POOH.
prom prep puts more pressure on ppl than Os! i mean, if u cant find a dress, YOU CANT FIND A DRESS, and tht's exactly what happened to me! you can close your mouth now, i know you think i probably found everything two mths b4 prom but truth be told.....i didnt.
so what did i do?
well aside from having multiple prom disaster nightmares, nothing much til after end of Os. seriously. and my nightmares? they almost came true. i actually felt like i was living them for a bit, and it scared the hell outta me.
they all go pretty much the same; im all excited bout grad ball and talking bout all the stuff i was gonna do and planning all the prom prep, that i didnt notice the time passing and suddenly the day was upon me and i hadnt actually DONE anth.
i end up late and in an old dress i had lying around cos i hadnt bought anth. in one nightmare, i was actually wearing the wrong shoes.
freaky.
i began dress searching four days before end of Os but in the back of my mind i knew i had a last resort dress in my closet. the nxt day however, i found it looked not too hot on me so i effectively was in the race for the perfect dress.
misato had the dress.
leaving me pris and kanika.
then kanika found one on monday night, 10 nov.
and pris bought one not long after.
gasp.
yiyin had hers long ago.
meifeng found one.
as did kailing.
i
was
the
last
one.
shopping every single day, i must hv found smth right? yep. except i lost it. it was a last pc and it got sent back to the supplier the morning i went back for it. sigh. and it was saturday by then. prom was 2 days away and i was dressless! it was without a doubt, an emergency.
meifeng was great though, she went out w me on sunday. the day before prom. to find me a dress. i cant begin to describe how stressed i was. we set out early at 11am.
ironically,we found it in the first store we went into, a store i had insisted we skip every other time we had gone shopping. topshop.
hahah. talk bout irony.
i was kinda desperate by then (COME ON, DAY BEFORE PROM.) so even the hefty price tag didnt deter me much. surely $143 was okay right?
besides, it had all the makings of a 'me' dress. a different cut, a different look, the shiny material. not to mention it wld so rock w sex and the city shoes.
if only i had decided on the look i wanted earlier. shopping wld hv been so much easier.
before, i wanted jewel tone sleek. for such a hot trend, it was amazingly difficult to find. or fabulously expensive. i saw one 300 over dollar one in robinsons that fit the bill, w the only prob its length and of cos, price.
and i had always been really into the fitted waist, so a tie-back seemed a natural choice. that is, til i realised just bout evrybody i knew, EVERYBODY, was wearing a tie-back dress.
being the fussy me who just had to look different just cause i could, i didnt wanna buy anth like that. and admit it, tubes halters spaghetti straps- common beyond common.
i dont know why i didnt wanna look generic so badly, but i just didnt.
all looked bleak til the day before prom when i found the strappy black number in topshop.
i'd finally settled on smth tht bordered on rock chic. think smth on the line between casual and formal. and i know i was very adverse to it previously, but i'd decided black was the way to go.
yay me.
now, i considered some other choices. like the black banded bottom dress in warehouse with the strappy back. (SO costly. and banded bottom. omg.) and the gorgeous black dress in ms selfridge with the sequined waist. their prices were all abt $40 of each other, the topshop one in the middle. with meifeng's help, i finally decided on that. it wasnt perfect, but it was as near as i could get. a dress in the commonest colour with a most uncommon cut. i adore the beaded straps!
okay i admit i had misgivings. after all, it was rather low cut, and the back was... unusual.
and when i put it on coupled with the hot beyond hot stilettos i found later, i wondered if i looked like a slut.
Grace is many things, but she is no slut. i was going for the rock chic sex and the city stilettos look, but did i pass that and hit slutty?
PLEASE SAY NO :(
after all it wasnt figure hugging and it stayed in place.
and when i put the whole ensemble tgt, complete with chunky bangles, chunky ring and chunky heels, i was happy.
so i didnt care.
and i realised smth i had nvr quite been able to grasp before, the way too self conscious me. as long as u're happy, nothing else really matters.
so you see, there really is no perfect dress. if you think you look good, and you feel good, you're happy. and that's The Dress.
everything comes with imperfections, and the flaws are really what makes something truly special. so maybe this whole post was a waste of time, but im happy, and i learned smth.
not just when it comes to dress hunting, or even shopping in general, but life.
there is no perfection. there is no perfect look, no perfect place, no perfect man. there is only love and acceptance. embracing everything about the thing or the one you love, and not wanting to change anything about it. only then can you be truly happy.
all along i'd wanted the perfect dress to make the prom look perfect, but it isnt the dress that makes somebody, is it? that night, i didnt want to change anything on me. i didnt want my arms to be toner, i didnt want myself to be skinnier and i didnt want myself to be anyone else, but me. that's never happened before. the only thing i wanted that night? some oil blotters.
hahahahahha.
and okay, im sure my double chin could hv been less obvious, but whatever! i was happy :)
im not sure how shopping for a prom dress taught me this, but it did, somehow.
LOL i never meant for this post to be that deep, it really just started out as a frivolous post, but ohwell.
and this concludes this post.
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