crazy.bitch.

FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK.

*ooh shock grace has a foul mouth*
yes i do.

this is a post decicated to venting my frustation and i dont bloody care how u see it so there u worthless asshole. I AM NOT BEING EMO.

my mother is the cause, as always and dont any of u pissers try to say anth stupid like "oh grace dont be such a spoiled brat lah shes ur mother leh" SO WHAT I DONT CARE IF SHE IS MY MOTHER I JUST WANT TO SCOLD AS MUCH AS I CAN SO NO ONE BETTER SAY ANTH LIKE THAT ESP U YIYIN COS U'VE SAID BEFORE AND LEMME TELL U I DONT NID U OR ANYONE ELSE TO TELL ME.

yeah now let me give the reason of this vengeful post.

apparently, i can go to chalet on one condition, that i dont stay overnight. HAH. let me repeat that, HAH. HAH again and double HAH. why? why cant i stay? oh nth shes probably just fucking paranoid that oh, i dunno, that i'll get raped or smth. oh gee, that isnt too bad, perhaps i'll get kidnapped, robbed, molested, raped, cut, disfigured...hmm maybe disembowelled oh haha wad da hell is that i dont even noe it just feels gd to type it. yeah hey maybe if im lucky i'll attract the attention of those ppl who kidnap ppl, chop off their limbs de & get sold to Malaysia to be a beggar in the streets. wow that is so cool i hope i get to try it.

oh hey wait! why am i being so negative? aw i shd just be incredibly happy i even get to go in the first place yeah? okay! i'll go! oh no i cant! i cant risk the chance of me being abducted on the way to and fro! what if i get sold to be a ... i dunno what izit they sell ppl to be these days. nope, i cant risk me going out at all. yup i'll just stay home & mope. nah my mom wont lemme do that i'll probably hv to mop the floor, not sit and mope ard.

yep that is basically the reason i can stay: i'll 'do smth wrong & regret it the rest of my life'.
smth like, get drunk there then allow myslf to be taken advantage of by some cheeko peh

yes, i will, because i am so mortally weak that i'll never be able to make the right decision - heck! i cant even be trusted upon to actually MAKE a decision, much less the right one! uh huh, im way better off staying home away frm all the dangers of the world. oh except that there are dangers at home too, arent there? GEE what shd i do then?

let me small stupid pathetic reason of a daughter attempt to make the correct decision. go chalet thou i cant stay?


NO FUCKING WAY.
im staying home.
because really, what is the POINT of going there, paying for everything and getting only half the fun of actually being there?
let me list the things i'll miss: the nightwalk, the ghost stories, the late night poker games, the suppers, the stay-up-chats, the odd dirty jokes floating ard, the conversations, the communication, the whole bonding thing. oh pooh that really isnt missing alot og things i shd stop being such a mule-headed ass abt it and just GO yeah?

no.

what is it to my mother i'll nvr be able to maintain a healthy friendship with anybody because half the time im missing out on things cos she being overprotective?
what is it to her that i'll probably become an adult with no experience of ever being really independent while taking care of myslf in a foreign place then everyone will label me a freakin loser and i'll nvr hv ny proper decent person as a fren and i'll live to be a loner all the rest of my (pathetic) life and i'll die alone just cos shes being paranoid?

oh nth, of cos.
she'll be gone by then so duh, she wont get to see my in my loserish state so whatever, heck cares lah hor.

yep, thats what i'll grow up to be. because men are unworthy of trust, as are daughters aged fourteen, named grace (namely me). because men are suspicious characters and i must not trust them , ugly as they may be.

hah im starting to not make sense.
heck care.

fuck it all i dont care anymore i dont want to go anywhere except the two bball frenlys on tues and wed. see how cool i hv trng on mon morn, cedar frenly on tues n hua yi frenly on wed everything clashes its fated i shdnt do anth i want, nth fun for me, oh no cos i CANNOT BE TRUSTED.

oh fuck it all.

dont anyone comment on this post i dont need any sympathy/pity/anything frm you at all. except perhaps a number i can call to hire an assasin for ten bucks, as its all the money i hv.

repeat, i dont want any comments
am i understood?

(nah probably not, i nvr am. hah im not being emo im just stating facts thankew)