spontaneity

today i woke up with no idea what i was gonna do.

i wanted to be spontaneous and see what wld happen.

this is what happened.

CAMWHORING!

take a closer look at the pics, see that figure in the back in each pic? that's JANE. i went over to her place in the end and i kinda got bored and started camwhoring. by myself. because jane was like, "no! i havent put on my eyeliner yet! and my hairband! cannot take picture!"

hmm.

tmr im going to vivo! yay. you know, i realised tht suddenly i hv alot of things to do. so stupid. busy people busy people. we have manymany things to do. and i guess we cant help if we let down some ppl along the way. mmm. which is kinda sad.

i wanna talk to you, and its so difficult to do because u're nvr free, and i dont wana be a bother, so i just kinda stay away. and thats not very nice at all cos u told me to add you, and i thot once i did, we'll talk better, but now its just like, WORSE. i dont even get a msg anymore. u noe, i wld hv been happy with that one msg every 2days thing. now its just kinda...disappointing. but i know u're busy so its kinda like a self-inflicted wound. u know, like, the higher the hope, the greater the disappointment. but hey, self-inflicted wound or not, it's still hurtful.