hope you guys have had a better day than me. honestly, nvr jugde anth by its cover. i tuned in to the radio this morn and first thing i heard was "Hanging by a moment" by Lifehouse, one of my fave Lifehouse songs and i thought it was gonna be a gd day, y'know?
in math today mr chye basically insulted me. he was being a huge jerk,implying that my parents had spared the rod and spoiled the child. and he humiliated me openly by saying that he'd marked my paper in one minute. "...your paper was the first one i marked you know, one mintute (and) i marked finish alr" i didnt hand in a blank piece, i did try, and even if i was no good at it was it really necessary to say what he did?
so i said "you're so mean,", to which he replied that he doesnt care what he says, if im lousy he's gonna tell it to me straight (not in exact words, i have edited the grammar) and carried on a whole bunch of how nowadays the parents all baby and spoil the kid resulting in the kid being too stupid and cannot even do well at PSLE and tht if its time to hit the kid, must hit. therefore he implied i'd nvr been disciplined as a child. and then he said more things which i found highly distasteful, thus i told him, "you know, there's a line between being tactful and tactless". looking back i shd hv said there's a difference, not line. anw he raised his voice and said he didnt care for tact and then said a whole lotta hurtful, awful and unnecessary things.
i really dont think its appropriate to assume things abt ppl when you know next to nothing about them. spoiled and spared the rod, am i? oh really, tell me, did your mom own five canes?
plus, these type of comments cld leave a kid emotionally scarred for a long, long time. it cld even make the difference between life and death. you nvr know, a mentally unstable kid who "xiang bu kai" (cannot think things through/ cannot take critique?) may do some stupid thing.
i just think its really unnecessary to say these kind of things.
what was intended as motivation may end up being demoralization, resulting in depression and hopelessness. its just that you nvr know how much a person can take. and i get enough discouragement frm my mother, thanks. dont see her method working, do you?
chinese. mother tongue.
i did badly. i dont know, im happy with my oral results, but that means i did badly for my paper. and that means i can (n prob shd) retake, but i just...i really dont know. am i willing to put in the effort? can i make it? will i give up?
i wish there was someone here to walk me thru it, each step of the way. but there isnt, and no one can help me but myself.
Gosh, Grace, what did you get yourself into now?
i want advice. hit me with it. please.
the other thing which upset me today isnt even worth mentioning. just like me.
now for shoutouts:
To YingYu:
thanks for all your advice! i appreciate all your input and i do not find you naggy :) yay so happy tht you havent given up on me, you rock like the rocks at East Coast Park okay.
To Kanika:
you very nice to me today ar! aww how sweet of you, being extra nice to me today. thankyou for accompanying me all the way to J8, and not being harsh when i gush about good looking men. LOL. i'll go to Columbia w u if u make a trip down under w me :D
To YiYin:
thanks in advance for helping me transfer the money. unless too late and kena cancel,then i shall edit this away. hahahhahh :D
To Diana:
split your face into a grin, cause you're still the pro-est dude to me! (dont tell Jonathan, shhh...) no matter what you decide to do, your friends will always be behind you. teehee i shd so be a poet.
To Tania, GuoZhang and misc.:
you guys, indulge in some chocolate and/or ice cream and feel better! lol you guys wont read this but i just feel like typing it.
finally,
To the one and only,ME:
feel better after stuffing your face? your fast food fix has done you good huh. be happy that you have your gorgeously supportive and ENCOURAGING friends. they've got your back and have no doubt that
now im stronger than yesterday
now its nothing but my way
my loneliness aint killing me no more
i'm, i'm stronger
:DDD
LOL LOL LOL!!!! the words kinda dont tie in. but stronger by kanye west doesnt either.
thanks also to JUANNE for her advice, QIANHUI for listening to me (n standing on my side, and everything! hug hug! lol.) and any other ppl i forgot. you guys rock so much, malaysia can feel the tremors.
in Beijing Michael Phelps is like getting more golds.
i know someone who can give him a run (or swim, haha.) for his money (or medals...), of which im sure he's got plenty :(((
people in love are supposed to be happy, and like, GLOW. *switches off room light*
nah, not glowing here.
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