of screens and teens

hello all! im in drawing essentials class now and everyone is like rushing their A2 sized final assignment. and i was too until a moment ago when i went to the toilet. my eyes are so tired from focusing on a little part of the picture on screen! so now im blogging to just like, relax a bit. although this still involves staring at the screen, so yeah, great idea grace.

lalala. this morning in creative writing paul didnt manage to consult everyone and i was one of those who didnt get a consultation but oh well i can still email him but but but like, i dont have a solid plot in my head.

i was thinking of using either my just-so story or my new take on the fairytale thing, but it seems kinda....easy? as in like, im simply reusing my idea, i feel like im stupid or smth. so then i came up with a few other ideas but nothing is like, GRIPPING me with inspiration.

there is one though that i thought of that is pretty cool, but only if im able to pull it off with really well written descriptives.

like this is one of those that im misleading the audience into thinking smth when its actually really another thing, so it has to be really well crafted, you know?

so i dont plan on sleeping tonight to chiong it. huiting thinks very highly of me and was lke, but it's not like it's v hard for you to come up with smth.

awww. i appreciate that, but...

well that's true, but it doesnt mean whatever i come up with i'd like. like, you know sometimes you have ideas and then you have great ideas. ideas turn out to be cute and passable, even entertaining. but great ideas will take the readers on a ride and it'll stay with them for a while. memorable. great ideas are...elusive.

i mean, i cold just write a crappy story that'll let me scrape pass a pass, but i love writing and i wanna be proud of my work. if i write like, a story that goes nowhere and is just one of my normal monolougue-ish types, then i'll probably chuck it somewhere and never read it again.

that's not good.

i already wrote the whole monolouge thing for my journal entries. i hope paul liked them, but im not gonna take a chance on it and do the same thing again. if he didnt like them at all, i'll be commiting suicide. if he did, he'll probably get bored of the same thing from me and grade me poorly.

and i know i didnt do so well for my second assignment cos well....it wasnt anything spectacular. it was kinda plain and boring. sadness.

and then the third assignment......i did it on Fahrenheit 451 and i had too much to say and didnt express it well or completely missed the point. i just feel so like, failure ttm.

i dont expect like smth completely PSYCHO COOL IN A SCARY BUT AWESOME WAY ala Snow, Glass, Apples, but at least smth like, I DID MY BEST AND ITS PRETTY KICK-ASS BY ME. hmm. that doesnt make sense when you read the whole sentence.

argh basically i just wanna put in a lot of effort in it.

and then after handing it in tmr morning i'll chiong A2 drawing the whole day and night for submission on friday noon.

okay okay, this is turning out to be quite long, imma go now, expect me to blog sometime in the mid of the night woohoo witching hour omg that is so cool i shd totally tell ppl to use that in their story cause i cant in mine.

TO THE SUPERMARKET! (for caffeinated drinks for tonight)