farewell oh nine

Hey you. Im on my way to chalet right now, and im effing late but im alone so i thought hey why not write my end of 2009 post now?
Yep so here we are, at 31 dec, the last day of the year. And we gotta bid goodbye to 2009, and feel sad for all the things that happened this year.

Are you sad this yr will soon be gone? I cant honestly say i am, because this year has been a total waste of makeup. Haha. I mean, yes, im happy i made good friends in poly, but i also made enemies. and most of the time im unhappy rather than not in school.

But im coping. What else this year? Im sorry, i cant think of anth. Because that's how pointless this year has been. Perhaps because i'd had so many great yrs before this? Idk.

Sure, i became a lot closer w existing friends, but i also drifted away from close ones. I love all my friends, and i truly am glad life brought us tgt. But then there are those you lose on the road of life. Which is sad. Really.

And so, new environment. New friends. Poly has been...a learning experience. I've never done so much work in my life. work is still a totally new thing for me to get used to, and i hope the ppl know im trying really hard. I really, really am. I just wish they knew me a little better, or at all.

Sometimes things get a little too much for you, and you lose sight of the things tht are impt to you, or even yourself. I think this year i definitely lost myself a bit. Maybe some of you close to me might have noticed, but maybe not.

Change.
It is ever present. And no one is an exception. I've definitely changed this year. Several before this have commented on how i speak only proper english and i know this has made at least one person uneasy. And this year many were surprised at the variety of vulgarities spewing forth from me.

Im not sure how i feel abt how vulgar i can be, but i hope you know tht if i am, it's because i choose to be. And there's certainly been a lot for me to curse of this year. I hope that changes. I've realised sometimes nothing is as eloquent as a curse word.

This year old friends reconnected, and other friends were lost to me. I still miss my tuition friends, and my coaches, and i wish i still had their numbers so i could text them, but one of the things i lost this year were all my contacts, and my old phone. So if any of you old peeps see this (unlikely but possible), hit me w a text. But in the meantime i will search for you on fb :)

ah, fb. sometimes i do love you.

This year, i had my first taste of sleepovers. My mum finally said yes to letting me stay over at a friend's house just last week on christmas at yiyin's. i also had more sleepovers at my hse this year, yay. And i finally got a bit more freedom this year, about time too. i have poly to thank for that.

Okay i think that abt sums up 2009. I told you there wasnt much to miss. Thanks, you friends, you've been the only thing for me to live for. I came so close a few times...so thank you. Even if you dont know what you did. Just stay by me.

Goodbye 2009! Hello 2010. I've just abt reached pasir ris too :)