somemore at night. as if all the air pollution aint enought, you gotta waste all that electricity as well?!?! like if they at least hv it in the morning then wont need all those lights right. wtf. and it's just watching stupid little cars drive by in a blur of metal and noise after all. but hey, who am i to judge right, just the generation who has to live with the damaged earth and limited natural resources. whoop.

anw, so because of the race, every bus was like affected so we were like, hmm wonder which bus can take us home. and we smartly chose buses instead of squeezing into the train with the other three quarter of singapore who'd decided to go to city hall tonight whether for the race or not.

so like i said ht and i left first right, so we walked to bugis and located the bus stop for 56, woot. then we were like, hey there's time, let's go to iluma! so we did, and whoa, i still really wanna watch a movie there. YAY FAME IS OUT YOU KNOW.

"...there is a school that will teach you how to fly..... REMEMBER MY
NAMEEEE!!!!!! im gonna live forever, im gonna learn how to fly!"

:DDDDDD yay cant wait to catch it, i've been waiting all year for it to come out.

oh then we spent like quite long on the bus but it was okay lah, except that i got hungry and when we got to bishan i wanted to stop by the 24hr supermarket to get food first, so ht kindly accompanied me there and i couldnt find anth nice so we went nxt door to 7-eleven and i bought mac n cheese!
and as i was paying i got startled by a weird dude saying hi and i was like, WHOA WHAT?? and it was phuay hao! weirdness. i was like, wth are you doing in bishan?!?!?! and he said he was gg prawning, like it answered everything. and i was like, huh? but ht was like, ohhh. so yeah. i still hv no idea where prawning is, but i rmb hong wei once said he was gg prawning and drove by my hse so i guess it's quite near.

then we headed home and MISSED OUR BUS COS THE DRIVER DIDNT STOP!!!!!! UGH $%#%^$*&#@^%$

anw yeah that's why we left at 10.15 but got home nearly 2hrs later.

and my mum said my new tights look like tiger skin so yeah. sweet.

here i am again

im blogging again!

let's talk abt what i did over the past week from last thurs.

thursday
stayed in sch til 8pm working on fabric book. uber sad cos as i was rushing to sch i grabbed the wrong file w no cover pg and only realised it when i was in the cab. so my fabric bk has this pathetic excuse for a cover pg and it's disgusting :(
think it's another C or C+ for TF. sigh, i really wanna break this awful cycle you know.

bus-ed to PS to met huiting, ate beef chilli cheese fries (NEVER AGAIN) and QQ rice (DITTO). went home, watched ANTM, yay, start of hols!!!!!!!!!!!

friday
woke up late, it rained like mad, at 4 i finally reached amk and went to meet minshan lihui and jiale at mac, then at 4.30 minshan and i headed to jubilee to meet nic. we bought tix for time traveller's wife at 5 and then went to s11 where i ate veggies. lol. jianyu came at 5 and we went into the theatre. THERE WAS NOBODY BUT US HAHAHA WE 4 PPL DOMINATE THE ENTIRE CINEMA WHOO!
jianyu kept walking up and down, and nic kept talking back to the screen. minshan kept crying and i kept, eating my bread. hahaha.

after movie, almost 7 alr. jordan came and we sat like idiots at CENTER STAGE. lol damn dumb. we kept inhaling al the incense smoke cos it was last day of seventh mth. we waited for tingzhi and danny for superrrrrrrr long. when danny (last to reach) finallly came we went to eat at a hawker centre. zi char! haha damn weird. need to eat damn fast else jianyu and danny and minshan finish all the food! for some weird inexplicable reason even tingzhi ate faster than me, i was last.

then we went to mac, and because EVERYONE was broke and minshan and i were the only teo w money, we had to buy everyone ice cream =.= what kind of sick twisted logic is that huh!!! lol we sabo jordan go buy the cones and he came back with a tray of six cones. funnyyyyyyyy.

then we stayed there for super long and played silly games which were damn fun and i think quite childish and i was on the train home at 11 i think when i got spooked cos i was gonna be home alone for 3 and a half days and it was still 7th mth. so i called kanika and well, we ended up talking until 3am. and then from 330 to 4am. haha. i think we talked abt like EVERYTHING and its been like monthsssssss since we last did so it was like, refreshing i suppose. hahahha i cant even rmb all the things we said.

saturday
woke up at 8.30, went to bank w daddy at 9.30, reach back bishan at 10.15am and queued at ntuc for freaking 20min. not kidding. it's like EVERY SINGLE FAMILY GOES GROCERY SHOPPING FOR THE ENTIRE MONTH ON SATURDAY MORNINGS. omgggggggg. i was sooooooo frustrated. reached home at 11.30am and went to play w goldbelle!

so funny. i was touching her so much that she bit me. you know, i'd like to think of it as a love bite. haha, we all express our love in different ways....

re-watched the little mermaid and 27 dresses then at 5pm i was v tired so i went to nap until 10pm then woke up and watched tv til like 4am then went back to sleep. gawd, pig much?

sunday and monday
totally overslept. how is it possible for a person to sleep this much when she's alr slept SO MUCH???? huiting supposed to come over and stay. we were supposed to go out for some shopping b4 but i woke up too late for that. totally cleaned the entire house and did like two loads of laundry then went ovr to ht's for dinner, before gg to j8 and stocking up on vids on food for the night.

we got too little food. we were hungry by midnight and ended up eating noodles. then we movie marathon-ed. i got depressed because movies are such LIES. we watched angus,thongs and perfect snogging, role models, half of the notebook and kinda legally blonde. and then we fell asleep at 6am then woke up at 8am for the emmys but lazy pig huiting who said she wld wake up didnt and we ended up sleeping until 1pm. wow pigness exemplified.

then we went to eat and she went to her aunt's hse so i went home at 2plus and watched the wedding planner and mulan. and then it was the end of my freedom filled weekend where i did practically NOTHING! hahah what a loser.

and we all know i went shopping on tues and wed and now it's thurs at 6pm and the sun's abt the set and i still havent done anth. cool.

instantly gratificate me

IM BOREDDDDD.

today's only the first day of me staying in to save money and like, i've alr gone through all my usual online shopping sites. anw, im not supposed to be doing that cause im almost broke and yeahhhhh.

see, this is what happens when you hv no job, no income, and no rich doting parents.

and no boyfriends too.

was out shopping the past two days and boy, i spent a lot. on food!!!

minshan and i went abt town searching for a nice place to hv dinner. we wanted smth different, w ATMOSPHPERE, you know? we went from ion to NAC. (see minshan, i told you i'll call it NAC from now) to wisma to cineleisure, and we finally settled at heeren. at pasta de waraku -.-

i broke my promise to myself to never eat japanese pasta because it's weird.

but what could i do? i couldnt decide between italian pasta and japanese. so we combined the two and got to waraku. hahahaha.

there was a 25% off for students, so it was okay. and like, i really enjoyed my food. but i think im gg to stick to pasta mania. for guilt-free, gst and service charge-free dining. im not cheapo, just penniless.


huiting isnt picking up her phone, again =.=

and minshan is working, so yeah. and all the jc-ers are mugging for promos so that leaves me w my seriously limited poly frens. that's what happens when in the entire class only 3 ppl go to poly. anw, apparently there's a morko outing tmr but i hv no idea when and where.

and cherie's not free today. but i could always ask diana/daphne/amanda/other misc poly frens, but i dont want to because I AM TRYING TO SAVE MONEY BY STAYING HOME, AND DAMN IT, IM GONNA DO IT. yeah.

but im so boreddddddd :((((((((

i've alr re-watched all my videos. okay half of them. and the other half is w huiting so i guess i wont be doing that.

i could....go to the library and borrow books. but i hv fines due and i cant borrow anth w.o first paying the fines and well, I DONT WANNA PAY MY FINES, it kinda COSTS MONEY.

i could....go to ntuc and do one of my fave things to do when i hv nothing to do, grocery shop! but again, that costs $$$$$$$$. and calories =.=

WHY OH WHY ARE THREE QUARTER OF MY FRIENDS IN JAYCEE JC???

oh, i thought of smth that doesnt cost $. but is too mean to post here.

i got my tote bag ytd. went to the post office to collect it and wow, it's alot bigger than i though it would be, but omg i loveeeeee it. it's like, so cheap! $27 inclusive of postage.

oh hey just thought of smth else i could do. i could go to kino and salivate over all the books/other misc stuff i want, but that involves actually getting off my ass and partaking in the usual pre-going out routine that includes the contact lenses, makeup, and finding appropriate outfit to wear, which will take like an hour if im lucky/inspired and then another hour or so to reach kino (bus bus bus) and then it'll be the hated rush hour and anw im too *^%^%@#^ to go by myself but is too lazy to look for someone to go w me. im just plain lazy, actually.

and what is up with the crazy weather??? cold and wet one day and then so hot and effing irritating the next two. infuriating.

i used to be able to spend hours on end online shopping. now i practically finish in one hour. it's crazy, it's nuts, it's awful.

and i dont know why i cant apply for IB w this account my mum gave me. its not my own acc, and like, it's annoyingggg.

feel very antsy, and hot weather is not helping.

rahhhhhhhhhhh.

have a measly sixty bucks left until allowance comes to me on sunday. that means i can either get

A) one jacket
B) one sweater
C) one skirt and one pair of tights
D) three pairs of tights
E) one bag
F) one not-so-killer pair of heels (killer ones being fr aldo and 3x the amt i hv)
G) one tote bag, one album and one pair of tights

i must say, it's boring to have like one of everything. i get bored and disatisfied real quick. i do like quality over quantity, but quality is outta the question when i cant afford it. so the last option is like really appealing to me. but i ALREADY got a tote bag, and a pair of tights on tuesday. and i would really like smth to WEAR. so that's option A, B or C. oh gosh i cant decide, jeez.

ah sad, even the maid next door is going out. i have no life :(

i made a list of all the essential things a girl needs in her closet, and like wow, i know all these things, but like i have less than half of them.

let's see, i hv 12 items on the list. i own....5. wow. that's harsh.

i wish i was more like meifeng because she seems so easily happy-ed by small things. like painting her nails. i alr painted mine and feel nothing, except wow they chip easily.

and she likes cooking for herself. well i hv nothing to cook, and i feel guilty eating when im not hungry.

and she loves making things. i cant sew, and i hv no sewing machine. and i dont know what to makes anyways. okay i lie, i do actually, but im so not motivated and inspired to start. lazy pig.

yeah, maybe i shd just save up this amt of money until next wk so it suddenly seems like i hv a lot more to spend. which is, you know, true to a certain extent.

okay, incredibly bored now, i dont even hv chores to do, which is a first. think i'll go wash my handwash-only clothes. and like go find goldbelle or smth. maybe do some situps. lol. yes, it's pretty laughable.

*put font size as large cos the font size on the blog is so tiny.

THOSE WERE THE DAYS

Y'ALL NEED TO SEE THIS.

"ahh, the skinny days of basketball,"

what a difference two years (okay, three.) make.

BUT THIS PICTURE HAS GIVEN ME HOPE THAT IT IS POSSIBLE FOR ME TO BE SKINNY, because well, i once was :(

what the hell was i doing complaining that i was fat back then?

btw, can you tell which is me?

will you encourage me????????? will you motivate me??? will you go through it with me?????

basketball was hell in the beginning, i died after every training, the pain.........you cannot imagine. but dude, the pain felt soooooooooo goood. i sound sadistic. no, the pain just made me feel like i'd done smth good for my body. no matter that i couldn't sit/stand up/go down stairs without being in pain. my limbs were like, TONED. no jiggle-de-doo. I MISS THAT. IM LIKE SO DISGUSTING NOW, EWWWWWWWWW.

EW GRACE, EW.

:(

i must go back in timeeeeeeeee.

YOUCAM, I CAM

last friday after sch i carry big packet small packet go j8 meet meifeng, sudden decision. and i arrive before her hahahah AGAIN.

then we went to the library where mf attempted once again to STUDY when i am there. needless to say, she failed. because this time, i didnt even try hahaha.
　
she did only like 5 math qns. multi part though, so gd for her.
　
i was like so bored at the library and this kid was screaming (not kidding) beside us and the mother was smiling indulgently at the screaming ball of ew.

lol, the kid was spitting on the glass. ew, right? and it was right next to us. trauma.

it was sooooooo noisy that the librarian came and scolded them both, the kid and the mum. and the mum still smiled happily, like omg my kid is screaming in a library, awwww so cute.

like, wtf.
im nvr bringing my kids to a library unless i've taught them proper etiquette.
　
they left before they got kicked out thou so it was ok.

then i got so bored tht i took out my laptop and started playing with my lousy VGA Youcam. yeah i know, even though i've had the laptop a year, i can count the number of times i've used the youcam on one hand, unbelievable i know.
wait til i get a macbook, then i'll photobooth hahahah.

took many crazy shots! surprised at our ability to laugh silently hahaahha.

youcam is damn lag, i click the button, it takes the pic five secs later. tht's why we look effing retarded in them lol.

see, no one ask mf to take, she ownself (waa damn singlish lol) wanna take one. cannot blame me for distracting her
　
BLOGGER IS EFFING SLOW why take so long to upload bga pics!!! irritating.

meifeng wants to check our her eyelashes. sparse, she says. actually they're just not dark enough to be captured lah.

Givenchy Nightingale

Everyone's in love with the Givenchy Nightingale. Ashley Olsen and Reese Witherspoon both have them, and i love them both! like two of my fave celebs, i swear. sighhhh.

i think Ashley looks much better than MK these days. i dunno, just my personal opinion. i think it's got smth to do with MK's hair. like, it's all crimped and flyaway-looking. i realise the unkempt grunge style is her look, but like, it's just realllllly crimped. ashley's hair is smoother and nicer.

new colours out for AWo9 for the Givenchy Nightingale bag i think. not that it concerns me, i cant even afford the strap off the bag.
ah, the tragedy.

I SHD NOT BE ONLINE SHOPPING OMFG.

TAGLINES

countdown to hols!

5 MORE DAYS

woot ttm!!!!!!!

okay too early to feel happy, still got THE MOST IMPT ASSIGNMENT to hand in

fabric book. 60% of grade!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

like omg.

and quiz tmr.

and like, im ALMOST broke. so that's not good, since hols require spending $$$. let's see if anyone has job for me.

dinnertime :)

outta nothing at all

hello i think i've just fallen in love! hahhahhaha
yes i know, making love out of nothing of all. thus the title, see see SEE.

(:



im sitting beside sheryl in the sch library now working on our written report and like im feeling majorly guilty abt blogging because i shd be well, NOT blogging.

and not reading david cook's tweets.
or laughing abt it and then tweeting abt it.
i shd not be tweeting too.
and neither shd i be reading the questions which he answered ytd!
(but damn, he's entertaininggggggg.)

ok i just made him sound like a dancing bear. which is evil. the dancing bear part i mean. bears shdnt be forced to dance, it's not right.

but but, he's like a cotton candy tree growing in the middle of a desert.

:(





back to work.

090909

it's the last few minutes of 090909 and im hiding in my room too scared to even go wash my contacts cos of a crazy cockroach tht's flying around outside in my living room. it's huge!!!! and it's damn scary.



i think it's about to die.



there was the mass insecticide spraying thing today and there are lotsa dead roaches downstairs, and i think this one got hit. you know how when they get hit they get like totally crazy cos they're in pain and abt to die? i think thts what happened to this one. it hasnt stopped flying around since i saw it an hour ago.



i wanna wash my contacts :(



im stressed
there's submission for written report on friday, as well as quiz! and the quiz is not as easy as last week, this time, there's knitting weaving dyeing printing and finishing. stress ttm.

and im like maybe half done with thereport :(((( i wish there was like no class tmr or smth sigh but there's class.

oh well at least the evaluation report is done.

i cant get up the motivation to do work, and i keep thinking that it's tuesday but it's actually wednesday which means i only have tonight and tmr left to complete the written report!!!!!

OMGGGGGGGG STRESSSSSSSSSS.

SSSSSSSSSSSS.
me is snake.

me is hungry and cannot go out and get food because of crazy roach.
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sorry i got forced to go outta my room by my mum. she insisted there was no roach (=.= yeah right, i bet it was like behind her or smth. you know how in the movies ppl are like, blahblahblah he/she so stupid, and then the he/she is actually behind them? yup bet the roach was behind her and she just didnt see) and then forced me to go wash my contacts and bathe. argh like i wont go make up a story abt a roach flying around and then lock myself in the room when the tv is outside right! jbcksjdhgkjnb vkvh.
argh.

NO MOTIVATION TO DO WORK HOWWWWWWWWW

and right, i watched singapore idol just now and was actually kinda rooting for jon cheok, but he went and did 'come together', which is like a biiiiiiig song. i rmb when the contestant on american idol season 7 (david cook's season! :DDD) did it and she has a really big voice but she also didnt do it v well and the judges were quite hard on her, but she made it cos those were the themed shows and she wasnt the weakest. so like, she couldnt do it, and like, jon couldnt do it either. im just saying, it's a big song.

however i do think he was kinda out of it cos well, i dont think he'd bo so dumb as to choose a song he cant do yeah. but this is just sad cos he didnt get in cause of the song. i dont understand why duane ho is in. like, doesnt he have to take Os?????? maybe he's NA. but still, arent there exams coming up???????? i dunno, studies shd be No.1. omg, this coming from moi. hhahahaha.

i was like instantly reminded of dc when jon did the song. sigh daviddddddddd. oh wait, im currently pissed at smth he tweeted so shall not swoon over him. jeez.

soooooooooo, am supposed to being a printed garment to sch tmr for class. but i dont hv many prints in my closet. me likes basics. lemme see. ooh got a printed skirt. hmm, nah. ermzzzz, oh cool i know i'll just bring like a tee.

huiting and i were discussing how emma watson has basically like, everything a girl could ever want. unfairness. hahahah. ivy league school. hah.

I LURRBBES MY NAILS SO XING GAN I SWEAR.
i would take a picture of it but like it looks terrible in photos so forget it.

while stuck in my room just now i started playing with my Youcam. yes, it's VGA and sucks, but it helped me pass the time. and like wow my nose is giganormous. lol i tried to combine gigantic and enormous hahahhah. NOSEEEEEEEEE EWWWW. and today i was telling huiting abt how ashlee simpson-wentz looks soooooo effing different now as compared to her first and second albums and i was like, omg i dont believe she nvr do plastic surgery lah. then the talk turned to that, and ht asked me if i wld ever do. IS THAT A SIGN? WAS SHE IMPLYING THAT I SHD? hhahahahhah.
not funny.

so sick of my hair it's like so sucky now. cant wait to do it next wk. still thinking abt what to do......

ugh just googled ppl again. you know googling ppl nvr works. well not for me at least. no, i didnt go and google dc, i aint that dumb. anw i shd really be doing my work. wow major guilt trip.

okay im gg to sleep now bye folks!

black and gold

hi facebook wont let me go in.oh well.

working on written report and listening to my old cds. atomic kitten!

i cant believe im still in love with the last goodbye. ahhh childhood memories. i bought this cd when i was pri4 you know. that's 7yrs ago! wow feel old.

i didnt realise that so many ppl have songs titled the last goodbye. interesting. james morrison has one too. will go listen to that later.

you know that your ability to work is directly infuenced by your environment? i really need to declutter my room and work space. seriously.

The Last Goodbye
Ain't no headlights on the road tonight
Everybody here is sleeping tight
Ain't nobody gonna find us here, we'll disappear.
There's a dancer in the arms of love
And he's dancing on the sky above
And the truth is that we'll never know where love will flow
Aim high, shoot low

Ain't no headlights on the road tonight
Ain't nobody here to make it right
Cos we couldn't seem to find a way, for love to stayI
f you had another night to give
I would have another night to live
But you're never gonna see me cry the last goodbye

Is it cloudy where you are tonight?
Are the neon lights shining bright?
Are you looking for a place to stay to get away?
And the days are horses down the hill,
Running fast with no time to kill
And the truth is that we'll never know where love will flow
Aim high Shoot low(Gotta aim high, shoot low baby)

Ain't no headlights on the road tonight
Ain't nobody here to make it right
Cos we couldn't seem to find a way, for love to stay
If you had another night to give
I would have another night to live
But you're never gonna see me cry the last goodbye

If I could do it over, I'd do it all again
And if I got one more chance I wouldn't change a thing
Aim high Shoot low

Ain't no headlights on the road tonight
Ain't nobody here to make it right
Cos we couldn't seem to find a way, for love to stay
If you had another night to give I would have another night to live
But you're never gonna see me cry the last goodbye.
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my friends make me smile, if only for awhile
But you can make me whole again.
- Whole again, Atomic Kitten

didnt get to watch movie today cos minshan changed date to next friday. like omg it's third week of sch alr and next wk is final submission wk! omg. there's gonna be portfolio review. im shit scared for that. like what if they put me in what i dont want? will they do that? and if they do that is it too late for me to like, drop out? hah. that's drastic.

argh im like upset and i dont know why. i cant get no satisfaction, no no no! ahahaa that's a song. yep definitely been listening to too many old cds.

WHEN IN ROME

"Between the far away past history of the world, and that which lies near to us; in the time when the wisdom of the ancient times was dead and had passed away, and our own days of light had not yet come, there lay a great black gulf in human history, a gulf of ignorance, of superstition, of cruelty, and of wickedness. That time we call the dark or Middle Ages. Few records remain to us of that dreadful period in our world's history, and we only know of it through broken and disjointed fragments that have been handed down to us through the generations."— Howard Pyle, Otto of the Silver Hand (1888)


in starbucks again, another coffee, another ten bucks gone. life is harsh.

more than words could say, you're my melody

the treat as promised!

Fall Back Into Me, David Cook
We've been here before
We'll be here again
so go on and rest your head
Before you lose it again

We're leaning on each other
Or at least I can pretend
That we didn't lose it all again
It could have been different
It could have all been the same
But now I'm standing at your front door, singing,

When everything's the same
And nothing ever changes
Will you fall back into me?
You see, everything's estranged
A million empty faces
So will you fall back into me?

Congratulations
You left me a little jaded and rejected
And so I lost it again

You chew me up, you throw away
As I continue to pretend
That we didn't lose it all again
I guess it's never different
I guess it's all the same
So now I'm bloodied by my fist, clenched, swinging

When everything's the same
And nothing ever changes
Will you fall back into me?
You see, everything's estranged
A million empty faces
So will you fall back into me?

I was a name across your lips
It's time to spin me out
I play the game when my heart rips
It's time to hear me out
(Never do without)
When everything's the same
And nothing ever changes
Will you fall back into me
See, everything's estranged
A million empty faces
So will you fall back into me?

(Will you fall
We'll be here again
So go on and rest your head
Before you lose it again)

We're leaning on each other
Or at least I can pretend
That we didn't lose it all again, all again
Lose it all again.

Grace the gadabout

hello! class was cancelled for today and there's no class on monday, so i hv a 4 day wkend!

but it's not all fun and games, i went to meet sheryl to do our written report today. it's soooo detailed! but im like actually quite enjoying it cos well, i much prefer it to drawing and such.

we camped at starbucks for nearly 4hrs, where i had a dark mocha. it was gooooooood! :DDDD
seriously, go drink it.

ugh nth to blog bout alr leh, i had poor tasting sushi for dinner. classy and i went home tgt. it was like not planned. haha.

now, a series of meaningless crap! (im trying to be taylor swift) hahah let's see if you believe that.

you're so near i can feel your heat
can you hear my heart beat?
the look in your eyes, so soft and real
do you realise your appeal?
im talking rubbish, of course you do
why else did you play the fool?

i'm not a poet, i'm just a girl who was once in love with you.

you and her, it's true love
who am i to stop the above?
so go to her
i don't want you here
it's me you say you want
but hey, i know i'm adjunct.
so go, don't feel sorry
cause i have a secret
this is nice, it isn't more
see, the thing is, you're not my all
cause i gave my heart to another
if you stay i'll only make you unhappier
now don't freak
i didn't cheat
okay, maybe in a way, i did.
but this happened before you
he just never gave my heart back
i care for you, i really do
but i don't think i deserve you.
so please, just leave
before i get greedy and change my mind.

once when i was supposed to be doing math
i wrote a letter to you instead
but the contents you'll never see
cause i never finished it.
still, it's meant for my eyes only
just like she was your only
i say was, cause she's the past
and you know what?
you were a dream i made up
it just felt so real that i didnt want to give it up
i guess i'm just too scared
to admit to myself that i am lost
so lost,
so lost.

HHAHHAHAAHHA OKAY THIS IS FUNNY. it doesnt even make sense! ok sorry if you read it, i kinda just wasted your time. will post a treat nxt time.

TELL ME WHY

hey guys, just wasted two hours of my life doing things too embarrasing for me to even say,and it was completely fruitless, so forget it.

i still cant believe i did it. ew.

okay, moving on.

Carol'd said that today wld be heavy lesson but it was alright, quite interesting except the videos part, waaaa so wordy, cannot understand half the terms used.

still in love with 2x2 rib knits and above.went to my kitchen this morning and checked out my laundry. in my laundry alone i hv FOUR 2x2 rib knit tanks! wow, i nvr knew! wonder how many others i hv in my closet.

OMG I WAS EFFING PISSED OFF TODAY.

i had like a nice day so far, and then right, this server at Subway like, cannot understand english. i told her the veggies i wanted right, and she didnt put half of them on, then when i said i wanted pepper, like BLACK PEPPER, she gave me green pepper, the vegetable. wtf?!but i was like, ARGH nvm i can take it off myself later right, so i calmed down, got my stuff and left.

i didnt get a carrier for my drink cos i wanted to save the earth by using less plastic bags, so i held my drink in my hand.

walking to the interchange, this old guy (looked like 40s and above) BARRELLED INTO ME ON PURPOSE AND KNOCKED THE DRINK OUT OF MY HAND AND IT CRASHED TO THE FLOOR AND THE COVER BROKE UPON IMPACT, SPILLING BARLEY EVERYWHERE.and he carried right on walking w/o an apology or look back.

i picked up the remnants of my drink and turned around and stalked after him, i was so pissed off.when i caught up to him, i tapped him on his shoulder and when he spun round, i tossed the rest of the barley into his ugly face, and promptly went back to Subway and got myself another drink.

not.i was effing pissed off, it's true, but i didnt do that, im not so extreme. okay, i was THIS close to doing it. i really picked up the drink (there was still like a quarter cup) and stalked after him, and when i saw his retreating back i REALLY considered throwing the drink into his disgustingly rude face but then i decided not to sink to his level and do smth so rude and incredibly dramatic.

how did i know he did it on purpose?

he passed by me on my right, where there was ABSOLUTELY NO-FUCKING-BODY, and it wasnt like he didnt see me coming, there was nobody between us and he saw me at least three metres before he passed me, and when he was gonna pass me i was like, hmm the dude's kinda near me, shd i move?
then i realised i was blocked on the left by other ppl and anyways there was nobody beside old guy so he could and would (OR SO I THOUGHT, MISTAKENLY) move.but he didnt.and he just SPED HEAD ON INTO ME AND SHOVED MY ENTIRE RIGHT ARM SO THAT I DROPPED MY DRINK.
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE SINGAPOREANS THEY ARE SO FUCKING RUDE AND INCONSIDERATE AND OMGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I honestly hope to God that HE, THE UGLY DISGUSTING RUDE OLD GUY, is the very minor minority in s'pore.

when i turned round after picking up my drink, a guy in a suit was behind me and he was like, whoa. he'd seen the old guy barrel into me and my drink drop and everything. he was like in shock, cos he'd stopped behind me.
i was so pissed off that i didnt even glance at him, i was in a trance brought on by fury. there was one thought in my mind:get back to subway and refill your cup.

it's so crazy. like after this disgusting show of behaviour by the old guy all i could think abt was how i cant stand the thought of me just paying $7.50 for my meal and looking forward to enjoying it at home but having a stranger spoil that all for me by robbing me of my drink which wld complete my meal, and thus i did the only thing my mind could think of, the refill.
which is btw, not free. but i was so angry, i was willing to pay. but i didnt hv to pay because erm, no one stopped me. cause i'd only just walked out less than 5min when i lost my drink so when i went back everyone didnt like, stare or anth.
i refilled (illegally) and went home. sorry subway dudes, if you see this.

i had to call kanika to rant bout it first, i was so indignant that some guy could just do smth so utterly REVOLTING and not feel any remorse!!!

UGH. ugh ugh! gross.

speaking of gross, on 55 some guy with heavily gelled and dandruff-filled hair stood right in front of me AND KEPT LEANING BACK SO THAT I HAD TO HOLD MY PHONE IN FRONT OF MY BODY SO IT WOULD POKE HIS BACK JUST TO AVOID SEXUAL HARRASSMENT.
I SWEAR HE WAS SO NEAR HIS HEAD WAS LESS THAN 10CM AWAY.
cos he's not v tall, so his head is effing near my face! all all dandruff, DISGUSTING!!!!
and you know what, he was leaning so far back that he was pressing right into the ring on my index finger on the hand i was using to hold my phone. i saw and felt the entire ring press into his back, THREE TIMES, and STILL he didnt move away.effing disgusting right.

so traumatised.

thankfully he got off soon after, otherwise i swear i would have like poked smth sharper into his back. i hv scissors in my pencil case.

KAY ENOUGH BOUT AWFUL PPL.

i cant believe 2009 is speeding by. i've lost track of time. it's alr september. soon it'll be 2010.time. an illusion of life gone by. i feel like i havent done much in the months i've been in school. i kinda feel...like smth is seriously missing, and sweet jellybeans, i dont know what the hell it is. and it drives me crazy.

i kinda feel like im waiting for smth? to happen. and i dont know WHAT! it's INFURIATING. it's worse than waiting for my period to come or be over. at least for sure that's smth tht's gonna happen, this is like, entirely based on a big fat nothing.

wanna hide away from the world and crawl into my comfort zone, like the period between feb and april 09.
but why! nothing's wrong! so why do i feel like nothing's right???


WHAT'S THE THING THAT'S MISSING????????????

& when it rains, it really pours down like ttm

it's like i never fucking existed. just that one thing and yeah, im gone. bamf.
hell.
hell.
hell.
hell.

you laugh. okay well, i didnt think i'd still care. i dont really, but i do, and it's not bout that, it's abt THIS. this WHOLE thing, the everybody thing. and im nobody. im worse than nobody, im not even there.

at this stupid point, i still hv time to wonder if you noticed. thanks a lot, it's all my fault.

arent we all the happy kids. like the brady bunch. but not as blonde. do i still count if no one saw me? i didnt think so.

congrats, you've erased your ugly past. i've erased my ugly past. now if i would do the same for my present and future. soon, i think. it wouldnt take long for me to screw this up too, i happen to be quite good at it.

go ahead, laugh your ass off. i would. and i will once i sneeze my nose off, the weather will take care of that.

this is there, do you see it, do you see this? do you do you do you? i've wondered.

i took a cab to school today, quite cheap in comparision to all the times before. and the quiz seemed...alright. i could answer most of it w confidence. know i've got one confirmed wrong though, and more i cant be sure abt.

studying for it was rather....nostalgic. well, not that i ever studied much as we all know my grades, but you know, i had my moments.

real short class today, ended at like 4.30, went to find huiting and stacey. tmr i'll hv heavy class, all the theory will come out. but i actually find the knit and weave part quite fun.

stacey lives like, across the road from ht and i! like seriously. cool right, i drew a rough map to show you like how near we are frome each other. damn cool. keep in mind i said ROUGH map.


sorry i cant control the pencil tool v well but, see! bishan and tpy separated by one road!!! so cool.

okay. so then when i got home okto was showing monster house cos its a teachers' day special. so i watched it since it was effing early and i had no idea what to do w myself (i didnt feel like gg out, the weather felt like a lounge day) and like, it was quite good. but they keep repeating it. wish they'd show new movies, maybe then i'd watch more tv.

went to try on the two outfits i bought ytd. dont they always look better in the fitting room? hah okay just me i guess. gosh im hungry, guess one meal really isnt enough for one day. damn.

then i watched ming zhong zu ding wo ai ni as usual, since i started it, i hv to finish it. and like, ji cunxi is so not cute and like, the dylan guy is kiiiiiiinda cute. like, kinda.

oh, today's lesson was so fun, i loved all the little swatches of fabrics! and i loved my tank top since forever, today i learned it was a 2 x 2 rib knit. cool huh. shall buy more 2x2 rib knit shirts. no wonder previously whenever i went shopping and found labels tht said ribknit i thought they were bluffing, in actual fact those were the 1x1 rib knits nor other rib knits.

kay i shall shut up bout it now, im sure you guys dont find it as interesting as i do lol.

cant wait for holidays to come, i really miss having days to myself where i can do whatever i want whenever i feel like it and not feel guilty bout it.

YOU CANT STOP THE RAIN

everyone's enjoying a day off or in minshan's case, the start of her 6 week holidays while im at home hoping for the rain, rain to go away and come back another day so that i can go to school.

yes, i hv school. no public holiday for us.

and i hv a quiz. 10% of our grade. i've studied but dunno if it's enough, feel like i didnt memorise everything.

lalala. meifeng and danny they all playing badminton now. and i hv class frm 3 to 6. ohwell at least i aint got promos to study for.

cold. damn, wearing shorts today. ytd was fun. wish i gt to sch earlier though. and i wish we had more time. and also up was like, so nice :)

understatement, man. just like, watch it if you havent.

i tweet now. i always knew i could make animal sounds.