hair despair

okay, so i've hacked off like maybe 60% of my hair ytd.
and i am SOOO not used to it.

last night i kept having NO hair in my face and i didnt hv to brush any hair away at all. and then i can no longer pull all my hair to one side of my head, and that feels real strange. and in bed, i kept trying to pull my hair out from under me (cause it was so long previously, it kept getting caught underneath me and everything. and lemme tell ya, it is NOT fun to try to do smth as simple as push urslf off bed and pull out a few hairs accidentally cos the elbow you used to push urslf off bed w had caught a couple of strands of hairs beneath them) but i didnt hv to at all.

and i kinda feel like im growing a mushroom on my head.

okay, so its not thaaaat bad, but its...... different.

very different.

i know its a practice of mine to grow my hair out super long (yes i know it was really long) and then want a change and chop it all off so its quite short, then i'll miss the long hair and grow it all out again and then i'll feel it's boring and want short hair again.
well, so yeah, it's short, but this time it's not as short as when i cut it a few yrs back. this time i guess it's mid length, but it's still freaking strange to me.

not the length part, but the style part.

omg.

because get this,

i permed my hair.
okay the hairstylist did it, but lets not get technical. still. i am now the unsure owner of a hairstyle that is smth i so do not want to emulate nor be. as a result, i am at a loss of what to wear. that is a common occurence, i admit, but this time, its because i feel nth in my closet SUITS me, or rather, the hairstyle i now hv. i so miss my longer hair, cause i feel if i had the same hairstly, only longer, at least i wld know what to do w it, and w myslf. but hey, i wanted a change right?

so here i hv it, so i cant complain. much. sigh.

i look like a completely different person!

a haircut creates miracles. some good, some....not so good.