melancholy, melodrama, mellow

hello hello! how weird, i seem to only like to post on wednesdays. as meifeng wld say, STRANGE. so today is like, minshan & fadhil's bday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TWO!

i can hear the contestants from Live The Dream singing in the background. mom is watching it. so like, today is a rather cool day, & many things happened in the past wk.

for one, turns out i didnt hv to buy Lavender! qh has had it since like, forever, & she lent it to me, tgt w the book. im reading a chinese book! wow, i nvr thot i'll see that day. neither did you, huh? LOL. i've watched XunYiCao until the last 3discs alr. i dont wana finish watching it! sigh. i am so so so lusting over Xu Shao Yang lah can, he looks so cool in there. like, jsdajgcfuekjchkf that he is twice my age. grah. im gonna watch Ai Qing Jing Ji Yue next. now to figure out if i shd buy it or watch it on youtube or smth. or borrow it. speaking of which, shd i borrow the hongkong show one? its like $16 for 2wks, damn cheat money lah, i one day can finish watching lor, then i go buy also around $30. but then again i dont really like the actors. alright, im biased, i only noe 3 of the main actors, & YES, XuSaoYang is one of them! also, the pawnshop no.8 or smth like that seems pretty cool, but dang if it isnt expensive to borrow. SIGH.

cant wait, cant wait til the hols! short as they are. sigh, i'll be sec FOUR soon. super soon. and then comes my birthday. sigh, alone again. early birthdays suck like vacuum cleaners. by alone, i mean of course, the no one remembering thing, but nvm (:

i am currently all over things connected to AXSY. like red things. i love red things, i have since last year, and wowie, he seems to like it too! u'd be blind or REALLY unobservant to not notice that he wears smth red in almost all the scenes, has red on his guitars, & has got like 2 red cars or smth. red is hot. HOT. dont worry, im sure my craze will burn out soon, they always seem to, except of course when it comes to-....................

him & him. yucks. was sure i'd put it behind me but then someone brought him up & i was like, OH BUMMER, I AM SO BUMMED OUT immediately. eeek. whatever! then the other one, dunno lah, also quite gloomgloomdarkcloud-esque. lol, my eng is atrocious.

speaking of atrocious things, i failed both sciences by like a few marks & barely passed chinese. EEK. have nvr come this close to failing mt b4, which reminds me, i've got mt hmwk to do.

i love my pretty nails! they are like, so pretty. woot. poor me, i so have like not enough money to go around. lets think: shd i buy the CDs 1st, the nail polish, the mini rouge or what?
oh, oh, u noe, i think i cant go to japan anymore, like, my horrible grades hv made my chances like, splat. sucks lah, who noes when i can step outta the country now. i mean, i am so miserably low income.

last night, i listened to Dui Bu Qi, Wo Ai Ni by liang jing ru & i tink like, whoa got this song de ar. lo. i love Wo Huai Nian De by Sun Yan Zi! its so cool, its bool.

GRINGRINGRINGRINGRIN i feel alot of weird mixed up things today. i am happy, melancholic, nostalgic, excited, jealous, angry and bittersweet. bittersweet. LOL, how can i feel bittersweet? well boo, i do. not bitter, but bittersweet. sigh.
okay hon, gtg bye!

LOVESSSS<3

LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE♥

i am, once again, in love all over again with AXSY. *melts*

i dont get it, why dont u guys get it? he's got the most gorgeous smile.

it's the gorgeous-est ever! (((:

*SWOONS* does he not have the best smile EVER?!?!

here's what i've heard so far:

"ew he looks so old!" (NOOOO!)

"omg he looks like a girl, his hair is longer than mine!" =.=

"are those WRINKLES?" (NO!)

"kay lah, not bad." (:

"oh! u like him ar?" :D

teehee im listening to his song right now. *goofy smile*

granted, that photo was probably from like a few yrs ago, & he IS older than most of the ou xiang ju stars out there but DAMN, is his smile great or what! so he's twice my age & gonna be 31 soon, he's still younger than Wang Lee Hom, whom, need i remind u guys, i also like.

I FOUND THE XUN YI CAO VCD AT THOMSON PLAZA! :DDDDDD

and im also like gonna possibly buy the ai qing jing ji yue vcd too. man, the last time i went all crazy over ou xiangs, i spent a wild amt of money, buying different editions of the SAME cd THREE times! (it was 5566's Tony Sun back then, who is even older than Wang Lee Hom. lol) and i have the Westside Story vcd which i have not re-watched since then. LOL what a perfectly good way to spend money. jeez. how did i get $60+ to spend on CDS at that age?

oh, you know, im so loving the song Running Away now. all those who watched Ghost Whisperer last friday wld hv heard it. is it not the coolest or what? it's SO nice.

kanika is a bad influence. she propagandised (is there such a word???) me to skip training and eat junk food. i feel so icky now. on the bright side, i did find the Lavender series vcd there, so i guess its okay. (((((:

i wonder why i cant find his CDs anywhere but at HMV. ohyes, i want them too.

if any kind beautiful souls wld buy any of these for me, i will so, SO, forever be thankful. =)

im going to go to dance class again! now its really funny, sec1 & 2 & 3 tgt. ahahha. i wish xh & julia wld go back too... im gonna go ask alvin if 'engagement for love' was nice. and ask qh for advice abt xun yi cao. plus borrow the book.

AXSY♥

you make me feel out of my element

wow training today after like many many months. played matches & went to gym & like, the treadmill is fun. i broke a nail, damn. and man, are my triceps non-existent or what! i feel like the jelly i ate for lunchtime dessert. yum, grape flavoured.

ooh chem test is over, just one grammar test & NAPFA test this friday. yep. THIS Friday! oh gosh. i dont even wana aim for anth but a pass anymore.

GUESS WHAT!
okay nevermind i'll tell you.

After so many, many years of waiting, hoping & complaining, I have FINALLY FINALLY HIT 157CM!
its like, a total big deal.
yes, i know im short, but good things come to those who wait!

yay i guess that oreo ice blended i had was a celebratory drink. okay so i drank back the calories i lost on that treadmill.
LIKE, WHATEVER.

& i feel like such a liability. sigh.

looong weekend!

today marks the end of the long weekend & i cannot wait for the september holidays!

they're just two weeks away. tmr is start of week 8, & i major tests. im so glad SPA is over. however, i've got Trig test tmr. omg. & SS test. & literature test! yikes. plus on tues, i've got Chem test. but after that, i tink im DONE. yep. all that's left is awaiting my report slip.

i can alr tell u some of the grades. F9 for math & Amath. D7 for physics & maybe E8 for chem. i noe i havent taken chem yet, but with mole concept? im not optimistic at all. im hoping i ace lit & SS. i noe there's no way im gonna ace english this term, considering...sigh. goodbye A1. and mother tongue? i hope i at least scrape like, a C5. i hv no idea what Mr Chin's standards are.

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it just dawned on me that i still hv NAPFA to deal with! and God knows i've been pigging out like EVERYDAY lately! omg, at least it's still 2wks away...right? well it's in wk 9. I THINK. omg i am so screwed.

sigh. holidays, pls hurry.

looong weekend!

NDP 07

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY COUSIN-IN-LAW!

today is singapore's special day & also biao jie fu Sam's bday! so my family went to Jasmine biao jie & biao jie fu's place in the afternoon for the party. parteeeeeeeeee! ahahaha.

i wore red cos ytd i wore white. so cool right! i bought a red shirt ytd, & i love it. red is hot. i tink i was overdressed again. i mean, nobody told me the theme was casual casual! i was semi casual, but i tink my earrings overdid it just a bit. hmm. plus i was literally THE ONLY PERSON THERE BETWEEN THE AGES OF 10 TO 30. and im not exaggerating, btw. unless you count the maid, who's probably in her 20s. like, the person whjo's nearest my age is my NEICE, who's 9, turning 10 ltr this yr =.= i was bored outta my skull. therefore, i de-bored myslf by eating. & eating. & eating. yeah, Sam's brother-in-law came into the dining room like 3x only to see me pigging out. i stayed in there like 30min, just EATING. gosh.

the parade was boring. after i stuffed myslf, the kids came to ask me to play. Rachel stood behind me & said "biao yi" like 2318531x before i heard her. lol so malu. the kids were my neice & nephew, Rachel who's 9 & Brandon who's like 5 or 6, Sam's sisters' kids Grace & Jayna who're 6(or 7) & 8 respectively. Grace the kid is such a scaredy-cat. she screamed & howled noisily while watching Jurassic Park. jeez its just a gigantic human eating, dinosaur killing, bone crunching, noisy roaring big dinosaur. and not even a T-rex, which is, admittedly, cuter than the other dino, but still. its on TV -.- and she shrieked like it was chasing her. and she loves to scream & cry for fun. so not me when i was younger. (: Jayna on the other hand, is alot more like me. steady & shy & pretty. hahaha im jk abt the last one.

guess what we played. Pictionary. JUNIOR Pictionary. oh gosh. needless to say, i won. im sorry if i dont sound v enthusiastic abt my kid relatives, its just that they were so...rah. Rachel took things pretty well, but then she's had plenty of practise & im not exactly famed for my way with kids, i mean, i screamed at Rachel alot when we were both little kids. being 6 yrs old & having attention taken away from you does alot of things to ur jealous side, & im sure i was horrible to Rachel back then. Brandon & Kid Grace argued & Brandon threw a tantrum & omg, I SOLVED IT. cool or what? my older sister instincts must be kicking in. lol. Jayna & Rachel ended up drawing animals. Rachel is so sweet, she hero worships my drawings. my art is sucky as hell, yet she stands by them & maintains that they are very nice & cute. how sweet is that? & lemme tell ya, her art is like wow. & she's shy & modest too, which is why i nvr got any pictures taken with them ): i must do so b4 they leave for Shanghai next yr.

birthday cakes were super yummy! we had chocolate banana cake & cheese cake! they were soooooo good, & we has a blackout in the middle of it! cool. cakes tasted as good without light (: the food was all great. yum.

national day eve!

wore white top,jeans & gold shoes to sch! totally overdressed, but whatever. cause like, i was going to town & i didnt wana be like, tee & jeans & so i wore...nice tee & jeans? um. there's a difference, really.
so like, everyone basically sat in the hall for like 3hours, flattening our bums & cramping our legs. awards, talent time, & then blah blah blah i cant rmb. ohyes i rmb jiaxin kept POKING me & ppl were like, stand up for zoe & we were like, okay & in the end i think only half the class stood up. heh. zoe is pro. olivia is also v pro! yeah man pro ppl.
okay then we got dismissed. and the entire 3/3 plus a few other non 3/3 ppl went to the canteen in droves, awaiting a lunch provided by hu lao shi. now, even thou jared & i arent in hmt, we ate anw X) yeah we had rice, soup &...soup? yeah. two types of soup!

after lunch it was time for a trip to fun house. kanika, lynette, xinping, minshan, tingzhi, jiaxin, ziai, sherilyn, me & yiyin went to yiyin's house & had a bunch of fun. rusty is cutecutecute! & has smth abt kanika. we saw monkeys! omg, there were soooooooo cute. and then when lyn & i left abt 3+ & i was on the bus to town, i counted a family of 15 monkeys monkeying around on the side of thompson road! like, super cute can.
at 4+, qiulin & i finally met! i kept her waiting for long time, oops. we were supposed to meet at three, but dragged til then. heh. sorry babe! we shopped & walked & tested nail polish & omg! anna sui limited edition nail polish is oh-so-pretty & deliciously fruity! yes, its like, scented! we both tried on like a whole bunch of clothes & wow we took v long. then during dinner, here's what we had in total: a jumbo bbq sausage, a french fries sausage, yam cake, & red bean pie. & then it was time to leave. ql cldnt go to phs carnival, so i went to meet the others there. we boarded 162 at 7.20pm. OMG HAHAHHA YOU KNOW WHAT. passengers totally thot we were like a couple, cos we were taking pics & giggling & totally girly & it was so funny.

FINALLY, at 8+ i arrived at yck. wow, buses take uber long. sooo not fun. phs was in chaos! so messy & according to ken, so sian, nth to do! yiyin & i both arrived at abt 8.30, & we, tgt with ken, waited for JC til abt 9.30, when we left for supper at J8. this is the spooky part. we were at S11 from 9.45 to abt 10.30, and at abt 10.15, they started telling ghost stories. they were all not creepy, until JC told his uber scary one. and kenneth & i were laughing it off & saying lame stuff, until suddenly, i started getting this uneasy feeling. okay, uneasy is an understatement. i was basically freaking out. and it was the story that was spooking me, it was everything. like, the surroundings, the atmosphere...i dunno. it was like the place itself was spooking me. and boy, was i flipping out. i was like, can you please please please stop saying alr, can we leave? please? omg, i want to leave, i reli want to leave... i cant even descirbe how creepy it was okay. that feeling was just GRIPPING me, & i just wanted to get outta there. and no one took me seriously, even thou i was slapping JC's shoulder & stuff. and then i said the thing which i think they finally believed. becos im like seriously in tune to my intuition & (forgive me if it sounds lame) psychic powers, i REALLY believed that we shd leave, u noe? so i told them exactly that, & finally JC was like, okay lor let's leave. & the crazy thing is that, the moment we left the coffeeshop & reached the interchange, i felt immensely better. like a huge weight had been pressing down on me b4, & lifted up. the spooky feeling left, but i still felt uneasy, & JC had to walk me home. i am so glad he did, becaus ei wld hv scared myslf silly if i went home alone. seriously, on the way home, i reflected on the feeling & it seemed so dumb that i cld hv been so scared! i'd nvr been the easily spooked type b4. i told JC that, & i tink he also dint noe what to say, i tink my freaky behaviour scared him. maybe he thot i was nuts. oops. but he was like, ok im glad u feel better, go home slp then tmr everything better alr. whew. it was just FREAKY.

but all in all, today was a fun day (:

geeeee...

geography test was 5hrs ago! and im pretty sure i didnt fail. thankyou kind frens! also, thankyou psychic powers which made me think i shd focus on the case study! hmm, better hope nobody who hasnt taken the test sees this. ahahha.

cldnt find ms sharmilah today, thus cldnt hand in eng stuff. eeyer. then my one percent will be taken away? somemore ytd can hand in de lor, then she didnt wana accept it. yucks, i am not happy.

my underneath the smile essay which was supposed to be a masterpiece ended up more like a piece of the masterpiece. sooo unfinshed & repetitive. ick. ohwell.

how how how?????? so many things to do, so little time. ahahha so mary-kate & ashley.

gonna binge soon. feel like eating. nth to eat. still wana eat. im a food junkie! junkie junkie junkie. JUNKIE.

who wants to go to phs carnival nxt wk?
yiyin & i may be going.
must go ask the guys.
wonder if linlin free...
lalala!

my class got harry jackson. very handsome de. want go see.
tmr is friday! woot.

tmr hv math test ))):
*sadness*
fail again, die.

i hv recently fallen for apple tea. very nice. yumyum. drink the pokka brand one. apple tea, the drink for apple and tea lovers alike. hahah.

i love chocolate! eaten loads the past two days. esp love dark chocolate.
did i mention that mom says i can go japan? well if im selected to go, im allowed. so yeah from now on, all my shopping for clothes has to be practical. meaning everything i buy must be like, can use on the trip de. although its still not confirmed that i can go. hmm. rahh.

japan. nipon. riben.

i have gone old school! backpack seems to be coming back recently, im sure u've noticed. past few months, lotsa ppl hv reverted to backpacks, bringing back old school style (:
its seriously lighter. althou has less space, but super duper light. cool.

this post is in green because i feel like making it green. teeheeheeeeeeee......