instantly gratificate me

IM BOREDDDDD.

today's only the first day of me staying in to save money and like, i've alr gone through all my usual online shopping sites. anw, im not supposed to be doing that cause im almost broke and yeahhhhh.

see, this is what happens when you hv no job, no income, and no rich doting parents.

and no boyfriends too.

was out shopping the past two days and boy, i spent a lot. on food!!!

minshan and i went abt town searching for a nice place to hv dinner. we wanted smth different, w ATMOSPHPERE, you know? we went from ion to NAC. (see minshan, i told you i'll call it NAC from now) to wisma to cineleisure, and we finally settled at heeren. at pasta de waraku -.-

i broke my promise to myself to never eat japanese pasta because it's weird.

but what could i do? i couldnt decide between italian pasta and japanese. so we combined the two and got to waraku. hahahaha.

there was a 25% off for students, so it was okay. and like, i really enjoyed my food. but i think im gg to stick to pasta mania. for guilt-free, gst and service charge-free dining. im not cheapo, just penniless.


huiting isnt picking up her phone, again =.=

and minshan is working, so yeah. and all the jc-ers are mugging for promos so that leaves me w my seriously limited poly frens. that's what happens when in the entire class only 3 ppl go to poly. anw, apparently there's a morko outing tmr but i hv no idea when and where.

and cherie's not free today. but i could always ask diana/daphne/amanda/other misc poly frens, but i dont want to because I AM TRYING TO SAVE MONEY BY STAYING HOME, AND DAMN IT, IM GONNA DO IT. yeah.

but im so boreddddddd :((((((((

i've alr re-watched all my videos. okay half of them. and the other half is w huiting so i guess i wont be doing that.

i could....go to the library and borrow books. but i hv fines due and i cant borrow anth w.o first paying the fines and well, I DONT WANNA PAY MY FINES, it kinda COSTS MONEY.

i could....go to ntuc and do one of my fave things to do when i hv nothing to do, grocery shop! but again, that costs $$$$$$$$. and calories =.=

WHY OH WHY ARE THREE QUARTER OF MY FRIENDS IN JAYCEE JC???

oh, i thought of smth that doesnt cost $. but is too mean to post here.

i got my tote bag ytd. went to the post office to collect it and wow, it's alot bigger than i though it would be, but omg i loveeeeee it. it's like, so cheap! $27 inclusive of postage.

oh hey just thought of smth else i could do. i could go to kino and salivate over all the books/other misc stuff i want, but that involves actually getting off my ass and partaking in the usual pre-going out routine that includes the contact lenses, makeup, and finding appropriate outfit to wear, which will take like an hour if im lucky/inspired and then another hour or so to reach kino (bus bus bus) and then it'll be the hated rush hour and anw im too *^%^%@#^ to go by myself but is too lazy to look for someone to go w me. im just plain lazy, actually.

and what is up with the crazy weather??? cold and wet one day and then so hot and effing irritating the next two. infuriating.

i used to be able to spend hours on end online shopping. now i practically finish in one hour. it's crazy, it's nuts, it's awful.

and i dont know why i cant apply for IB w this account my mum gave me. its not my own acc, and like, it's annoyingggg.

feel very antsy, and hot weather is not helping.

rahhhhhhhhhhh.

have a measly sixty bucks left until allowance comes to me on sunday. that means i can either get

A) one jacket
B) one sweater
C) one skirt and one pair of tights
D) three pairs of tights
E) one bag
F) one not-so-killer pair of heels (killer ones being fr aldo and 3x the amt i hv)
G) one tote bag, one album and one pair of tights

i must say, it's boring to have like one of everything. i get bored and disatisfied real quick. i do like quality over quantity, but quality is outta the question when i cant afford it. so the last option is like really appealing to me. but i ALREADY got a tote bag, and a pair of tights on tuesday. and i would really like smth to WEAR. so that's option A, B or C. oh gosh i cant decide, jeez.

ah sad, even the maid next door is going out. i have no life :(

i made a list of all the essential things a girl needs in her closet, and like wow, i know all these things, but like i have less than half of them.

let's see, i hv 12 items on the list. i own....5. wow. that's harsh.

i wish i was more like meifeng because she seems so easily happy-ed by small things. like painting her nails. i alr painted mine and feel nothing, except wow they chip easily.

and she likes cooking for herself. well i hv nothing to cook, and i feel guilty eating when im not hungry.

and she loves making things. i cant sew, and i hv no sewing machine. and i dont know what to makes anyways. okay i lie, i do actually, but im so not motivated and inspired to start. lazy pig.

yeah, maybe i shd just save up this amt of money until next wk so it suddenly seems like i hv a lot more to spend. which is, you know, true to a certain extent.

okay, incredibly bored now, i dont even hv chores to do, which is a first. think i'll go wash my handwash-only clothes. and like go find goldbelle or smth. maybe do some situps. lol. yes, it's pretty laughable.

*put font size as large cos the font size on the blog is so tiny.

THOSE WERE THE DAYS

Y'ALL NEED TO SEE THIS.

"ahh, the skinny days of basketball,"

what a difference two years (okay, three.) make.

BUT THIS PICTURE HAS GIVEN ME HOPE THAT IT IS POSSIBLE FOR ME TO BE SKINNY, because well, i once was :(

what the hell was i doing complaining that i was fat back then?

btw, can you tell which is me?

will you encourage me????????? will you motivate me??? will you go through it with me?????

basketball was hell in the beginning, i died after every training, the pain.........you cannot imagine. but dude, the pain felt soooooooooo goood. i sound sadistic. no, the pain just made me feel like i'd done smth good for my body. no matter that i couldn't sit/stand up/go down stairs without being in pain. my limbs were like, TONED. no jiggle-de-doo. I MISS THAT. IM LIKE SO DISGUSTING NOW, EWWWWWWWWW.

EW GRACE, EW.

:(

i must go back in timeeeeeeeee.

YOUCAM, I CAM

last friday after sch i carry big packet small packet go j8 meet meifeng, sudden decision. and i arrive before her hahahah AGAIN.

then we went to the library where mf attempted once again to STUDY when i am there. needless to say, she failed. because this time, i didnt even try hahaha.
　
she did only like 5 math qns. multi part though, so gd for her.
　
i was like so bored at the library and this kid was screaming (not kidding) beside us and the mother was smiling indulgently at the screaming ball of ew.

lol, the kid was spitting on the glass. ew, right? and it was right next to us. trauma.

it was sooooooo noisy that the librarian came and scolded them both, the kid and the mum. and the mum still smiled happily, like omg my kid is screaming in a library, awwww so cute.

like, wtf.
im nvr bringing my kids to a library unless i've taught them proper etiquette.
　
they left before they got kicked out thou so it was ok.

then i got so bored tht i took out my laptop and started playing with my lousy VGA Youcam. yeah i know, even though i've had the laptop a year, i can count the number of times i've used the youcam on one hand, unbelievable i know.
wait til i get a macbook, then i'll photobooth hahahah.

took many crazy shots! surprised at our ability to laugh silently hahaahha.

youcam is damn lag, i click the button, it takes the pic five secs later. tht's why we look effing retarded in them lol.

see, no one ask mf to take, she ownself (waa damn singlish lol) wanna take one. cannot blame me for distracting her
　
BLOGGER IS EFFING SLOW why take so long to upload bga pics!!! irritating.

meifeng wants to check our her eyelashes. sparse, she says. actually they're just not dark enough to be captured lah.

Givenchy Nightingale

Everyone's in love with the Givenchy Nightingale. Ashley Olsen and Reese Witherspoon both have them, and i love them both! like two of my fave celebs, i swear. sighhhh.

i think Ashley looks much better than MK these days. i dunno, just my personal opinion. i think it's got smth to do with MK's hair. like, it's all crimped and flyaway-looking. i realise the unkempt grunge style is her look, but like, it's just realllllly crimped. ashley's hair is smoother and nicer.

new colours out for AWo9 for the Givenchy Nightingale bag i think. not that it concerns me, i cant even afford the strap off the bag.
ah, the tragedy.

I SHD NOT BE ONLINE SHOPPING OMFG.

TAGLINES

countdown to hols!

5 MORE DAYS

woot ttm!!!!!!!

okay too early to feel happy, still got THE MOST IMPT ASSIGNMENT to hand in

fabric book. 60% of grade!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

like omg.

and quiz tmr.

and like, im ALMOST broke. so that's not good, since hols require spending $$$. let's see if anyone has job for me.

dinnertime :)

outta nothing at all

hello i think i've just fallen in love! hahhahhaha
yes i know, making love out of nothing of all. thus the title, see see SEE.

(:



im sitting beside sheryl in the sch library now working on our written report and like im feeling majorly guilty abt blogging because i shd be well, NOT blogging.

and not reading david cook's tweets.
or laughing abt it and then tweeting abt it.
i shd not be tweeting too.
and neither shd i be reading the questions which he answered ytd!
(but damn, he's entertaininggggggg.)

ok i just made him sound like a dancing bear. which is evil. the dancing bear part i mean. bears shdnt be forced to dance, it's not right.

but but, he's like a cotton candy tree growing in the middle of a desert.

:(





back to work.

090909

it's the last few minutes of 090909 and im hiding in my room too scared to even go wash my contacts cos of a crazy cockroach tht's flying around outside in my living room. it's huge!!!! and it's damn scary.



i think it's about to die.



there was the mass insecticide spraying thing today and there are lotsa dead roaches downstairs, and i think this one got hit. you know how when they get hit they get like totally crazy cos they're in pain and abt to die? i think thts what happened to this one. it hasnt stopped flying around since i saw it an hour ago.



i wanna wash my contacts :(



im stressed
there's submission for written report on friday, as well as quiz! and the quiz is not as easy as last week, this time, there's knitting weaving dyeing printing and finishing. stress ttm.

and im like maybe half done with thereport :(((( i wish there was like no class tmr or smth sigh but there's class.

oh well at least the evaluation report is done.

i cant get up the motivation to do work, and i keep thinking that it's tuesday but it's actually wednesday which means i only have tonight and tmr left to complete the written report!!!!!

OMGGGGGGGG STRESSSSSSSSSS.

SSSSSSSSSSSS.
me is snake.

me is hungry and cannot go out and get food because of crazy roach.
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sorry i got forced to go outta my room by my mum. she insisted there was no roach (=.= yeah right, i bet it was like behind her or smth. you know how in the movies ppl are like, blahblahblah he/she so stupid, and then the he/she is actually behind them? yup bet the roach was behind her and she just didnt see) and then forced me to go wash my contacts and bathe. argh like i wont go make up a story abt a roach flying around and then lock myself in the room when the tv is outside right! jbcksjdhgkjnb vkvh.
argh.

NO MOTIVATION TO DO WORK HOWWWWWWWWW

and right, i watched singapore idol just now and was actually kinda rooting for jon cheok, but he went and did 'come together', which is like a biiiiiiig song. i rmb when the contestant on american idol season 7 (david cook's season! :DDD) did it and she has a really big voice but she also didnt do it v well and the judges were quite hard on her, but she made it cos those were the themed shows and she wasnt the weakest. so like, she couldnt do it, and like, jon couldnt do it either. im just saying, it's a big song.

however i do think he was kinda out of it cos well, i dont think he'd bo so dumb as to choose a song he cant do yeah. but this is just sad cos he didnt get in cause of the song. i dont understand why duane ho is in. like, doesnt he have to take Os?????? maybe he's NA. but still, arent there exams coming up???????? i dunno, studies shd be No.1. omg, this coming from moi. hhahahaha.

i was like instantly reminded of dc when jon did the song. sigh daviddddddddd. oh wait, im currently pissed at smth he tweeted so shall not swoon over him. jeez.

soooooooooo, am supposed to being a printed garment to sch tmr for class. but i dont hv many prints in my closet. me likes basics. lemme see. ooh got a printed skirt. hmm, nah. ermzzzz, oh cool i know i'll just bring like a tee.

huiting and i were discussing how emma watson has basically like, everything a girl could ever want. unfairness. hahahah. ivy league school. hah.

I LURRBBES MY NAILS SO XING GAN I SWEAR.
i would take a picture of it but like it looks terrible in photos so forget it.

while stuck in my room just now i started playing with my Youcam. yes, it's VGA and sucks, but it helped me pass the time. and like wow my nose is giganormous. lol i tried to combine gigantic and enormous hahahhah. NOSEEEEEEEEE EWWWW. and today i was telling huiting abt how ashlee simpson-wentz looks soooooo effing different now as compared to her first and second albums and i was like, omg i dont believe she nvr do plastic surgery lah. then the talk turned to that, and ht asked me if i wld ever do. IS THAT A SIGN? WAS SHE IMPLYING THAT I SHD? hhahahahhah.
not funny.

so sick of my hair it's like so sucky now. cant wait to do it next wk. still thinking abt what to do......

ugh just googled ppl again. you know googling ppl nvr works. well not for me at least. no, i didnt go and google dc, i aint that dumb. anw i shd really be doing my work. wow major guilt trip.

okay im gg to sleep now bye folks!

black and gold

hi facebook wont let me go in.oh well.

working on written report and listening to my old cds. atomic kitten!

i cant believe im still in love with the last goodbye. ahhh childhood memories. i bought this cd when i was pri4 you know. that's 7yrs ago! wow feel old.

i didnt realise that so many ppl have songs titled the last goodbye. interesting. james morrison has one too. will go listen to that later.

you know that your ability to work is directly infuenced by your environment? i really need to declutter my room and work space. seriously.

The Last Goodbye
Ain't no headlights on the road tonight
Everybody here is sleeping tight
Ain't nobody gonna find us here, we'll disappear.
There's a dancer in the arms of love
And he's dancing on the sky above
And the truth is that we'll never know where love will flow
Aim high, shoot low

Ain't no headlights on the road tonight
Ain't nobody here to make it right
Cos we couldn't seem to find a way, for love to stayI
f you had another night to give
I would have another night to live
But you're never gonna see me cry the last goodbye

Is it cloudy where you are tonight?
Are the neon lights shining bright?
Are you looking for a place to stay to get away?
And the days are horses down the hill,
Running fast with no time to kill
And the truth is that we'll never know where love will flow
Aim high Shoot low(Gotta aim high, shoot low baby)

Ain't no headlights on the road tonight
Ain't nobody here to make it right
Cos we couldn't seem to find a way, for love to stay
If you had another night to give
I would have another night to live
But you're never gonna see me cry the last goodbye

If I could do it over, I'd do it all again
And if I got one more chance I wouldn't change a thing
Aim high Shoot low

Ain't no headlights on the road tonight
Ain't nobody here to make it right
Cos we couldn't seem to find a way, for love to stay
If you had another night to give I would have another night to live
But you're never gonna see me cry the last goodbye.
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my friends make me smile, if only for awhile
But you can make me whole again.
- Whole again, Atomic Kitten

didnt get to watch movie today cos minshan changed date to next friday. like omg it's third week of sch alr and next wk is final submission wk! omg. there's gonna be portfolio review. im shit scared for that. like what if they put me in what i dont want? will they do that? and if they do that is it too late for me to like, drop out? hah. that's drastic.

argh im like upset and i dont know why. i cant get no satisfaction, no no no! ahahaa that's a song. yep definitely been listening to too many old cds.

WHEN IN ROME

"Between the far away past history of the world, and that which lies near to us; in the time when the wisdom of the ancient times was dead and had passed away, and our own days of light had not yet come, there lay a great black gulf in human history, a gulf of ignorance, of superstition, of cruelty, and of wickedness. That time we call the dark or Middle Ages. Few records remain to us of that dreadful period in our world's history, and we only know of it through broken and disjointed fragments that have been handed down to us through the generations."— Howard Pyle, Otto of the Silver Hand (1888)


in starbucks again, another coffee, another ten bucks gone. life is harsh.

more than words could say, you're my melody

the treat as promised!

Fall Back Into Me, David Cook
We've been here before
We'll be here again
so go on and rest your head
Before you lose it again

We're leaning on each other
Or at least I can pretend
That we didn't lose it all again
It could have been different
It could have all been the same
But now I'm standing at your front door, singing,

When everything's the same
And nothing ever changes
Will you fall back into me?
You see, everything's estranged
A million empty faces
So will you fall back into me?

Congratulations
You left me a little jaded and rejected
And so I lost it again

You chew me up, you throw away
As I continue to pretend
That we didn't lose it all again
I guess it's never different
I guess it's all the same
So now I'm bloodied by my fist, clenched, swinging

When everything's the same
And nothing ever changes
Will you fall back into me?
You see, everything's estranged
A million empty faces
So will you fall back into me?

I was a name across your lips
It's time to spin me out
I play the game when my heart rips
It's time to hear me out
(Never do without)
When everything's the same
And nothing ever changes
Will you fall back into me
See, everything's estranged
A million empty faces
So will you fall back into me?

(Will you fall
We'll be here again
So go on and rest your head
Before you lose it again)

We're leaning on each other
Or at least I can pretend
That we didn't lose it all again, all again
Lose it all again.

Grace the gadabout

hello! class was cancelled for today and there's no class on monday, so i hv a 4 day wkend!

but it's not all fun and games, i went to meet sheryl to do our written report today. it's soooo detailed! but im like actually quite enjoying it cos well, i much prefer it to drawing and such.

we camped at starbucks for nearly 4hrs, where i had a dark mocha. it was gooooooood! :DDDD
seriously, go drink it.

ugh nth to blog bout alr leh, i had poor tasting sushi for dinner. classy and i went home tgt. it was like not planned. haha.

now, a series of meaningless crap! (im trying to be taylor swift) hahah let's see if you believe that.

you're so near i can feel your heat
can you hear my heart beat?
the look in your eyes, so soft and real
do you realise your appeal?
im talking rubbish, of course you do
why else did you play the fool?

i'm not a poet, i'm just a girl who was once in love with you.

you and her, it's true love
who am i to stop the above?
so go to her
i don't want you here
it's me you say you want
but hey, i know i'm adjunct.
so go, don't feel sorry
cause i have a secret
this is nice, it isn't more
see, the thing is, you're not my all
cause i gave my heart to another
if you stay i'll only make you unhappier
now don't freak
i didn't cheat
okay, maybe in a way, i did.
but this happened before you
he just never gave my heart back
i care for you, i really do
but i don't think i deserve you.
so please, just leave
before i get greedy and change my mind.

once when i was supposed to be doing math
i wrote a letter to you instead
but the contents you'll never see
cause i never finished it.
still, it's meant for my eyes only
just like she was your only
i say was, cause she's the past
and you know what?
you were a dream i made up
it just felt so real that i didnt want to give it up
i guess i'm just too scared
to admit to myself that i am lost
so lost,
so lost.

HHAHHAHAAHHA OKAY THIS IS FUNNY. it doesnt even make sense! ok sorry if you read it, i kinda just wasted your time. will post a treat nxt time.

TELL ME WHY

hey guys, just wasted two hours of my life doing things too embarrasing for me to even say,and it was completely fruitless, so forget it.

i still cant believe i did it. ew.

okay, moving on.

Carol'd said that today wld be heavy lesson but it was alright, quite interesting except the videos part, waaaa so wordy, cannot understand half the terms used.

still in love with 2x2 rib knits and above.went to my kitchen this morning and checked out my laundry. in my laundry alone i hv FOUR 2x2 rib knit tanks! wow, i nvr knew! wonder how many others i hv in my closet.

OMG I WAS EFFING PISSED OFF TODAY.

i had like a nice day so far, and then right, this server at Subway like, cannot understand english. i told her the veggies i wanted right, and she didnt put half of them on, then when i said i wanted pepper, like BLACK PEPPER, she gave me green pepper, the vegetable. wtf?!but i was like, ARGH nvm i can take it off myself later right, so i calmed down, got my stuff and left.

i didnt get a carrier for my drink cos i wanted to save the earth by using less plastic bags, so i held my drink in my hand.

walking to the interchange, this old guy (looked like 40s and above) BARRELLED INTO ME ON PURPOSE AND KNOCKED THE DRINK OUT OF MY HAND AND IT CRASHED TO THE FLOOR AND THE COVER BROKE UPON IMPACT, SPILLING BARLEY EVERYWHERE.and he carried right on walking w/o an apology or look back.

i picked up the remnants of my drink and turned around and stalked after him, i was so pissed off.when i caught up to him, i tapped him on his shoulder and when he spun round, i tossed the rest of the barley into his ugly face, and promptly went back to Subway and got myself another drink.

not.i was effing pissed off, it's true, but i didnt do that, im not so extreme. okay, i was THIS close to doing it. i really picked up the drink (there was still like a quarter cup) and stalked after him, and when i saw his retreating back i REALLY considered throwing the drink into his disgustingly rude face but then i decided not to sink to his level and do smth so rude and incredibly dramatic.

how did i know he did it on purpose?

he passed by me on my right, where there was ABSOLUTELY NO-FUCKING-BODY, and it wasnt like he didnt see me coming, there was nobody between us and he saw me at least three metres before he passed me, and when he was gonna pass me i was like, hmm the dude's kinda near me, shd i move?
then i realised i was blocked on the left by other ppl and anyways there was nobody beside old guy so he could and would (OR SO I THOUGHT, MISTAKENLY) move.but he didnt.and he just SPED HEAD ON INTO ME AND SHOVED MY ENTIRE RIGHT ARM SO THAT I DROPPED MY DRINK.
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE SINGAPOREANS THEY ARE SO FUCKING RUDE AND INCONSIDERATE AND OMGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I honestly hope to God that HE, THE UGLY DISGUSTING RUDE OLD GUY, is the very minor minority in s'pore.

when i turned round after picking up my drink, a guy in a suit was behind me and he was like, whoa. he'd seen the old guy barrel into me and my drink drop and everything. he was like in shock, cos he'd stopped behind me.
i was so pissed off that i didnt even glance at him, i was in a trance brought on by fury. there was one thought in my mind:get back to subway and refill your cup.

it's so crazy. like after this disgusting show of behaviour by the old guy all i could think abt was how i cant stand the thought of me just paying $7.50 for my meal and looking forward to enjoying it at home but having a stranger spoil that all for me by robbing me of my drink which wld complete my meal, and thus i did the only thing my mind could think of, the refill.
which is btw, not free. but i was so angry, i was willing to pay. but i didnt hv to pay because erm, no one stopped me. cause i'd only just walked out less than 5min when i lost my drink so when i went back everyone didnt like, stare or anth.
i refilled (illegally) and went home. sorry subway dudes, if you see this.

i had to call kanika to rant bout it first, i was so indignant that some guy could just do smth so utterly REVOLTING and not feel any remorse!!!

UGH. ugh ugh! gross.

speaking of gross, on 55 some guy with heavily gelled and dandruff-filled hair stood right in front of me AND KEPT LEANING BACK SO THAT I HAD TO HOLD MY PHONE IN FRONT OF MY BODY SO IT WOULD POKE HIS BACK JUST TO AVOID SEXUAL HARRASSMENT.
I SWEAR HE WAS SO NEAR HIS HEAD WAS LESS THAN 10CM AWAY.
cos he's not v tall, so his head is effing near my face! all all dandruff, DISGUSTING!!!!
and you know what, he was leaning so far back that he was pressing right into the ring on my index finger on the hand i was using to hold my phone. i saw and felt the entire ring press into his back, THREE TIMES, and STILL he didnt move away.effing disgusting right.

so traumatised.

thankfully he got off soon after, otherwise i swear i would have like poked smth sharper into his back. i hv scissors in my pencil case.

KAY ENOUGH BOUT AWFUL PPL.

i cant believe 2009 is speeding by. i've lost track of time. it's alr september. soon it'll be 2010.time. an illusion of life gone by. i feel like i havent done much in the months i've been in school. i kinda feel...like smth is seriously missing, and sweet jellybeans, i dont know what the hell it is. and it drives me crazy.

i kinda feel like im waiting for smth? to happen. and i dont know WHAT! it's INFURIATING. it's worse than waiting for my period to come or be over. at least for sure that's smth tht's gonna happen, this is like, entirely based on a big fat nothing.

wanna hide away from the world and crawl into my comfort zone, like the period between feb and april 09.
but why! nothing's wrong! so why do i feel like nothing's right???


WHAT'S THE THING THAT'S MISSING????????????

& when it rains, it really pours down like ttm

it's like i never fucking existed. just that one thing and yeah, im gone. bamf.
hell.
hell.
hell.
hell.

you laugh. okay well, i didnt think i'd still care. i dont really, but i do, and it's not bout that, it's abt THIS. this WHOLE thing, the everybody thing. and im nobody. im worse than nobody, im not even there.

at this stupid point, i still hv time to wonder if you noticed. thanks a lot, it's all my fault.

arent we all the happy kids. like the brady bunch. but not as blonde. do i still count if no one saw me? i didnt think so.

congrats, you've erased your ugly past. i've erased my ugly past. now if i would do the same for my present and future. soon, i think. it wouldnt take long for me to screw this up too, i happen to be quite good at it.

go ahead, laugh your ass off. i would. and i will once i sneeze my nose off, the weather will take care of that.

this is there, do you see it, do you see this? do you do you do you? i've wondered.

i took a cab to school today, quite cheap in comparision to all the times before. and the quiz seemed...alright. i could answer most of it w confidence. know i've got one confirmed wrong though, and more i cant be sure abt.

studying for it was rather....nostalgic. well, not that i ever studied much as we all know my grades, but you know, i had my moments.

real short class today, ended at like 4.30, went to find huiting and stacey. tmr i'll hv heavy class, all the theory will come out. but i actually find the knit and weave part quite fun.

stacey lives like, across the road from ht and i! like seriously. cool right, i drew a rough map to show you like how near we are frome each other. damn cool. keep in mind i said ROUGH map.


sorry i cant control the pencil tool v well but, see! bishan and tpy separated by one road!!! so cool.

okay. so then when i got home okto was showing monster house cos its a teachers' day special. so i watched it since it was effing early and i had no idea what to do w myself (i didnt feel like gg out, the weather felt like a lounge day) and like, it was quite good. but they keep repeating it. wish they'd show new movies, maybe then i'd watch more tv.

went to try on the two outfits i bought ytd. dont they always look better in the fitting room? hah okay just me i guess. gosh im hungry, guess one meal really isnt enough for one day. damn.

then i watched ming zhong zu ding wo ai ni as usual, since i started it, i hv to finish it. and like, ji cunxi is so not cute and like, the dylan guy is kiiiiiiinda cute. like, kinda.

oh, today's lesson was so fun, i loved all the little swatches of fabrics! and i loved my tank top since forever, today i learned it was a 2 x 2 rib knit. cool huh. shall buy more 2x2 rib knit shirts. no wonder previously whenever i went shopping and found labels tht said ribknit i thought they were bluffing, in actual fact those were the 1x1 rib knits nor other rib knits.

kay i shall shut up bout it now, im sure you guys dont find it as interesting as i do lol.

cant wait for holidays to come, i really miss having days to myself where i can do whatever i want whenever i feel like it and not feel guilty bout it.

YOU CANT STOP THE RAIN

everyone's enjoying a day off or in minshan's case, the start of her 6 week holidays while im at home hoping for the rain, rain to go away and come back another day so that i can go to school.

yes, i hv school. no public holiday for us.

and i hv a quiz. 10% of our grade. i've studied but dunno if it's enough, feel like i didnt memorise everything.

lalala. meifeng and danny they all playing badminton now. and i hv class frm 3 to 6. ohwell at least i aint got promos to study for.

cold. damn, wearing shorts today. ytd was fun. wish i gt to sch earlier though. and i wish we had more time. and also up was like, so nice :)

understatement, man. just like, watch it if you havent.

i tweet now. i always knew i could make animal sounds.

yawnn

hi, sleepy. got a ton of things to do.
shd be sleeping/studying/writing smth but am changing blogskin instead after like two years.

okay will blog properly tmr bye.

THIS IS OUR SONG THEY'RE PLAYING

am in class listening to anzoe's grp presentation, my grp is up next and i am scaredddd. feel like we miss out some stuff but i think its just paranoia. i hope.

was trying to do work ytd before gg to meet sheryl and jolene at starbucks, but chn5 had to screen new york minute, and obviously i had to watch cos ashley olsen's sooo pretty.

spent $7 on a mocha venti, was so gd, but dont like their whipped cream.

couldnt slp last night so i posted four photo albums on fb. and i nvr had any before. cool. addictive. v satisfying.

gtg, too nervous to type.

just beyond my reach; the weekend, the chips on the highest shelf and YOU

hahahha i just came up w the title. the chips part isnt true, cos i dont hv any, but i really cant reachthe highest shelf. sadness. and the YOU part is kiiiiinda true, because i want a lot of ppl, but all of them are like, not real actual ppl within my reach. for eg, i want marc blucas! i hv no idea where he is, but he is hawt. me like. haha.

i also want Leehom, D.Cook, A XuShaoYang (AXSY), vin diesel, no work, and the toilet. cannot hold pee. lol damn, why do i talk abt these things. damn damn damn.

i shd be doing work. damn.

was on msn for the longest time just now (2hrs, but its real long since i nvr use it) and was talking to kanika bout random stuff when i suddenly said, for no reason at all except maybe guilt, "i shd be doing work, but im msn-ing and wishing i were doing a hot guy instead" SKANKSKANKSKANK. where do i get these things from. lucky i nvr save my convos. hhahahha.

so tmr's class got pushed up to nine, woohoo! get to leave early, and then can go back to anderson first before meeting colin sinying and linhao to get bbq food. gyps outing! 6A and B outing. awesome-ness. though not as awesome as a movie might be. omg, we shd totally do a movie after supper!!!! awesomenessssssssss.

so tmr looks like a blast from the past, with sec sch frens, then pri sch dudes. promising. me likes.

then saturday...i hv no idea what im doing, but i gotta wake early. damn it. i think by tmr night i will crash and sleep as long as Rip van winkle. is that his name? or is it winkle van rip or van rip winkle or smth like that. gawd, this is dumb, i cant even rmb the coordination of the name.

gonna meet meifeng minshan yy the gang on sat, yay. wait, no yay, im broke as....my heart. sob. ok, incorrect grammar. whatever. lol, im plain broke.
then sunday, meeting kanika pris and misato. and khairi! to get my cds. yay!!!! i miss my cds. i hope we dont spend money. munny. bunny. irrelevant. food. hahhaha!

monday....relatives coming over. damnnnnn. i dont wanna pack my room, it'll take aeons.

i wanna sleep. yawnnnnn. i want to be seduced by the likes of erm, dwayne johnson! yum. ew, im effing skanky. ugh, grace! fuck, im damn disgusting. and hungry, me is hungry. me is also fat. and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy. think im falling sick, keep having to blow my nose. not good, not good. bring on the Vitamin C! Vit.C. VC. reminds me of VJ, which reminds me of the convo i had w xinping just now. and colin, which leads me to tmr's activities. and the weekend. which brings me to this again. wow, cyclical. like fashion. damn, just reminded myslf of work. argh, how aggravating. i dont like to draw :(

i want a tiger. why am i so obsessed w tigers and cats? it's like jude devaraux's character in...remembrance, w the monkey or smth. lol no, i thik im just nuts. the monkey thing was so romantic. and tragic. and erm, not real. im lke earth element, so i gotta be grounded. real. not grounded like i cant go out, cos that wld be sad. big time.

maybe if i just close my eyes for a leeeeeetle while...five min, one hr...the whole night...NO I MUST STAY OFF THE BED.

damn, i suck.

the sunday that wasnt to be

im at bishan mac now sandwiched between two tables of families w children. fuck children. must they scream their lungs out every fucking minute of their fucking lives?

i cant believe i hv to be here. and the stupid person we're waiting for is effing late. and this is her JOB. fuck.

and i only hv one hr left on this laptop. fuck, again.

and marc bulcas is hot. okay, i shd hv been doing my work instead of watching tv. but damn, he is hot. and soooo sexy. so wrong to be talking abt this in public.

what it looks like and what it actually is

dont say i am emo. dont say i am trying to AA. dont say i am this-and-that when you dont know me. dont say leehom loves you when he doesnt because actually he loves ME. lol. dont say this is so typical of me, because how can you know that when even i dont. dont say anything you made up, Mum, because i dont know how you came up with it when it has never happened before and isnt true. (you dont hv the faintest inkling of who i am, do you?) dont say i am conceited, because well, it may just be true and i may be so pissed i'll kill you from a million miles away with my magic powers. dont say, "what happened? you know im always here for you!" no, i dont think i know. and i dont particularly care right now, but thats beside the point.

the point.

im not emo! im not trying to get attention! im trying to express myself. because thus far i suck really badly at it. really really badly. what i cannot say, i write/type. and there's a lot i cannot say. so yeah, expression.

yeah i hv a sense of humour, and yeah im funny when im anything other than content.

i think i need to sleep now. i think...i think...

what i could do and what i actually do

i swear im so close to giving up. and i think nobody knows but not so secretly nobody actually cares. we're all too absorbed in ourselves in these superficial days.

im pathetic, i just refuse to conform. fuck ordinary, i might as well not exist. my current so called existence is but an feeble, paltry imitation of life. and all you ppl who pretend to care are really bad at pretending. you suck, and so do you. leave me alone, im so tired of doing good by my conscience. why do i hv to be the only one with one? i hate me. do i ask for too much? am i supposed to be happy w my lot in life? how is that possible? family? laughable. friends? i am at the point where im not sure abt anth at all. i want answers. i want the moon and the stars. i want so much, i want so little. so many things, just that one thing. does it exist? do i exist? is all that we see and feel real? or but an illusion, an idea fed to us by some greater being? terrifying, how we may all be puppets in this long, arduous journey we call 'life'. (an interesting choice of word, when most of the time i feel dead.) imagine how every thought and decision is actually being engineered and controlled by some unseen being, and we are simply amusing pasttimes. like pets, but with less free will. and zero knowledge of what is being done. seriously though, what is the point of existence? why do we hv to live? why are we put on this earth? to suffer? to understand pain and tragedy? isnt there some enrichment class we can just take instead of actually living it? did i choose to be born? did i hv a choice? so many questions. do we get answers? i just want to run away like i always do. but maybe this time there is nowhere to run to. no more. i just want to get what i want. like all the world. it seems i was put on this earth to take. to take all that is hurled at me. you KNOW i cant stand up for myself, why do you still do these things to me? but that is only one of the many. im just so tired. so very tired. i should like to go to sleep and perhaps wake up in a different place. does that mean i still harbour hope? im only seventeen, i shd still have hope. to be without is deplorable indeed.












i could tell you all abt my days, and i kinda wanna, but im so tired. i'm just so tired. and i still have some fifty odd years to go.

Being British, Burberry, bad luck and best of fun!

YAY BEST WEEKEND EVER! okay lah maybe cause too long nvr go out.

FRIDAY
after presentation, Harvey dismissed us early, round 2. i was supposed to meet meifeng minshan at 4, so i was earlyyyy. boohoo 2modules nxt block,yucksadoodle boo. left for dover, met stacey & sabrina on bridge. how cool, sabrina was gg to dover too,hahhaha concidence is sooo...cool. and stacey lives at jurong, so we bus-ed to bedok tgt then train-ed tgt as well. hhhaha omg sabrina was in bball too, and captain on top of that, how awesomely cool is that!

Shoot I think im coming down with flu or smth damn damn damn swine flu. Must be the air con last night.

ANW, I reached dover at three thirty, so I was super early. Minshan took forever to pick me up, and she informed me that Nicholas and danny wld come at 4, so we headed into SP first. I got food, and met minshan’s classmates. Hmm, regrettably, hv forgotten their names, but ohwell. Nic and danny both late, but nvm lah since we kept nic waiting for a while while I chiong finish my food hahahha. Then went to meet the guys at dover mrt, and took 74 to island creamery which turned out to be on the bus route of 93!!!! My wasted $2.80 for standard ticket… :(

We proceeded happily into island creamery….and the first thing I saw inside was a glimpse of my ugly UGLY past. HAHAHAHAHA. Make that FUGLY. Yup okay. And I was so shocked, I turned around and walked back out. Uh huh, I was that shocked. I stood there for like a second, then pulled out my phone to call Kanika then discovered I had two missed calls from Cherie and Royston. Lol anti climax. I called Kanika after telling Royston I’d left sch alr, and Kanika laughed evilly in my ear when I told her Boobsy Bear was sitting inside IC, AT THE TABLE RIGHT EFFING NEXT TO US! Ughhhhh! He has so tainted that place for me, I swear.

I dragged meifeng over from macs nxt door and made her and minshan sit between me and him. He didn’t see me, thank god. God I hate him so effing much. Okay. Then, I realized his gf was our server. Hahahaha. I ended up eating my tang yuan instead of ice cream. Yummmm. I mooched around for a while, but…..he left soon after! Yayness. Sill had to endure like thirty minutes of his presence though. shudder it was not nice.

Then Fiona lee came and we went next door to macs where we all spent a happy three hours…or so :) soooo fun. It just furthur highlights my point of how in 4/3 you don’t hv to worry abt what you say or how you act cos no one will judge you. And we all get along so fine! We webcam-ed w yingyu for a while! Then we went home.

I was so effing tired that I missed a bit of zettai kareshi (ok still cant spell it!) how sad. Oh well.

SATURDAY
woke up effing late, had an awesome sleep! Got uber frustrated over unco-operating contacts and left house at three thirty, reaching yiyin’s at 4, and thus began our sleep over! We decided (after very long) to watch Harry Potter at yishun, and we walked the scenic route to the bus stop. Meifeng and I started to get into the mood by speaking in our fake and terribly bad british accent. Or what we thought it was. Hahahah. All the way to yishun. When I realized I’d left my phone back at yiyin’s. LOL. Oh well.

Got tickets, got food, got toilet break. Proceeded into theatre. I need to re watch the movie, contacts blur, cld only hear and see orbs. Lol ten dollars of orbs. When we came out, it was miraculously eight thirty. Three hrs in theatre! Coooool. We got long john’s and cabbed back to yiyin’s and then we crapped.

Yiyin and yingyu made their version of Cadbury ad! Damn lame, hahahah. Worst still, they made Harry Potter vids. one went, (pointing straw) “Lumos maxima!” and pointed, then the other switched on the light. LOL. We attempted Wingardium Leviosa, and sad to say I participated. However, it ended up on the cutting room floor. Hahahah.

NEED MORE FUN ACTIVITIES NEXT TIME! OKAY OKAY??? OKAY! Teeheehee.

Heavy dose of shoot/shag/marry. Then everyone fell asleep. I kept waking up, and I think I didn’t get much sleep, cause im effing tired now and all I wanna do is sleep, but I don’t wanna mess up my body clock, you know? Doubly important since tmr I start new block and it starts at nine effing am! I am so not wearing contacts if they’re blur. And omg I need to go take some flu meds now, just in case.

Kept waking up thru out night. And I didn’t really sleep. I rmb waking up every time yy or mf moved since I was sandwiched between them. No space! Couldn’t stand it anymore around 8am. Our alarm was set for ten, I was two hrs early lol. I think I woke yy, cos shortly after she woke up and sat on the floor. Haha.

We woke so early, but dunno why we still left at ten for breakfast. I ate two pratas! Hahhaha seven dollars on brekkie. Me broke-ey. L LOL. Yiyin left at 11 to meet her fren, yy and mf stayed to watch me eat. More shoot/shag/marry. They made me choose between cone, leehom and xu shao yang! Evil ppl. I chose to shoot cone though, KANIKA ARE YOU PROUD? :D

Then we paid and left, and I scared myslf by thinking I’ left my keys ay yiyin’s. thank god I was mistaken. Bus-ed home and watched a lame movie and then now it’s 5plus omg six soon! Where did the time go???? Shit.

PLEASE LET’S HV MORE FUN SOON! Next time we go…some café ah. If go IC again, sure end up eat macs again. We go some nice café to eat lah. Like maybe café cartel or smth. It’s a reasonable price. Or pastamania! We’ll get student price :D yeah yeah? I shall aim for this Friday. AHHAHAHA. I am like addicted to 4/3.

SHEETS OF RAIN, BED SHEETS AND RANDOM SHIT

HELLO HELLO IT'S LIKE SUNDAY NOW BUT IT'S STILL SATURDAY TO ME :D



woke up an hour later than my alarm, reached school at 9.45am instead of 9am, sorry kit and seph! then did work til almost 2, showcase almost done, i wish i'd more wow ideas, i feel sad tht ours looks plain :(



OHWELL I STILL LIKE IT.

and then i left for pang pang's house to meet meifeng and yiyin ((((:

damn screwed, i took 8, then 163 then 167. lol. took me a long time to get there, i arrived at like almost 4.

those two ppl are like awesome fun hahahha. they were sewing their stuff and i was jabbering on and on distracting them. meifeng was the only one replying, tht yiyin in incapable of multi-tasking lol.

we shared 2 big pkts of wanton mee round 7, one w chilli and one w/o, and then we got ready to leave but hahahha we got distracted and started talking bout random shit and then somehow we all ended up on yiyin's huge bed and lounged around and LOLLLLL friendster is so dead hahahahha.

yiyin kept telling me to stop fucking around lol i think im too used to saying the f word i keep saying it every few sentences! we talked about so much random stuff, i missed them soo effing much, i didnt hv to worry abt unintentionally causing offense cos they get me, and speaking of which, i so dont mean anth by my attitude, i just really cant understand you. the same way you were raised and cant understand why im being sucha bitch, i grew up w accuracy all my life and cant understand why someone would choose otherwise or even not try to improve. yes, i could try to ask again w/o being so pointed, but well hey too bad life sucks, you meet bitches, i've had my share of bitchcity and i've learnt from them so yeah learn from this, because that aint gonna cut it in the corporate world.

back to my awesome friends.

so we were having a great time on the sheets (LOL SOUNDS SOOOO WRONG) and although we'd been planning to leave by 7, at 8.30 we were still there, happy in each other's company.

as we were abt to finally leave at half past eight, meifeng looked out the window and realised it was raining, so i said, hey let's stay then! so we did, and that's how i got yelled at bout an hour later by the mother, screaming that i hadnt informed her where i was going and demanding to know what time i'd reach home. i said ten, but at ten fory five i was still there, yiyin refused to let us leave because her relatives were downstairs and she didnt want for any awkward situations to happens whereby the relatives are like, oh you were upstaris w ur frens instead of being w us, your relatives? lol so we kept having to check if they'd left alr i think we tried three times but they only left at 11.15pm, so yeah, meifeng and i ended up leaving then too. sooo late, seeing as we'd planned to leave since 8plus!

so what did we do in the meantime while waiting for the relatives to leave? some really, really dumb and spastic stuff. seriously. i dont know what possessed us. lol. yiyin also introduced to me the game of shoot/shag/marry. yeah,

and my favourite was when she said "YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED IN A COFFEE SHOP IS IT!!!!!!" HAHAHAHHAHA. i swear i laughed so much.

Okay great im meeting hem again next wk woohoo sleepover! :DDD

*NOTE: I am like posting this one wk after I typed it out lol lol lol so confusing hahhaha.

ALMOST THERE BABY, WAIT FOR ME

'sup.

you wanna know whats up? i'll tell ya what's up! i forgot to bring my internet connection thingie thingie to sch cause i was in this big rush,so now im like in sch w a handicapped laptop :(

so i wanna blog, but i cant, i wanna go on fb but i cant as well, so im like typing this out on wordpad and transfering it to blogger later when i get home, which will likely be well over 8pm. sigh. sah. lol.

yay there's zettai....okay, i do not know the original name for absolute boyfriend. but yeah, that's what imma be watching tonight, woohoo! i swear the song is freakin AWESOME. like immensely.

lalala........im supposed to be doing my reflective report now but the temptation to blog is too great, even if i do not hv internet connection. can..not....resist! hahahhaha.

royston was like "poet uh someone" last night on msn when he saw my pm, which was "i'll pass by but i'll go slow, i'll leave when the wind blows", and i was like, "dude it's a song lyric", hahahaha.
and it is! i heard it on the radio on the way home. some random song. i dont even know the title, lol. but whatever song it is, i think it reallly sums up my ohase right now. i hope the wind blows real, real, REAL soon, cause im getting real sick of going slow. fast fast fast! it's the age of instant gratification, after all.

can actually feel my brain wheels turning. the rusty wheels are like, so outta use. omg i am so weak, i so cannot stay up all night anymore. which is so not good for designers, because majority of our work is done through the night. i was sooooooo effing tired last ngiht, i took a bath and sat there in front of my laptop waiting for it to load and fell asleep. omg. woke up when my head fell off my arm and hit the table. hahhahah no actually i didnt kok the table, but yeah my head fell off my arm and i was like, "...wha?"

hmm okay irrelevant to the brain wheels stuff. it's just that i havent really done any real writing work for so long, i dont even know what's correct grammar anymore. i miss the essays and whatnot. okay i dont really miss the homework, but i do miss the ability to tell correct english from wrong. stupid A1 in english. stupid top of level in english award. i hv rep to keep up you know, i sound like an effing conceited bitch but this is all im good for alr, losing this would be like losing my identity. which, incidentally, i already happen to be losing. first the hair, then the eyes, followed by the arms, next the ahemhem, and now everything else! HAHHAHA i dont make sense right, but i swear im serious,

I WANNA WATCH HARRY POTTER, OH OOPS WHICH REMINDS ME I HAVENT REPLIED MEIFENG.
Okay replied. omg caps lock is really annoying. sigh i need to lose weight. lol irrelevant again. but highly relevant when you wake up every morning and put on smth, anth, and see all the unsightly bulges in all the wrong places. nasty, babeh

i want braces :( i wonder how much they cost. i heard like a thousand over, and i so cant afford it. im having trouble even scraping tgt the two hundred i need for contacts

ooh class's starting, Harvey's taking attendance, and omg Jane's reflective report is fourteen freaking pages!!!!! like omgggggg. ours is like 2pages each. omg. maybe we should go back --- HAHHAHA YEAH MAN Harvey just said our reports are due TUESDAY, HAHHAHHA. awesomeeeee. so we can take more pictures and write more woohooness. lol that doesnt even make sense.

OMG. christine foong is gonna be around on monday for the walk through and we gonna hv to explain to her our concept and everything. ohmyfreakinggoodness.

Righty-o, i have to go. time to work on assignment 2, ttyl :D

okay im home! hv collected my lenses yay :D and i dont think i'l be gg online later, im so effing tired and i gotta be at sch tmr by 9am :(

imma go now, bye!

LIES AND CONTEMPT, DRIPPING ON THE FLOOR, THE BLOOD OH SO RED, YOUR FACE A DISTANT IMAGE

OMG WHAT A COOL TITLE, I JUST CAME UP WITH IT ON THE SPOT HAHHAHA SHIT CAPS LOCK IS EFFING IRRITATING.

speaking of irritating, i dont know if i can stand it much longer! it's like, dont freaking TOUCH me, i dont know you tht well! and dont pretend otherwise! and for goodness sake get help.

argh its not like i wanna bitch or anth but it's like suffocating me. stop making that irritating sound, and stop touching me!!!!!!

okay sounds damn wrong. but yeah.

what effing lucky day, lucky day indeed, where got! stupid horoscope, make me talk like hawker ppl only. and and and omg i still havent got my mr bean dessert, but i had 2 soya bean drinks today, i swear it's not good for health to hv too much.

OH AND denise and reuben are both in melbourne! so exciting, 2 frens both in the same area. but reubs in ballarat, no idea where tht is, and no idea where denise is.

i miss the standard of english in anderson. not that i enjoyed it everyday, i did sit *there*. lol jeezballs i miss eating opp sch, and i miss being at the malls everyday, amk hub and j8. i swear you take those things for granted. nowadays im so sick of queueing for food at design canteen, and i nvr hv time to go to j8 or any malls to get stuff.

and omg, what, you annoying piece of gorgeousness, you think im stupid or smth?? huh huh huh! what! TP design sch not good enough for you? just because you go there now and hang w certified brainiacs means im no longer fit to hang around w you? well you're so wrong,its not funny. i could make your life so effing awesome, if you would just let me in. you nvr even bothered to find out exactly where i am, and now that you know you just dont care? you didnt even ask. eff eff eff eff.

LEEHOM, MONDAY, EIGHT O CLOCK :D yay awesomeness.

you know what, im sick of this this this, i think im passing by slow enough, maybe it's time the wind blows. yeah man woohoo empowerment.

JULY JULY HARRY POTTER MONTH :D

hello little people, i've missed you! hv been busy. and lazy. got a lot to say, but cant rmb anth!

need to slp alr, just wanted to say a few things.

BOO KEE HAH CREEPY SHITZZZ

okay done. hahahhaha! no just kidding.

am currently obsessed with:
1. mr bean tang yuan!!!!
2. SUNKIST ORANGE JUICE. it HAS to be sunkist.
3. TEH O PENG OMGG I LOVE!
4. stacie orrico's self titled album songs! (im stuck on you!)
5. her rapidly fading toenail colour!! gone is the pretty perfect pedicure ):
6. BURBERRY FALL WINTER AD CAMPAIGN OMG!!! YOU NEED TO SEE IT.
7. THAT HUGE BURBERRY BAG, THAT ONE THERE!
8. timingggg.

okay why is danny not replying. must be maple. ahhah i love my timing woohoo fate fate fate ok is born with it hahhahh shit i need to sleep. omg leehom's album got another version did you know did you know? i didnt know til recently!

and i havent eaten mac for like 3wks omgggggg! its good. harry potter, i want harry potter! rupert grint is like sucha awesome actor, i am like in awe. I AM ALSO IN BED. LOL OKAY IRRELEVANT. BUT KINDA KINKY :D

SHIT AM LIKE OBSESSED WITH CAPS LOCK KEY TOO. SLEEP TIME BEDTIME NO TIME!

The desire to stay out just a little later : A Tale Of Adventure

Our day started quite normally. but then again, dont they all?

So Huiting & i met up at 4.15pm at the bus stop and took 54 to Far east p, arriving ten to five and proceeded to the nearest toilet, where Huiting ... you know, used it. Hah. then we went to meet Royston & Cherie at Ngee Ann City.

y'know, everytime i see ngee ann, i read it like 'mary anne' in my head. like,"ngee anne". it's weird. let's just call it Taka. yep.

upon meeting roy and cherie we...oh yes, went to the toilet again. then we went to eat. yum. royston was wearing this cap that made him look so ROUND. like, mr round face. it was amusing. and cherie was wearing this nice top. skinny bitch :(

LOL. she's delusional, she wants to lose weight. someone pls get her a mirror.

back to the food.

i had sushi! and it was gooooooood. and so was the orange juice. i swear i hv this insane craving for OJ & green tea these days. and iced tea. i want some right now :(

after food, we went to find me some socks. how boring. lol. hold on, lemme turn on some music. ooooooh david cook. me likes.

(meeting kanika pris and misato tmr, woohoo! ok actually in bout 12hrs. yayness :D)

we strolled ard aimlessly in kinokuniya & i bought my fab mag (: then roy's sister came (i shall call her Char since i hv forgotten how to spell her name hahaha i hope she doesnt find this D:) & we went to eat mac/kfc yeah the food of the devil ahaaaha. resident calorie counter, cherie, had a hot milo. i however had an oreo mcflurry. ahhh the glorious evilness of it. wicked awesome.

am currently listening to BSB. LOLLLLL. backstreet boys. boyzone. boyz 2 men. so ... boyish. and their so old now haha. ok my personal fave was totally westlife. era of the boybands. so last generation. i feel so old D:

shit im digressing this was supposed to be abt Huiting & me & our adventure.

(oh now it's christina aguilera.ahh the pop princess period. britney xtina mandy etc.)

roy char and cherie left round 8-ish. i must say char looks more mature than roy. wow we ate lunch at like 5plus. how did tht morph into dinner at 7plus?? how did we spend the 2hr plus??? gawd time flies.
so after they left huiting and i headed to HMV. yay we love hmv. all those cds, all the possibilities...of course, we usu leave empty handed, unable to decide on a purchase or unwilling to part w the money. cds are so costly,but we love them. which sucks.

today however, ht actually bought smth.
behold!
Taylor Swift's album, singapore edition. haha $11.90, yes cheapo. haha no lyric book. not that it matters, since she can just borrow mine. i bought mine arnd CNY period. hv listened to it so many times, $17.95 is worth it.

me wants to buy cds. and shoes and bags and books. sigh. me wants to win lottery.

we spent a happy hour in hmv browsing all 3 levels. really wanted to hear claire guo jing's new album but inexplicably they didnt put it out for sampling :(
it's alright though, i made do w david cook (*runs to it screaming*) & kelly clarkson (*jumps up & down*). now i want both (*weeps for hole in pocket*).

by the time we left the shops were closing, bout a quarter to ten alr, but we werent abt to go home, the night was young and so were we, so we pointed our tail feathers in the direction of borders and got distracted by pushcart ice cream along the way. lol. ht got her ice cream and we went to the music section in borders. jeez we're such music nerds.

then we decided to watch a movie. hannah montana the movie, to be specific. so what do we do? attempt to locate the nearest AXS station! we hauled our butts from borders to shaw lido theatre, then the basement, then the underpass to the train station...no AXS station. called mong twice. no showtimes at gv or cathay or shaw. one last attempt to prove we can find an AXS machine : outside Marriot hotel. still no AXS! darn tht damned machine which is present EVERYWHERE but the places we went. ugh. we did manage to help out a woman in need of a cell phone though. our good deed of the day. er i meant week.

hahaha.

it was then ten thirty. sigh. we gave up the movie idea and toyed w the idea of the mac drive thru or perhaps the prata shop. but 54 presently came along so we hopped on. well at least huiting hopped, i hobbled. damn foam shoes, damn blisters.

i love bus rides. arriving in bishan we decided to go to the recently opened 24hr shop n save & buy random junk & slack somewhere. we didnt count on the other 7461 ppl w the same idea, much less the looooooooooong queue at the counter. yeah see how well that idea turned out, we were much better off at ksl, where ht got tempted by rojak & i happily got my teh o peng. mmm, it's so good.

late night supper is the way to go man. one big plate of rojak and one bowl of fishball soup shared, a lime juice for ht and my awesome teh o peng. yeah life's good. everybody seemed to be loving supper since ksl was quite packed. plenty of students frm the nearby rjc lodge and definitely all the bishan kids. damn, bishan kicks ass. saw edward again, he walked past and said hi while we were eating. second time in 5days.

i think ht and i were drunk on pineapples because afterward we stumbled back home walking weird and giggling way too much. okay fine im exaggerating, it was a sugar high, and i was walking weird cause of my blisters. teehee. we met cherie, the other one, the one frm anderson, on the way home and happily bitched bout kanika. hhaha just kidding babe, totally made that up. cherie had been studying at drive thru mac. sometimes design sch really rocksss :D
reached home at 12.30 and yay got the okay to go on thursday.

okay end of adventure. it was really a lot more fun than i made it sound, im just exhausted. need to crash badly. byebye now, more updates nxt time. til then, listen to david's sexy voice and try not to fall in love w him (i dare you!)
*collaspes on pillow* ah, bed.

AHHHHH!

am currently:

in mac lab above studio listening to Come back to me on 98.7FM and grinning idiotically at the com screen while doing H&C research. i love David Cook's superrr sexy voice!!

:D

something's cooking in here!

currently listening to: Innocent by David Cook

omg this song is so freaking addictive lurrrrve it lots lots omgggg. and and also love David Cook's cover of Hello, it's damnnnn niceee his voice is so sexyyyyyy

LOL

anw, 9 May to 10 June, is it considered 1mth or 1mth & 1day?
need someone to tell me!

Hello,
is it me you're looking for?

I LOVE HIS COVERRRR
heart heart heart.
lol so twit.

Goodbye May 2009

last day of may. sigh. everyone's having their june hols. everyone meaning the JC ppl.

meifeng kanika pris misato yiyin etc etc. too many to name, all enjoying the hols now. me, still doing write up on gallery visit. and i cant rmb the name of the tiger painting, i think its 'Tigers'. LOL. seriously, is it?

anw.

had great weekend! met meifeng aft sch on friday, after like 2mths! TWO MONTHSSSS. that's so effing long. and we only met for like, 4hrs plus. so short. then aft mf forced me to go home at 9plus i reached J8 and randomly went upstairs alone then BOOM! i met pris fiona tess and caryl completely by accident! awww so cool. hung w them for a while and then went home and slept happily.

ytd, i went to meet kanika pris and m at night at city hall and we did nothing, really, but had fun doing nth. im sure misato really like that band, Loover, i think. and i cant wait to meet meifeng and them again!

but now its time to buckle down and get back to that write up.

im hungryyyyy.

The Bauhaus influence

am in art studio doing Bauhaus project now!

lecturer from next door has come to scold us twice alr, and is on verge of kicking us out. hahhaha, we're like, much much quieter than the class nxt to ours last week.

anw.

sheryl glenda and yuko are in same group as me, and we're all like =.= when we hear 'Bauhaus' now. seriously. im supposed to do influence of Bauhaus, so here goes:

How does Bauhaus affect the lives of people today?

well, for one, it makes us tired and very, very sleepy. for another, we go crazy trying to read the uber wordy essays and sites on it. and then crazier trying to summarise them. and also take note of the site urls so we can credit them. bleh.

so glad im not an architect.

ooh i havent blogged in super long time huh. not much to talk abt, sch sch sch, weekends also go to like, huiting's hse only. hahaha.

might be meeting meifeng this friday, woohoo! and irritating minshan cant make it, it's her mum's bday. well who's more impt, me or her mum?? HAHHA JUST KIDDING (:

YAY NO SCH THIS FRIDAY, AWESOMEEEEEE :D

shall ask Nana and Pangpang and YY too. am i forgetting anybody? hmm must faster book them. lalalaaaaa.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nana says she has exam in the afternoon on Friday!!!! D:

OOOH later at 6 Morko is celebrating Khairani's 18th birthday :D

it's supposed to be a surprise, but i dont think he'll read my blog and find out before 6 o'clock today anw hahah.

and then we are celebrating Sarah C.'s bday too! hers is on the 27th, but just in case we cant make it then, we're sharing the cake for them two today. Nevermind lah right, more cosy anw (:

am excited! Morko-ness :D

oh man, tmr, 2D Art Fundamentals painting due........... i dont like! and i still hv many many sketches to do, which sucks cause i have lost the ability to draw. and i cant seem to draw fine, clean lines. they're all like, repeated, double or triple or more, lines. SUCKSSSSSSS.

...

Bluetooth rawkkkks.

huiting is in sch but she says she's leaving at 6plus.... oh man then who will take 93 home w me!

:(

and actually i shd go home early too, since i gotta paint my drawing...but i...dont....wanna....go home and get distracted by the evil that is television! 

i am v easily distracted.

okay bored of blogging!

TO THE SKETCHES, AND BEYOOOOND!

I WANNA WATCH MOVIES D:

freakkkkkkk yooooo

postcards postcards postcards.

i swear my degree increased in the past 36hrs omg hp mini screen so small okay okay must stop complaining LIFE'S A FUNKY BEEEYATCH hahhahha.

found old pic in my com, miss going home w them so much havent seen them in 9023752985 seconds except yiyin whom i just saw on monday (this is referring to pic3!) woot besties is love.

this is from jan 2008
here, justin havent join us yet we were on our way to his hse to surprise him lol.

good times. march 2008
meifeng damn cute lol no idea when this was! june 08 i think, on our way to class bbq :)

loves Besties super effinggg much most impt grp of frens in my life how do ppl survive w/o childhoodys LOL no such word.

and regina ong qianhui so cool next time we slap them tgt okay hahahhaha just kidding.

okay back to postcards. i love illustrator.

not not nottt.

old school new school

am amusedddd like immensely and super fascinated as to where this could end up.

i think having digital essentials as first module is like the most horrible for me because im a total com noob and i didnt even get my laptop back until sunday hahahaa funny how life works.

caiyu and sheryl were like dont go for cai's bday dinner lah must priortise but i had to. besties mean so effing much to me. obviously, if i knew i couldnt do my assignment like REALLY CANNOT DO then i wldnt hv gone,but i could. it wasnt as good as others, but to be 100% honest i think w my com skills it couldnt hv gotten much better.

mum was like yes you must tell me when you're gg sch and once again, that i cant let them down again feeling came, and i think i only hv to answer to myself my parents and God in the end so yeah i really dont need to explain myself.

in class today i saw smth and am glad i didnt point it out lol life's lovely. my cafe brochure isnt ugly, it's got plenty pics and im so sleepy gosh.

postcards.i know, everyone thinks i cant care less but lol i say all these things i dont mean, hahaha. i seriously dont know how to put my idea onto the postcard lol salah time running out. stupid screenshot.

haahhhhahhaha im so annoying its true but like lol, embrace it, own it. not worth it! mind your own business lah grace. lol. hello, you hv assignments too you know.

gosh think i might hv trusted wrongly but like lol, life's a bitch, just like me and you and my baby kanika :D

yawn.
big bore on the snore.

IS GRACE BIPOLAR???

LOL grace went for jam&hop on friday night at design space and was super high, almost went crazy inside! took alot of unglam photos, dread seeing, hope those photos nvr ever surface!!!!

grace danced w michelle and her scary (very very wet) hair and mostly stuck w mong and ht because morko guys suck lah cannot take the heat :D

no im just kidding guys, you guys the best lah go w us.
FIFI KHAIRANI AND MABEL THE BEST :D

grace doesnt why she is talking abt herself as third person but it is kinda fun in an annoying way.

although grace went jam&hop w michelle ashley ht mong fifi mabel rani and shijie, ashley left like super early. oh and we met michelle's very very VERY high fren, jun feng. after the guys left jacen suddenly appear and then after a while he suddenly disappear lol and omg it was super fun, i was so high because everyone was so high then cannot dance also anyhow dance :D

Jam&hop ended at like ten and i was exhausted, dunno how i even walked home. and then i had a few hrs of sleep b4 i got up for APEL. almost fell alseep :S

am in fabulous grp full of fabulous ppl, namely me! LOL kidding.

after APEL, mong ht and i were supposed to go sentosa because the rest of Morko v not on :(

but GRACE THE SUPER GENIUS psycho ppl until end up..... FiFi Mabel Rani Rachel and Eunice also go! :D Grace pro or not huh hahahahhaha.

then rachel reach vivo first, she wait until bu nai fan so she went in first w jacen, then the rest of us just sat there waiting, waiting waitingggggg until Eunice finaaly turned up at 3.30! hahahha i couldnt wait to go into sentosa. i was super duperly high can, everyone just stared at me like, eh what happen to her sia. LOLLLL.

at 3.50 we finally reached palawan beach! i think i quite anti climax, i so high then i think everyone thought i reach there sure play like mad but i just happily sit on the rocks and then sit on the sand and suntan :D

while everyone jumped into the water i sat and looked, and alternated between talking to myself and talking to ht hahahhaha.

grace cant go into water ok, she still sick frm freshmen shower, getting wet was how she got sick!
then stupid seniors try to pull me in, including yijie who suddenly appeared when michelle and jacen were contemplating carrying me into the water, waa damn scary can, see all that armpit hair, HAHHAHAHHAHAH.

luckily, grace did not get wet :D

and then Morko went to vivo where mabel and eunice left, so the rest of us went to kfc, where they flat out refused to go w me to sky garden to meet GLs :( they so lazy right. lol. so ht damn pro, she told me to send msg to michelle w alot of sad faces, then they will come. so i did.
and i sat there giving the guys my best sad face so they'll feel guilty until suddenly, the GLs materialized! LOLLLL ht damn pro sia. i was damn damn damn high, because the sad face thing really worked, so my face totally changed into the extreme opposite of sad can, hahahahha!

rani said he was v confused cos i sad to high so fast. so zai lah my sad face! wy i nvr use it b4 in my life!!!! hhahahah.

so we went to sky garden where i suddenly realised i left my precious shoebag in kfc, hahahahh then we all trooped back to retrieve it, so sweet of them right.

back at sky garden, mong and i racked our brains trying to play rani's rubics (lol cant spell it!) cube. i so dumb, cant even make one side, mong more pro than me. then after tht jacen kidnapped the cube so we got nth to play. so i dunno what fifi mong and rani did, but ht started playing rani's psp and i played....tap tap! whooo!!!!

LOL eh my first time playing tap tap okay, even though kanika has iphone, but i nvr played b4. i was mesmerized by the addictive game, hahahahha at least until jacen informed me tht i was playing it wrongly LOL soooo dumbbbbbb i think shijie said "no she noob so must give chance" hahahhaha how i know supposed to use thumbs and not your pointer finger right hahaha.

i damn pro okay, play until 96% lehhhh!


HAHA i play kids level. not even easy. kids. FUNNYYYY.

we stayed until abt ten then the guys wanted to leave alr, nvm this friday got morko outing, woohoo everyone mark your calendars, dont worry abt money because michelle and jacen treat hahhahah just kidding but omg grace super broke sia why everything costs so much boohoohoo somemore need buy that ah cai's present sigh sigh sigh.

OH WAIT marcus and yanliang owe me money! oh betty too! ahahhaha awesomeeee.

okay i am still very high, hmm, must be all that cough medicine i've been loading into my system. toodly-o everybody, i'll see you bnect week on the nxt installment of, IS GRACE BIPOLAR???

HAHAHHA NOPE JUST KIDDING. watch this space! :D

OFFICIAL FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL :D

was almost late today lucky jun sheng sms me and woke me up haha :D

put on random clothes and in the end wore this old old pair of jeans i havent touched in like over a year omg was so tight i nearly faint lol

after genesis i went to cheers to buy panadol haha so convenient. happeee :)

I HOPE I GET WELL SOON!

lol first day very slack tmr got class til 6, poor seniors hv class til 9pm. oh man nxt time i sure really really no life hahhahaha.

jealous, huiting might be getting a new mac book sigh sigh my sucky hp mini is so suck lah lol.

OHYES

Morko is like prob meeting soon right? yay excited! camp tht time i so not high so this time must be high high highhhhhh :D

wow how come my first day sounds so boring am too brain dead to think of interesting things aside from the fact tht ken missed his first class LOL SO FUNNY SHD HV SEEN HIS REACTION.

ok huiting going out for supper now so i must go home alr, toodles!

DESIGN ORIENTATION CAMP

hello its sunday and i finally feel a little more up to blogging bout DOC :))
excuse any typos i might make pls, not used to ht's keyboard.

after the freshie traditional shower where everyone was soooooaked, we all gathered in the triangular gardens where the cold wind blow blow blow on us then i caught a cold LOL so weak.

friday night aft leaving TP sarah sheryl monky (hahhaha) huiting and i took 8 all the way to tpy where ht and i had mac for dinner, thus resulting in my sore throat hahhaha im so dumb, know will fall sick still eat but hey come on, no one says no to a double cheeseburger....which is irrelevant cos i had a fish fillet LOL.

anw i got home near midnight and conked out for 16hrs str, waking up at 5pm on sat afternoon. soooo exhausted, i didnt even hv time to scare myslf silly thinking of the ghost stories GLs told us. hmm im at ht's hse now and am sneezing every few min sincerely hope i dont get any snot on ht's keyboard hhahahah.

slept a grand total of 14hrs from monday to friday this week, no wonder i was so tired. quite pro ar :D

see, i was up all of monday night reading the new CLEO til 3.30am then woke up at 6am. lucky ht told me and i told sheryl tht tues wasnt the stayover. i wore a red shirt and when we got there i realised all the GLs were in red lol so funny i felt so outta place. ht sheryl and i all in Morko *cue cheer*. am gonna attempt to list everyone in Morko now:
Grace Huiting Sheryl Theresah Chloe Pris Rachel Sarah Mongyi Shuwen Eunice Esther Meryl Ken Nick Cliff Khai Junsheng Eugene, GLs: Amos Ashley Michelle Jacen Sarah woohoo my memory is so pro hahhahah

what did we do tues? all i rmb is that i got the scary red eyes. lol. OHYA we had station games. and then we went to the audi for moses' long talk and everyone had to pee when we came out. and aft that we went to sports complex to learn mass dance where nick and i apparently entertained all arnd us. nick cant dance lol. and then aft countless de-briefs we finally went home and i, procrastinator tht i am, had to pack before i cld sleep, thus i only slept for 3hrs sigh.

managed to not be late the nxt day when sheryl's dad picked us up woohoo my acheivement of the year, i swear, then we all gathered in the Tgardens (am too lazy to type triangular gardens) where Jacen Amos Ashley and Mich all didnt recognise me LOLLLLL. see what a huge difference contacts make? scary red eyes forced me to wear specs for rest of camp, so everone was like, "eh new girl ar?", "who are you?" and "you nvr come ytd huh?" hahahha so amusing.

cannot rmb what we did on wed until Morko and Morba did the dance for performance, to Me Against the Music woot Britney! hahha althought i wld hv loved pokerface. its just so dancey, you know. then we all gto DOC camp shirts, yay, and we had to go audi for performance night where our dance got cut off halfway, making us all look super duperly lameeee hahha. nxt up was dinnertime followed by sentosa!

waaa travelling there tgt was damn fun monky and nick were near me so we kept crapping lol hv no idea what we talked abt though. when we got there it was sooooooo humid, i just wanted to pour all the water in my bottle over my head. like jennifer in flashdance, LOL. more games at sentosa until evryone was super tired and felt so dirty. Morko got back first, with GL Sara so all the girls chionggggg to sports complex for our awesome-beyond-awesome bath. then when Morko girls came out, we saw the super super SUPER loooooong queue for the showers and felt so blessed because we were the lucky first grp to bathe :))))

slept for 3hrs that night, woke up on thursday and had an uber big breakfast which affected my appetite the whole day, making my appetite very off. we all separated into our resp. courses. to all my frens who envied me for gg poly cos they thought i sure see alot of guys, get this: ADM only 3guys!!! LOLLLLL like gg girls sch like that, its so funny to see. met our CM and lecturers, and now hv got pressure to dress well all the time omg need to go shopping hahahhaha.

lunch was next, but i had no space for my spaghetti so had to carry it arnd all thru Pirate Race. ohyes, met Cliff's only fren, PH. since i call Mongyi Monky and Cliff Liffy/FiFi/Clifford, i named PH Peepee. LOL such a horrid name right, im so sorry man, its catchy though.
finally ate my luch at 5.10pm when Morko was doing our flag. everyone loves my clutch, im like Doraemon, i hv everything in my clutch lol. tissues, paperclip, safety pins, hair clips, mints, eye drops etc etc and the all impt MOPIKO! :DD honestly, i am like the bloodsuckers' fave meal.

aft flag thing was dinner i think which i totally COULD NOT eat.. in the end i had only 2meals tht day, but anw aft dinner was spelling bee. very long and amusing :) and then it was time for the much anticipated nightwalk which was rumoured to be super good. Morko was the last grp to go though so we sat in the amphitheatre for like 3hrs listening to scary stories and freaking out. lol. i kept thinking abt the shower rm stories, esp Jacen's, since aft that HT and i went by ourselves to the sprts complex and it was completely deserted. lucky halfway thru got two GLs come in else i think i wld hv started screaming like a banshee. haha.

ANW.

monky looked v scared when we were in the amphitheatre. and i was acting all aiya all the stories so fake blahblahblah but if you were one of the ones i grabbed during the nightwalk you'll know i was actually uber freaked out and haha nick act macho, so funny. then cliff was hilarious, he completely no reaction to everything because he is CLIFF. LOL. and theresah was screaming thru out. all the 'ghosts' were superb actors! i was esp scared of the crawlers. i swear at our second stn i cld feel my knees knocking tgt, i was so scared. hahhahaha.

Morko bathed last that night, and as i said earlier Ht and i went to SC to bathe thinking all the Morko girls wld be there too but they werent and we were like, okay nvm, just bathe! hahaa then on our way back, a grp of guys were like, "dragonboaters in strike!" in our path and then tried to block us, haha, i was just like, "ah okay we step over you ar" lol they think they very funny i think Jacen was amongst them, tsk tsk why seniors so childish hhahha jk.

after a sleep that was more like a nap, we were up and cheering in Tgardens, super fun. we went and irritate all the other sch ppl who walked by, LOL. i cant say seniors childish alr lah, cos we all also strike to block the engine and business ppl hhahahahaa. stayed in Tgardens til aft lunch, then headed to SC where the entire TP freshie grp were. cheer cheer cheer, sweat like mad, then went to bedok reservoir for Regatta :) it was fab! i cheered like mad. lol tht rhymes :D

cld see Matthew wakeboarding, so cool, was right in front of us. and our cheering paid off as Design won Best Spirited Sch :DDD at 6plus all design freshies gathered in design sch and Moses was like, "freshies, welcome to design sch" and a truckload of water descended from above onto all the freshmen. LOL. heng my clutch waterproof. felt so much cooler after the "shower", little did i know i wld fall sick because of that, haha. Morko group hugged w the dry Sarah and Jacen in the middle but still failed to get them wet sigh lol. my shoes were like water catchment areas. so glad i brought extra everything. aft we changed, Morga took grp pics and hugged and then at abt 9plus everone finally left for home.

and you know the rest.

during the camp itself i felt it was not v fun, until the last 2days. and then an hr aft we left camp i was missing camp terribly alr. sigh although we'll still see each other in sch the feeling will be different! and Morko wont see Jacen anymore since he's graduated. and i will miss everybody because ADM's schedule is like v diff from others. Ht ends at 3pm tmr, and i think i hv no class til 3pm, omg, what am i supposed to do? haha think will stick w sheryl.

ok this post is super long and i am super hungry now so willl go eat my food, byebye now! :D