blogging frm mobile

hiya all! Am blogging frm my phone as the title suggests, who is awesomely cool and seriously giving me a thrill like no other.

I think my thumbs are too fat for the phone though hahaha.

Rewarded myself by reading a book today. Though i'll like it but it made me real depressed and now i dont even believe in it anymore. Depressing! Need a trashy romance novel to cheer me up. Need the weekend!

I feel as though the wk has ended when it's just begun sigh at least i get some eyecandy in the form of Wu Zun and Jerry Yan. Hahah Wu Zun. Yay.

Loving this. Think i shall blog more often from now :)

Happiness. Okay bye for now!

ARIEL

So i mentioned my red do! Lookie look at the picture. this was an accidental shot at ken's 17th but i love how you can totally see the contrast of the black sunglasses on my head against the red. awesomeeee. ignore ian in the background, trying to upstage me, that one.

what other famous redheads are there? ficional ones. RON WEASLEY. OH DUH GRACE, JEAN GREY. jeez, and you consider yourself an x-men fanatic. KIM POSSIBLE!!!!! :DDDDD

archie. jessica rabbit :D that flintstones girl.

waa cannot be jean grey lah, cannot fit into that bodysuit. will kill myself and everyone who sees okay. hahaahhah. sad life.

sigh me is hungry. and cannot think of anth to blog bout cept food. one track mind, i tell ya.

Daphne Ann Blake from Scoobydoo! halloween discussion continued. shd i be her? all i gotta do is dress in varying shades of pink and purple! :DDD

kay i really like the daphne idea. cos im lazy and this is easy. jessica rabbit seems cool though. hahahha but she's sexy and voluptuous and im hungry. hv gastric. ouch.

k got milo.

continuing with halloween.

mary-jane watson fr spiderman? too difficult to portray though, she is defined by spiderman.

(mmm, the milo tastes awesome....)

elmo? lol i cant look like elmo! too furry. yes in case you were wondering, ALL MY HALLOWEEN OPTIONS ARE BASED AROUND THE IDEA OF BEING A REDHEAD.

did i forget to mention? doh.

is little red riding hood a redhead? i've been googling redheads. tin tin? the flash from justice league? his name is wally smth or other. CLEOPATRA!!!!! omg she's a redhead!! lily cole? i love lily cole she's gorgeous. k obviously i am not but i can pretend for halloween :D

marilyn monroe sans hair dye. yeah norma jean was born a redhead. wow. cool. julia roberts? all i gotta do is smile. Britney in the 'toxic' video? cooooool.

you know, im actually doing research on redheads. that is so weird.

red is a powerful colour, i feel so empowered. so many historical and influential ppl were/are redheads. for eg, Stalin and Napoleon. and Queen Elizabeth the first. also Mary Magdalene was depicted as a redhead but this was never confirmed in the Bible. of course, they were red au naturel, and i am not. but, let's not get technical.

moving back to cartoon redheads, Strawberry Shortcake is red-haired in the original version. and there's Blossom from Powerpuff Girls! do you rmb the craze back then? sigh childhood..... then there's also Princess Fiona from Shrek. redhead! i love the possiblities. Misty from Pokemon. cool. Batgirl.

okay im sleepy. abrupt end to this post. goodbye fair folk!

REVIVAL: the assurance of life

Hi all, im back! yes i know,i let the second half of holidays pass me by w/o blogging even once how sad is that hahahha its like after portfolio review i just said goodbye right.

naw i just went to enjoy life and knowing me im too lazy to touch the laptop when i dont hv to (for sch i hv to so when i dont need to i dont, its actually possible to get tired of it!) and then i discovered Twitter through txt and i started using it so effing much and now im totally scared of the arrival of the phone bill because new classmate Elizabeth told me i send it to a number in the States and like omg YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I USE IT.

yeah i update my Twitter by text about like 6 times a day which sounds little but come on, if i didnt then i'll update like ONCE A WK FROM WEB. that's how lazy i am.

thus the dead blog. im not dead, im just grace.

oooooooooo you know so many cool things took place, like i realised i do hv a life and during the hols i went out so effing much that i pretty much spent $9784265275 which I DO NOT HAVE thus yes, i am in debt, AGAIN. but dont worry, because i am Grace, i am responsible.

so to Shirley, Huiting, Justin, Jiacai, Y'ALL HV NO NEED TO WORRY, I WONT RUN AWAY (mainly cause i havent practised in like 18mths)
do i owe anyone else dough? tell me, because i will not rmb.

new semester, new look.

yep i finally dyed my hair an obvious colour and permed it again cause i hated the previous one so much! this new curl is more like wavessssssss and im a redhead so yes, i am actually Ariel the little mermaid! :D

actually this isnt the first time i went red. i went red for prom last year but got cheated cause it wasnt obvious after like, ONE DAY. but if you rmb prom, i was red. and one day, one fine day when i actually post my prom pics you may be able to see it too.

but this red now has more of a copper undertone which i initially hated but am growing to like it more since i realised it suits me and well, it has been a hit with the friends. yep yep. though i am PATHETIC at styling it so i usu just wake up and go.
yeah im a lazy ass but the waves look different everyday but i feel sad cos it was way better when i left the salon..

duh obviously.

i swear i need to hire a hairstylist, im so lazy and incompetent when it comes to my hair.

i have Drawing Essentials and Creative Writing this sem, if anyone cares.
hahhahaha.

i love creative writing, i am such a geek. i ADOREEEEEEE writing. geeeek. nerd. four-eyes. ariel. yes. hahahha.

i am broke beyond broke. i know i've said it before but this time is like record breaking. i had to get an advance on the allowance to survive. yeah i hv approx $17 left for the next wk incl top up for ez-link money :(

i am poor.

understatement.

but happily, i hv kind friends who will allow me to pop by for dinner whenever so that's awesome. yay kind friends, you know who you are. xoxooxoxoxo :D

okay me hungry now gonna go eat smth. will come back and post later, fear not!

hunger : the enemy

why do ppl need food to live? why must we get hungry? i hv no money and no understanding mother to give to my allowance earlier. and im not allowed to eat food at home, because "it's not put there for me to eat," and gawd, im STARVING.

emergency money once again used for food. damn it!

i wish huiting would hurry up in replying me.

ok she just did and she doesnt wanna go downstairs to eat w me. and it's only downstairs! depressingly hungry. gawdddddddddddddddd.

portfolio review in like four days. woot.

tights, tigers and...F1 cars

hahaha i couldnt make F1 cars start w T for the title. oh cool i shd call it 'tights, tigers and titles' :D

am loving my new tote to the maxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx. you know it fits A3 sized board!!!! still got alot space left. COOL RIGHT.

anw just got in shortly after midnight and went to ate my mac 'n' cheese woot niceeee.

then i went to use com and thus i havent bathed ew i know yucksss. i spammed twitter again and went to check all my fave shopping sites yum i love one of the new collection! and like i think im really gonna buy some stuff fr here. die no money larhsxsxsxz. hahahahhah twit alert.

waa today started out real bad. i was supposed to wake at 1030 but i completely did not hear my alarm! i was gonna go to sch and collect my stuff then go meet HT at city hall at 1245 but get this : I WOKE UP AT 1234!!!! hahahaha 1234. LOL. but yeah, 12.34pm.

i freaked out and texted HT immed. and then i recalled waking up and SWITCHING MY ALARM OFF OMGGGGGG damnit it's become a horrible habit!!!! arghhhhhhhhh hate me.

so i ran arnd getting ready and reached sch at 2.10 (it takes like 45 min to get there so i left home quite fast alr haha), left at 2.30, saw Cliff, asked him if he was gonna go and he said yes but he ps-ed us! anw i left at 2.30 but for some weird reason reached marina sq at 3.35pm. take so long to get there meh??? oh i know all the walking time right. hmm. and yeah i was gonna take 51 but cleverly rmb-ed that stupid F1 wld interrupt all the bus services. *more bitching on F1 later.

so mong js khai mich and leslie were gonna go into the movie at 3.45pm but ht and i werent watching since we'd alr watched the ugly truth on tues. DAMN FUNNYYYYYYY ME LIKES. aiyah forget to discuss and laugh over funny scenes w them. the 2hrs that they wer ein there passed real quick for me & HT. we went to LJS and ate for like an hr. i managed to eat slow :) and we talked abt 'deep' stuff. by 'deep', i mean non superficial stuff like the size of the butt of the cute guy walking by. ahahha i just painted a real bimbotic image of us which is quite untrue.

anw after eating we went window shopping. i say window shopping cos we'd alr really shopped on tues at the same place so this time we just tried stuff on and fantasized bout them. aw i want a knitted sweater. and the sweater fr topshop.and that jacket fr pull&bear. sigh.

then round 6 they called and we met up again and proceeded to stone at random benches cos we can never decide where to go. we ended up at BK waiting for alicia and then mich left just b4 7. then alicia came and brought her friend w her, and oops i cant rmb her name but yeah. we went to the food court and on the way up, we saw a....YELLOW SHIRT GUY. hahahahha. HT went crazy and spent the rest of the night looking for him. lol. i helped. like surprisingly alot of guys decided to wear yellow today. ahahhaha.

somehow we passed the time til almost 9 when we realised Marina sq wld be shut down by 9.30, or at least the bridge to it wld. so we headed to raffles city where we walked aimlessly about until we decided to go to bras basah complex the mac. then HT and i got outcasted and spent the next 45min or so being well, OUTCASTED :(

then round 10.15 she wanted to leave so i caved and was like, okayyyyy. some bitch w ugly dark eye circles kept staring lah walao dunno what's her fucking problem wanna fight isit huh huh huh! *takes deep calming breath*

as we were leaving fr toilet we saw tree who just arrived so we went to say hi and bye then we left. oh wait i forgot to mention the F1 cars right.

before dinner mong js and ht wanted to go see/hear the cars drive by, well lemme tell ya it wasnt hard to hear them. ugh. like i seriously cannot understand why the hell they wanna hv the race, somemore at night. as if all the air pollution aint enought, you gotta waste all that electricity as well?!?! like if they at least hv it in the morning then wont need all those lights right. wtf. and it's just watching stupid little cars drive by in a blur of metal and noise after all. but hey, who am i to judge right, just the generation who has to live with the damaged earth and limited natural resources. whoop.

anw, so because of the race, every bus was like affected so we were like, hmm wonder which bus can take us home. and we smartly chose buses instead of squeezing into the train with the other three quarter of singapore who'd decided to go to city hall tonight whether for the race or not.

so like i said ht and i left first right, so we walked to bugis and located the bus stop for 56, woot. then we were like, hey there's time, let's go to iluma! so we did, and whoa, i still really wanna watch a movie there. YAY FAME IS OUT YOU KNOW.

"...there is a school that will teach you how to fly..... REMEMBER MY
NAMEEEE!!!!!! im gonna live forever, im gonna learn how to fly!"

:DDDDDD yay cant wait to catch it, i've been waiting all year for it to come out.

oh then we spent like quite long on the bus but it was okay lah, except that i got hungry and when we got to bishan i wanted to stop by the 24hr supermarket to get food first, so ht kindly accompanied me there and i couldnt find anth nice so we went nxt door to 7-eleven and i bought mac n cheese!
and as i was paying i got startled by a weird dude saying hi and i was like, WHOA WHAT?? and it was phuay hao! weirdness. i was like, wth are you doing in bishan?!?!?! and he said he was gg prawning, like it answered everything. and i was like, huh? but ht was like, ohhh. so yeah. i still hv no idea where prawning is, but i rmb hong wei once said he was gg prawning and drove by my hse so i guess it's quite near.

then we headed home and MISSED OUR BUS COS THE DRIVER DIDNT STOP!!!!!! UGH $%#%^$*&#@^%$

anw yeah that's why we left at 10.15 but got home nearly 2hrs later.

and my mum said my new tights look like tiger skin so yeah. sweet.

here i am again

im blogging again!

let's talk abt what i did over the past week from last thurs.

thursday
stayed in sch til 8pm working on fabric book. uber sad cos as i was rushing to sch i grabbed the wrong file w no cover pg and only realised it when i was in the cab. so my fabric bk has this pathetic excuse for a cover pg and it's disgusting :(
think it's another C or C+ for TF. sigh, i really wanna break this awful cycle you know.

bus-ed to PS to met huiting, ate beef chilli cheese fries (NEVER AGAIN) and QQ rice (DITTO). went home, watched ANTM, yay, start of hols!!!!!!!!!!!

friday
woke up late, it rained like mad, at 4 i finally reached amk and went to meet minshan lihui and jiale at mac, then at 4.30 minshan and i headed to jubilee to meet nic. we bought tix for time traveller's wife at 5 and then went to s11 where i ate veggies. lol. jianyu came at 5 and we went into the theatre. THERE WAS NOBODY BUT US HAHAHA WE 4 PPL DOMINATE THE ENTIRE CINEMA WHOO!
jianyu kept walking up and down, and nic kept talking back to the screen. minshan kept crying and i kept, eating my bread. hahaha.

after movie, almost 7 alr. jordan came and we sat like idiots at CENTER STAGE. lol damn dumb. we kept inhaling al the incense smoke cos it was last day of seventh mth. we waited for tingzhi and danny for superrrrrrrr long. when danny (last to reach) finallly came we went to eat at a hawker centre. zi char! haha damn weird. need to eat damn fast else jianyu and danny and minshan finish all the food! for some weird inexplicable reason even tingzhi ate faster than me, i was last.

then we went to mac, and because EVERYONE was broke and minshan and i were the only teo w money, we had to buy everyone ice cream =.= what kind of sick twisted logic is that huh!!! lol we sabo jordan go buy the cones and he came back with a tray of six cones. funnyyyyyyyy.

then we stayed there for super long and played silly games which were damn fun and i think quite childish and i was on the train home at 11 i think when i got spooked cos i was gonna be home alone for 3 and a half days and it was still 7th mth. so i called kanika and well, we ended up talking until 3am. and then from 330 to 4am. haha. i think we talked abt like EVERYTHING and its been like monthsssssss since we last did so it was like, refreshing i suppose. hahahha i cant even rmb all the things we said.

saturday
woke up at 8.30, went to bank w daddy at 9.30, reach back bishan at 10.15am and queued at ntuc for freaking 20min. not kidding. it's like EVERY SINGLE FAMILY GOES GROCERY SHOPPING FOR THE ENTIRE MONTH ON SATURDAY MORNINGS. omgggggggg. i was sooooooo frustrated. reached home at 11.30am and went to play w goldbelle!

so funny. i was touching her so much that she bit me. you know, i'd like to think of it as a love bite. haha, we all express our love in different ways....

re-watched the little mermaid and 27 dresses then at 5pm i was v tired so i went to nap until 10pm then woke up and watched tv til like 4am then went back to sleep. gawd, pig much?

sunday and monday
totally overslept. how is it possible for a person to sleep this much when she's alr slept SO MUCH???? huiting supposed to come over and stay. we were supposed to go out for some shopping b4 but i woke up too late for that. totally cleaned the entire house and did like two loads of laundry then went ovr to ht's for dinner, before gg to j8 and stocking up on vids on food for the night.

we got too little food. we were hungry by midnight and ended up eating noodles. then we movie marathon-ed. i got depressed because movies are such LIES. we watched angus,thongs and perfect snogging, role models, half of the notebook and kinda legally blonde. and then we fell asleep at 6am then woke up at 8am for the emmys but lazy pig huiting who said she wld wake up didnt and we ended up sleeping until 1pm. wow pigness exemplified.

then we went to eat and she went to her aunt's hse so i went home at 2plus and watched the wedding planner and mulan. and then it was the end of my freedom filled weekend where i did practically NOTHING! hahah what a loser.

and we all know i went shopping on tues and wed and now it's thurs at 6pm and the sun's abt the set and i still havent done anth. cool.

instantly gratificate me

IM BOREDDDDD.

today's only the first day of me staying in to save money and like, i've alr gone through all my usual online shopping sites. anw, im not supposed to be doing that cause im almost broke and yeahhhhh.

see, this is what happens when you hv no job, no income, and no rich doting parents.

and no boyfriends too.

was out shopping the past two days and boy, i spent a lot. on food!!!

minshan and i went abt town searching for a nice place to hv dinner. we wanted smth different, w ATMOSPHPERE, you know? we went from ion to NAC. (see minshan, i told you i'll call it NAC from now) to wisma to cineleisure, and we finally settled at heeren. at pasta de waraku -.-

i broke my promise to myself to never eat japanese pasta because it's weird.

but what could i do? i couldnt decide between italian pasta and japanese. so we combined the two and got to waraku. hahahaha.

there was a 25% off for students, so it was okay. and like, i really enjoyed my food. but i think im gg to stick to pasta mania. for guilt-free, gst and service charge-free dining. im not cheapo, just penniless.


huiting isnt picking up her phone, again =.=

and minshan is working, so yeah. and all the jc-ers are mugging for promos so that leaves me w my seriously limited poly frens. that's what happens when in the entire class only 3 ppl go to poly. anw, apparently there's a morko outing tmr but i hv no idea when and where.

and cherie's not free today. but i could always ask diana/daphne/amanda/other misc poly frens, but i dont want to because I AM TRYING TO SAVE MONEY BY STAYING HOME, AND DAMN IT, IM GONNA DO IT. yeah.

but im so boreddddddd :((((((((

i've alr re-watched all my videos. okay half of them. and the other half is w huiting so i guess i wont be doing that.

i could....go to the library and borrow books. but i hv fines due and i cant borrow anth w.o first paying the fines and well, I DONT WANNA PAY MY FINES, it kinda COSTS MONEY.

i could....go to ntuc and do one of my fave things to do when i hv nothing to do, grocery shop! but again, that costs $$$$$$$$. and calories =.=

WHY OH WHY ARE THREE QUARTER OF MY FRIENDS IN JAYCEE JC???

oh, i thought of smth that doesnt cost $. but is too mean to post here.

i got my tote bag ytd. went to the post office to collect it and wow, it's alot bigger than i though it would be, but omg i loveeeeee it. it's like, so cheap! $27 inclusive of postage.

oh hey just thought of smth else i could do. i could go to kino and salivate over all the books/other misc stuff i want, but that involves actually getting off my ass and partaking in the usual pre-going out routine that includes the contact lenses, makeup, and finding appropriate outfit to wear, which will take like an hour if im lucky/inspired and then another hour or so to reach kino (bus bus bus) and then it'll be the hated rush hour and anw im too *^%^%@#^ to go by myself but is too lazy to look for someone to go w me. im just plain lazy, actually.

and what is up with the crazy weather??? cold and wet one day and then so hot and effing irritating the next two. infuriating.

i used to be able to spend hours on end online shopping. now i practically finish in one hour. it's crazy, it's nuts, it's awful.

and i dont know why i cant apply for IB w this account my mum gave me. its not my own acc, and like, it's annoyingggg.

feel very antsy, and hot weather is not helping.

rahhhhhhhhhhh.

have a measly sixty bucks left until allowance comes to me on sunday. that means i can either get

A) one jacket
B) one sweater
C) one skirt and one pair of tights
D) three pairs of tights
E) one bag
F) one not-so-killer pair of heels (killer ones being fr aldo and 3x the amt i hv)
G) one tote bag, one album and one pair of tights

i must say, it's boring to have like one of everything. i get bored and disatisfied real quick. i do like quality over quantity, but quality is outta the question when i cant afford it. so the last option is like really appealing to me. but i ALREADY got a tote bag, and a pair of tights on tuesday. and i would really like smth to WEAR. so that's option A, B or C. oh gosh i cant decide, jeez.

ah sad, even the maid next door is going out. i have no life :(

i made a list of all the essential things a girl needs in her closet, and like wow, i know all these things, but like i have less than half of them.

let's see, i hv 12 items on the list. i own....5. wow. that's harsh.

i wish i was more like meifeng because she seems so easily happy-ed by small things. like painting her nails. i alr painted mine and feel nothing, except wow they chip easily.

and she likes cooking for herself. well i hv nothing to cook, and i feel guilty eating when im not hungry.

and she loves making things. i cant sew, and i hv no sewing machine. and i dont know what to makes anyways. okay i lie, i do actually, but im so not motivated and inspired to start. lazy pig.

yeah, maybe i shd just save up this amt of money until next wk so it suddenly seems like i hv a lot more to spend. which is, you know, true to a certain extent.

okay, incredibly bored now, i dont even hv chores to do, which is a first. think i'll go wash my handwash-only clothes. and like go find goldbelle or smth. maybe do some situps. lol. yes, it's pretty laughable.

*put font size as large cos the font size on the blog is so tiny.

THOSE WERE THE DAYS

Y'ALL NEED TO SEE THIS.

"ahh, the skinny days of basketball,"

what a difference two years (okay, three.) make.

BUT THIS PICTURE HAS GIVEN ME HOPE THAT IT IS POSSIBLE FOR ME TO BE SKINNY, because well, i once was :(

what the hell was i doing complaining that i was fat back then?

btw, can you tell which is me?

will you encourage me????????? will you motivate me??? will you go through it with me?????

basketball was hell in the beginning, i died after every training, the pain.........you cannot imagine. but dude, the pain felt soooooooooo goood. i sound sadistic. no, the pain just made me feel like i'd done smth good for my body. no matter that i couldn't sit/stand up/go down stairs without being in pain. my limbs were like, TONED. no jiggle-de-doo. I MISS THAT. IM LIKE SO DISGUSTING NOW, EWWWWWWWWW.

EW GRACE, EW.

:(

i must go back in timeeeeeeeee.

YOUCAM, I CAM

last friday after sch i carry big packet small packet go j8 meet meifeng, sudden decision. and i arrive before her hahahah AGAIN.

then we went to the library where mf attempted once again to STUDY when i am there. needless to say, she failed. because this time, i didnt even try hahaha.
　
she did only like 5 math qns. multi part though, so gd for her.
　
i was like so bored at the library and this kid was screaming (not kidding) beside us and the mother was smiling indulgently at the screaming ball of ew.

lol, the kid was spitting on the glass. ew, right? and it was right next to us. trauma.

it was sooooooo noisy that the librarian came and scolded them both, the kid and the mum. and the mum still smiled happily, like omg my kid is screaming in a library, awwww so cute.

like, wtf.
im nvr bringing my kids to a library unless i've taught them proper etiquette.
　
they left before they got kicked out thou so it was ok.

then i got so bored tht i took out my laptop and started playing with my lousy VGA Youcam. yeah i know, even though i've had the laptop a year, i can count the number of times i've used the youcam on one hand, unbelievable i know.
wait til i get a macbook, then i'll photobooth hahahah.

took many crazy shots! surprised at our ability to laugh silently hahaahha.

youcam is damn lag, i click the button, it takes the pic five secs later. tht's why we look effing retarded in them lol.

see, no one ask mf to take, she ownself (waa damn singlish lol) wanna take one. cannot blame me for distracting her
　
BLOGGER IS EFFING SLOW why take so long to upload bga pics!!! irritating.

meifeng wants to check our her eyelashes. sparse, she says. actually they're just not dark enough to be captured lah.

Givenchy Nightingale

Everyone's in love with the Givenchy Nightingale. Ashley Olsen and Reese Witherspoon both have them, and i love them both! like two of my fave celebs, i swear. sighhhh.

i think Ashley looks much better than MK these days. i dunno, just my personal opinion. i think it's got smth to do with MK's hair. like, it's all crimped and flyaway-looking. i realise the unkempt grunge style is her look, but like, it's just realllllly crimped. ashley's hair is smoother and nicer.

new colours out for AWo9 for the Givenchy Nightingale bag i think. not that it concerns me, i cant even afford the strap off the bag.
ah, the tragedy.

I SHD NOT BE ONLINE SHOPPING OMFG.

TAGLINES

countdown to hols!

5 MORE DAYS

woot ttm!!!!!!!

okay too early to feel happy, still got THE MOST IMPT ASSIGNMENT to hand in

fabric book. 60% of grade!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

like omg.

and quiz tmr.

and like, im ALMOST broke. so that's not good, since hols require spending $$$. let's see if anyone has job for me.

dinnertime :)

outta nothing at all

hello i think i've just fallen in love! hahhahhaha
yes i know, making love out of nothing of all. thus the title, see see SEE.

(:



im sitting beside sheryl in the sch library now working on our written report and like im feeling majorly guilty abt blogging because i shd be well, NOT blogging.

and not reading david cook's tweets.
or laughing abt it and then tweeting abt it.
i shd not be tweeting too.
and neither shd i be reading the questions which he answered ytd!
(but damn, he's entertaininggggggg.)

ok i just made him sound like a dancing bear. which is evil. the dancing bear part i mean. bears shdnt be forced to dance, it's not right.

but but, he's like a cotton candy tree growing in the middle of a desert.

:(





back to work.

090909

it's the last few minutes of 090909 and im hiding in my room too scared to even go wash my contacts cos of a crazy cockroach tht's flying around outside in my living room. it's huge!!!! and it's damn scary.



i think it's about to die.



there was the mass insecticide spraying thing today and there are lotsa dead roaches downstairs, and i think this one got hit. you know how when they get hit they get like totally crazy cos they're in pain and abt to die? i think thts what happened to this one. it hasnt stopped flying around since i saw it an hour ago.



i wanna wash my contacts :(



im stressed
there's submission for written report on friday, as well as quiz! and the quiz is not as easy as last week, this time, there's knitting weaving dyeing printing and finishing. stress ttm.

and im like maybe half done with thereport :(((( i wish there was like no class tmr or smth sigh but there's class.

oh well at least the evaluation report is done.

i cant get up the motivation to do work, and i keep thinking that it's tuesday but it's actually wednesday which means i only have tonight and tmr left to complete the written report!!!!!

OMGGGGGGGG STRESSSSSSSSSS.

SSSSSSSSSSSS.
me is snake.

me is hungry and cannot go out and get food because of crazy roach.
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sorry i got forced to go outta my room by my mum. she insisted there was no roach (=.= yeah right, i bet it was like behind her or smth. you know how in the movies ppl are like, blahblahblah he/she so stupid, and then the he/she is actually behind them? yup bet the roach was behind her and she just didnt see) and then forced me to go wash my contacts and bathe. argh like i wont go make up a story abt a roach flying around and then lock myself in the room when the tv is outside right! jbcksjdhgkjnb vkvh.
argh.

NO MOTIVATION TO DO WORK HOWWWWWWWWW

and right, i watched singapore idol just now and was actually kinda rooting for jon cheok, but he went and did 'come together', which is like a biiiiiiig song. i rmb when the contestant on american idol season 7 (david cook's season! :DDD) did it and she has a really big voice but she also didnt do it v well and the judges were quite hard on her, but she made it cos those were the themed shows and she wasnt the weakest. so like, she couldnt do it, and like, jon couldnt do it either. im just saying, it's a big song.

however i do think he was kinda out of it cos well, i dont think he'd bo so dumb as to choose a song he cant do yeah. but this is just sad cos he didnt get in cause of the song. i dont understand why duane ho is in. like, doesnt he have to take Os?????? maybe he's NA. but still, arent there exams coming up???????? i dunno, studies shd be No.1. omg, this coming from moi. hhahahaha.

i was like instantly reminded of dc when jon did the song. sigh daviddddddddd. oh wait, im currently pissed at smth he tweeted so shall not swoon over him. jeez.

soooooooooo, am supposed to being a printed garment to sch tmr for class. but i dont hv many prints in my closet. me likes basics. lemme see. ooh got a printed skirt. hmm, nah. ermzzzz, oh cool i know i'll just bring like a tee.

huiting and i were discussing how emma watson has basically like, everything a girl could ever want. unfairness. hahahah. ivy league school. hah.

I LURRBBES MY NAILS SO XING GAN I SWEAR.
i would take a picture of it but like it looks terrible in photos so forget it.

while stuck in my room just now i started playing with my Youcam. yes, it's VGA and sucks, but it helped me pass the time. and like wow my nose is giganormous. lol i tried to combine gigantic and enormous hahahhah. NOSEEEEEEEEE EWWWW. and today i was telling huiting abt how ashlee simpson-wentz looks soooooo effing different now as compared to her first and second albums and i was like, omg i dont believe she nvr do plastic surgery lah. then the talk turned to that, and ht asked me if i wld ever do. IS THAT A SIGN? WAS SHE IMPLYING THAT I SHD? hhahahahhah.
not funny.

so sick of my hair it's like so sucky now. cant wait to do it next wk. still thinking abt what to do......

ugh just googled ppl again. you know googling ppl nvr works. well not for me at least. no, i didnt go and google dc, i aint that dumb. anw i shd really be doing my work. wow major guilt trip.

okay im gg to sleep now bye folks!

black and gold

hi facebook wont let me go in.oh well.

working on written report and listening to my old cds. atomic kitten!

i cant believe im still in love with the last goodbye. ahhh childhood memories. i bought this cd when i was pri4 you know. that's 7yrs ago! wow feel old.

i didnt realise that so many ppl have songs titled the last goodbye. interesting. james morrison has one too. will go listen to that later.

you know that your ability to work is directly infuenced by your environment? i really need to declutter my room and work space. seriously.

The Last Goodbye
Ain't no headlights on the road tonight
Everybody here is sleeping tight
Ain't nobody gonna find us here, we'll disappear.
There's a dancer in the arms of love
And he's dancing on the sky above
And the truth is that we'll never know where love will flow
Aim high, shoot low

Ain't no headlights on the road tonight
Ain't nobody here to make it right
Cos we couldn't seem to find a way, for love to stayI
f you had another night to give
I would have another night to live
But you're never gonna see me cry the last goodbye

Is it cloudy where you are tonight?
Are the neon lights shining bright?
Are you looking for a place to stay to get away?
And the days are horses down the hill,
Running fast with no time to kill
And the truth is that we'll never know where love will flow
Aim high Shoot low(Gotta aim high, shoot low baby)

Ain't no headlights on the road tonight
Ain't nobody here to make it right
Cos we couldn't seem to find a way, for love to stay
If you had another night to give
I would have another night to live
But you're never gonna see me cry the last goodbye

If I could do it over, I'd do it all again
And if I got one more chance I wouldn't change a thing
Aim high Shoot low

Ain't no headlights on the road tonight
Ain't nobody here to make it right
Cos we couldn't seem to find a way, for love to stay
If you had another night to give I would have another night to live
But you're never gonna see me cry the last goodbye.
.
.
.

my friends make me smile, if only for awhile
But you can make me whole again.
- Whole again, Atomic Kitten

didnt get to watch movie today cos minshan changed date to next friday. like omg it's third week of sch alr and next wk is final submission wk! omg. there's gonna be portfolio review. im shit scared for that. like what if they put me in what i dont want? will they do that? and if they do that is it too late for me to like, drop out? hah. that's drastic.

argh im like upset and i dont know why. i cant get no satisfaction, no no no! ahahaa that's a song. yep definitely been listening to too many old cds.

WHEN IN ROME

"Between the far away past history of the world, and that which lies near to us; in the time when the wisdom of the ancient times was dead and had passed away, and our own days of light had not yet come, there lay a great black gulf in human history, a gulf of ignorance, of superstition, of cruelty, and of wickedness. That time we call the dark or Middle Ages. Few records remain to us of that dreadful period in our world's history, and we only know of it through broken and disjointed fragments that have been handed down to us through the generations."— Howard Pyle, Otto of the Silver Hand (1888)


in starbucks again, another coffee, another ten bucks gone. life is harsh.

more than words could say, you're my melody

the treat as promised!

Fall Back Into Me, David Cook
We've been here before
We'll be here again
so go on and rest your head
Before you lose it again

We're leaning on each other
Or at least I can pretend
That we didn't lose it all again
It could have been different
It could have all been the same
But now I'm standing at your front door, singing,

When everything's the same
And nothing ever changes
Will you fall back into me?
You see, everything's estranged
A million empty faces
So will you fall back into me?

Congratulations
You left me a little jaded and rejected
And so I lost it again

You chew me up, you throw away
As I continue to pretend
That we didn't lose it all again
I guess it's never different
I guess it's all the same
So now I'm bloodied by my fist, clenched, swinging

When everything's the same
And nothing ever changes
Will you fall back into me?
You see, everything's estranged
A million empty faces
So will you fall back into me?

I was a name across your lips
It's time to spin me out
I play the game when my heart rips
It's time to hear me out
(Never do without)
When everything's the same
And nothing ever changes
Will you fall back into me
See, everything's estranged
A million empty faces
So will you fall back into me?

(Will you fall
We'll be here again
So go on and rest your head
Before you lose it again)

We're leaning on each other
Or at least I can pretend
That we didn't lose it all again, all again
Lose it all again.

Grace the gadabout

hello! class was cancelled for today and there's no class on monday, so i hv a 4 day wkend!

but it's not all fun and games, i went to meet sheryl to do our written report today. it's soooo detailed! but im like actually quite enjoying it cos well, i much prefer it to drawing and such.

we camped at starbucks for nearly 4hrs, where i had a dark mocha. it was gooooooood! :DDDD
seriously, go drink it.

ugh nth to blog bout alr leh, i had poor tasting sushi for dinner. classy and i went home tgt. it was like not planned. haha.

now, a series of meaningless crap! (im trying to be taylor swift) hahah let's see if you believe that.

you're so near i can feel your heat
can you hear my heart beat?
the look in your eyes, so soft and real
do you realise your appeal?
im talking rubbish, of course you do
why else did you play the fool?

i'm not a poet, i'm just a girl who was once in love with you.

you and her, it's true love
who am i to stop the above?
so go to her
i don't want you here
it's me you say you want
but hey, i know i'm adjunct.
so go, don't feel sorry
cause i have a secret
this is nice, it isn't more
see, the thing is, you're not my all
cause i gave my heart to another
if you stay i'll only make you unhappier
now don't freak
i didn't cheat
okay, maybe in a way, i did.
but this happened before you
he just never gave my heart back
i care for you, i really do
but i don't think i deserve you.
so please, just leave
before i get greedy and change my mind.

once when i was supposed to be doing math
i wrote a letter to you instead
but the contents you'll never see
cause i never finished it.
still, it's meant for my eyes only
just like she was your only
i say was, cause she's the past
and you know what?
you were a dream i made up
it just felt so real that i didnt want to give it up
i guess i'm just too scared
to admit to myself that i am lost
so lost,
so lost.

HHAHHAHAAHHA OKAY THIS IS FUNNY. it doesnt even make sense! ok sorry if you read it, i kinda just wasted your time. will post a treat nxt time.

TELL ME WHY

hey guys, just wasted two hours of my life doing things too embarrasing for me to even say,and it was completely fruitless, so forget it.

i still cant believe i did it. ew.

okay, moving on.

Carol'd said that today wld be heavy lesson but it was alright, quite interesting except the videos part, waaaa so wordy, cannot understand half the terms used.

still in love with 2x2 rib knits and above.went to my kitchen this morning and checked out my laundry. in my laundry alone i hv FOUR 2x2 rib knit tanks! wow, i nvr knew! wonder how many others i hv in my closet.

OMG I WAS EFFING PISSED OFF TODAY.

i had like a nice day so far, and then right, this server at Subway like, cannot understand english. i told her the veggies i wanted right, and she didnt put half of them on, then when i said i wanted pepper, like BLACK PEPPER, she gave me green pepper, the vegetable. wtf?!but i was like, ARGH nvm i can take it off myself later right, so i calmed down, got my stuff and left.

i didnt get a carrier for my drink cos i wanted to save the earth by using less plastic bags, so i held my drink in my hand.

walking to the interchange, this old guy (looked like 40s and above) BARRELLED INTO ME ON PURPOSE AND KNOCKED THE DRINK OUT OF MY HAND AND IT CRASHED TO THE FLOOR AND THE COVER BROKE UPON IMPACT, SPILLING BARLEY EVERYWHERE.and he carried right on walking w/o an apology or look back.

i picked up the remnants of my drink and turned around and stalked after him, i was so pissed off.when i caught up to him, i tapped him on his shoulder and when he spun round, i tossed the rest of the barley into his ugly face, and promptly went back to Subway and got myself another drink.

not.i was effing pissed off, it's true, but i didnt do that, im not so extreme. okay, i was THIS close to doing it. i really picked up the drink (there was still like a quarter cup) and stalked after him, and when i saw his retreating back i REALLY considered throwing the drink into his disgustingly rude face but then i decided not to sink to his level and do smth so rude and incredibly dramatic.

how did i know he did it on purpose?

he passed by me on my right, where there was ABSOLUTELY NO-FUCKING-BODY, and it wasnt like he didnt see me coming, there was nobody between us and he saw me at least three metres before he passed me, and when he was gonna pass me i was like, hmm the dude's kinda near me, shd i move?
then i realised i was blocked on the left by other ppl and anyways there was nobody beside old guy so he could and would (OR SO I THOUGHT, MISTAKENLY) move.but he didnt.and he just SPED HEAD ON INTO ME AND SHOVED MY ENTIRE RIGHT ARM SO THAT I DROPPED MY DRINK.
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE SINGAPOREANS THEY ARE SO FUCKING RUDE AND INCONSIDERATE AND OMGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I honestly hope to God that HE, THE UGLY DISGUSTING RUDE OLD GUY, is the very minor minority in s'pore.

when i turned round after picking up my drink, a guy in a suit was behind me and he was like, whoa. he'd seen the old guy barrel into me and my drink drop and everything. he was like in shock, cos he'd stopped behind me.
i was so pissed off that i didnt even glance at him, i was in a trance brought on by fury. there was one thought in my mind:get back to subway and refill your cup.

it's so crazy. like after this disgusting show of behaviour by the old guy all i could think abt was how i cant stand the thought of me just paying $7.50 for my meal and looking forward to enjoying it at home but having a stranger spoil that all for me by robbing me of my drink which wld complete my meal, and thus i did the only thing my mind could think of, the refill.
which is btw, not free. but i was so angry, i was willing to pay. but i didnt hv to pay because erm, no one stopped me. cause i'd only just walked out less than 5min when i lost my drink so when i went back everyone didnt like, stare or anth.
i refilled (illegally) and went home. sorry subway dudes, if you see this.

i had to call kanika to rant bout it first, i was so indignant that some guy could just do smth so utterly REVOLTING and not feel any remorse!!!

UGH. ugh ugh! gross.

speaking of gross, on 55 some guy with heavily gelled and dandruff-filled hair stood right in front of me AND KEPT LEANING BACK SO THAT I HAD TO HOLD MY PHONE IN FRONT OF MY BODY SO IT WOULD POKE HIS BACK JUST TO AVOID SEXUAL HARRASSMENT.
I SWEAR HE WAS SO NEAR HIS HEAD WAS LESS THAN 10CM AWAY.
cos he's not v tall, so his head is effing near my face! all all dandruff, DISGUSTING!!!!
and you know what, he was leaning so far back that he was pressing right into the ring on my index finger on the hand i was using to hold my phone. i saw and felt the entire ring press into his back, THREE TIMES, and STILL he didnt move away.effing disgusting right.

so traumatised.

thankfully he got off soon after, otherwise i swear i would have like poked smth sharper into his back. i hv scissors in my pencil case.

KAY ENOUGH BOUT AWFUL PPL.

i cant believe 2009 is speeding by. i've lost track of time. it's alr september. soon it'll be 2010.time. an illusion of life gone by. i feel like i havent done much in the months i've been in school. i kinda feel...like smth is seriously missing, and sweet jellybeans, i dont know what the hell it is. and it drives me crazy.

i kinda feel like im waiting for smth? to happen. and i dont know WHAT! it's INFURIATING. it's worse than waiting for my period to come or be over. at least for sure that's smth tht's gonna happen, this is like, entirely based on a big fat nothing.

wanna hide away from the world and crawl into my comfort zone, like the period between feb and april 09.
but why! nothing's wrong! so why do i feel like nothing's right???


WHAT'S THE THING THAT'S MISSING????????????

& when it rains, it really pours down like ttm

it's like i never fucking existed. just that one thing and yeah, im gone. bamf.
hell.
hell.
hell.
hell.

you laugh. okay well, i didnt think i'd still care. i dont really, but i do, and it's not bout that, it's abt THIS. this WHOLE thing, the everybody thing. and im nobody. im worse than nobody, im not even there.

at this stupid point, i still hv time to wonder if you noticed. thanks a lot, it's all my fault.

arent we all the happy kids. like the brady bunch. but not as blonde. do i still count if no one saw me? i didnt think so.

congrats, you've erased your ugly past. i've erased my ugly past. now if i would do the same for my present and future. soon, i think. it wouldnt take long for me to screw this up too, i happen to be quite good at it.

go ahead, laugh your ass off. i would. and i will once i sneeze my nose off, the weather will take care of that.

this is there, do you see it, do you see this? do you do you do you? i've wondered.

i took a cab to school today, quite cheap in comparision to all the times before. and the quiz seemed...alright. i could answer most of it w confidence. know i've got one confirmed wrong though, and more i cant be sure abt.

studying for it was rather....nostalgic. well, not that i ever studied much as we all know my grades, but you know, i had my moments.

real short class today, ended at like 4.30, went to find huiting and stacey. tmr i'll hv heavy class, all the theory will come out. but i actually find the knit and weave part quite fun.

stacey lives like, across the road from ht and i! like seriously. cool right, i drew a rough map to show you like how near we are frome each other. damn cool. keep in mind i said ROUGH map.


sorry i cant control the pencil tool v well but, see! bishan and tpy separated by one road!!! so cool.

okay. so then when i got home okto was showing monster house cos its a teachers' day special. so i watched it since it was effing early and i had no idea what to do w myself (i didnt feel like gg out, the weather felt like a lounge day) and like, it was quite good. but they keep repeating it. wish they'd show new movies, maybe then i'd watch more tv.

went to try on the two outfits i bought ytd. dont they always look better in the fitting room? hah okay just me i guess. gosh im hungry, guess one meal really isnt enough for one day. damn.

then i watched ming zhong zu ding wo ai ni as usual, since i started it, i hv to finish it. and like, ji cunxi is so not cute and like, the dylan guy is kiiiiiiinda cute. like, kinda.

oh, today's lesson was so fun, i loved all the little swatches of fabrics! and i loved my tank top since forever, today i learned it was a 2 x 2 rib knit. cool huh. shall buy more 2x2 rib knit shirts. no wonder previously whenever i went shopping and found labels tht said ribknit i thought they were bluffing, in actual fact those were the 1x1 rib knits nor other rib knits.

kay i shall shut up bout it now, im sure you guys dont find it as interesting as i do lol.

cant wait for holidays to come, i really miss having days to myself where i can do whatever i want whenever i feel like it and not feel guilty bout it.

YOU CANT STOP THE RAIN

everyone's enjoying a day off or in minshan's case, the start of her 6 week holidays while im at home hoping for the rain, rain to go away and come back another day so that i can go to school.

yes, i hv school. no public holiday for us.

and i hv a quiz. 10% of our grade. i've studied but dunno if it's enough, feel like i didnt memorise everything.

lalala. meifeng and danny they all playing badminton now. and i hv class frm 3 to 6. ohwell at least i aint got promos to study for.

cold. damn, wearing shorts today. ytd was fun. wish i gt to sch earlier though. and i wish we had more time. and also up was like, so nice :)

understatement, man. just like, watch it if you havent.

i tweet now. i always knew i could make animal sounds.

yawnn

hi, sleepy. got a ton of things to do.
shd be sleeping/studying/writing smth but am changing blogskin instead after like two years.

okay will blog properly tmr bye.

THIS IS OUR SONG THEY'RE PLAYING

am in class listening to anzoe's grp presentation, my grp is up next and i am scaredddd. feel like we miss out some stuff but i think its just paranoia. i hope.

was trying to do work ytd before gg to meet sheryl and jolene at starbucks, but chn5 had to screen new york minute, and obviously i had to watch cos ashley olsen's sooo pretty.

spent $7 on a mocha venti, was so gd, but dont like their whipped cream.

couldnt slp last night so i posted four photo albums on fb. and i nvr had any before. cool. addictive. v satisfying.

gtg, too nervous to type.

just beyond my reach; the weekend, the chips on the highest shelf and YOU

hahahha i just came up w the title. the chips part isnt true, cos i dont hv any, but i really cant reachthe highest shelf. sadness. and the YOU part is kiiiiinda true, because i want a lot of ppl, but all of them are like, not real actual ppl within my reach. for eg, i want marc blucas! i hv no idea where he is, but he is hawt. me like. haha.

i also want Leehom, D.Cook, A XuShaoYang (AXSY), vin diesel, no work, and the toilet. cannot hold pee. lol damn, why do i talk abt these things. damn damn damn.

i shd be doing work. damn.

was on msn for the longest time just now (2hrs, but its real long since i nvr use it) and was talking to kanika bout random stuff when i suddenly said, for no reason at all except maybe guilt, "i shd be doing work, but im msn-ing and wishing i were doing a hot guy instead" SKANKSKANKSKANK. where do i get these things from. lucky i nvr save my convos. hhahahha.

so tmr's class got pushed up to nine, woohoo! get to leave early, and then can go back to anderson first before meeting colin sinying and linhao to get bbq food. gyps outing! 6A and B outing. awesome-ness. though not as awesome as a movie might be. omg, we shd totally do a movie after supper!!!! awesomenessssssssss.

so tmr looks like a blast from the past, with sec sch frens, then pri sch dudes. promising. me likes.

then saturday...i hv no idea what im doing, but i gotta wake early. damn it. i think by tmr night i will crash and sleep as long as Rip van winkle. is that his name? or is it winkle van rip or van rip winkle or smth like that. gawd, this is dumb, i cant even rmb the coordination of the name.

gonna meet meifeng minshan yy the gang on sat, yay. wait, no yay, im broke as....my heart. sob. ok, incorrect grammar. whatever. lol, im plain broke.
then sunday, meeting kanika pris and misato. and khairi! to get my cds. yay!!!! i miss my cds. i hope we dont spend money. munny. bunny. irrelevant. food. hahhaha!

monday....relatives coming over. damnnnnn. i dont wanna pack my room, it'll take aeons.

i wanna sleep. yawnnnnn. i want to be seduced by the likes of erm, dwayne johnson! yum. ew, im effing skanky. ugh, grace! fuck, im damn disgusting. and hungry, me is hungry. me is also fat. and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy. think im falling sick, keep having to blow my nose. not good, not good. bring on the Vitamin C! Vit.C. VC. reminds me of VJ, which reminds me of the convo i had w xinping just now. and colin, which leads me to tmr's activities. and the weekend. which brings me to this again. wow, cyclical. like fashion. damn, just reminded myslf of work. argh, how aggravating. i dont like to draw :(

i want a tiger. why am i so obsessed w tigers and cats? it's like jude devaraux's character in...remembrance, w the monkey or smth. lol no, i thik im just nuts. the monkey thing was so romantic. and tragic. and erm, not real. im lke earth element, so i gotta be grounded. real. not grounded like i cant go out, cos that wld be sad. big time.

maybe if i just close my eyes for a leeeeeetle while...five min, one hr...the whole night...NO I MUST STAY OFF THE BED.

damn, i suck.

the sunday that wasnt to be

im at bishan mac now sandwiched between two tables of families w children. fuck children. must they scream their lungs out every fucking minute of their fucking lives?

i cant believe i hv to be here. and the stupid person we're waiting for is effing late. and this is her JOB. fuck.

and i only hv one hr left on this laptop. fuck, again.

and marc bulcas is hot. okay, i shd hv been doing my work instead of watching tv. but damn, he is hot. and soooo sexy. so wrong to be talking abt this in public.

what it looks like and what it actually is

dont say i am emo. dont say i am trying to AA. dont say i am this-and-that when you dont know me. dont say leehom loves you when he doesnt because actually he loves ME. lol. dont say this is so typical of me, because how can you know that when even i dont. dont say anything you made up, Mum, because i dont know how you came up with it when it has never happened before and isnt true. (you dont hv the faintest inkling of who i am, do you?) dont say i am conceited, because well, it may just be true and i may be so pissed i'll kill you from a million miles away with my magic powers. dont say, "what happened? you know im always here for you!" no, i dont think i know. and i dont particularly care right now, but thats beside the point.

the point.

im not emo! im not trying to get attention! im trying to express myself. because thus far i suck really badly at it. really really badly. what i cannot say, i write/type. and there's a lot i cannot say. so yeah, expression.

yeah i hv a sense of humour, and yeah im funny when im anything other than content.

i think i need to sleep now. i think...i think...

what i could do and what i actually do

i swear im so close to giving up. and i think nobody knows but not so secretly nobody actually cares. we're all too absorbed in ourselves in these superficial days.

im pathetic, i just refuse to conform. fuck ordinary, i might as well not exist. my current so called existence is but an feeble, paltry imitation of life. and all you ppl who pretend to care are really bad at pretending. you suck, and so do you. leave me alone, im so tired of doing good by my conscience. why do i hv to be the only one with one? i hate me. do i ask for too much? am i supposed to be happy w my lot in life? how is that possible? family? laughable. friends? i am at the point where im not sure abt anth at all. i want answers. i want the moon and the stars. i want so much, i want so little. so many things, just that one thing. does it exist? do i exist? is all that we see and feel real? or but an illusion, an idea fed to us by some greater being? terrifying, how we may all be puppets in this long, arduous journey we call 'life'. (an interesting choice of word, when most of the time i feel dead.) imagine how every thought and decision is actually being engineered and controlled by some unseen being, and we are simply amusing pasttimes. like pets, but with less free will. and zero knowledge of what is being done. seriously though, what is the point of existence? why do we hv to live? why are we put on this earth? to suffer? to understand pain and tragedy? isnt there some enrichment class we can just take instead of actually living it? did i choose to be born? did i hv a choice? so many questions. do we get answers? i just want to run away like i always do. but maybe this time there is nowhere to run to. no more. i just want to get what i want. like all the world. it seems i was put on this earth to take. to take all that is hurled at me. you KNOW i cant stand up for myself, why do you still do these things to me? but that is only one of the many. im just so tired. so very tired. i should like to go to sleep and perhaps wake up in a different place. does that mean i still harbour hope? im only seventeen, i shd still have hope. to be without is deplorable indeed.












i could tell you all abt my days, and i kinda wanna, but im so tired. i'm just so tired. and i still have some fifty odd years to go.

Being British, Burberry, bad luck and best of fun!

YAY BEST WEEKEND EVER! okay lah maybe cause too long nvr go out.

FRIDAY
after presentation, Harvey dismissed us early, round 2. i was supposed to meet meifeng minshan at 4, so i was earlyyyy. boohoo 2modules nxt block,yucksadoodle boo. left for dover, met stacey & sabrina on bridge. how cool, sabrina was gg to dover too,hahhaha concidence is sooo...cool. and stacey lives at jurong, so we bus-ed to bedok tgt then train-ed tgt as well. hhhaha omg sabrina was in bball too, and captain on top of that, how awesomely cool is that!

Shoot I think im coming down with flu or smth damn damn damn swine flu. Must be the air con last night.

ANW, I reached dover at three thirty, so I was super early. Minshan took forever to pick me up, and she informed me that Nicholas and danny wld come at 4, so we headed into SP first. I got food, and met minshan’s classmates. Hmm, regrettably, hv forgotten their names, but ohwell. Nic and danny both late, but nvm lah since we kept nic waiting for a while while I chiong finish my food hahahha. Then went to meet the guys at dover mrt, and took 74 to island creamery which turned out to be on the bus route of 93!!!! My wasted $2.80 for standard ticket… :(

We proceeded happily into island creamery….and the first thing I saw inside was a glimpse of my ugly UGLY past. HAHAHAHAHA. Make that FUGLY. Yup okay. And I was so shocked, I turned around and walked back out. Uh huh, I was that shocked. I stood there for like a second, then pulled out my phone to call Kanika then discovered I had two missed calls from Cherie and Royston. Lol anti climax. I called Kanika after telling Royston I’d left sch alr, and Kanika laughed evilly in my ear when I told her Boobsy Bear was sitting inside IC, AT THE TABLE RIGHT EFFING NEXT TO US! Ughhhhh! He has so tainted that place for me, I swear.

I dragged meifeng over from macs nxt door and made her and minshan sit between me and him. He didn’t see me, thank god. God I hate him so effing much. Okay. Then, I realized his gf was our server. Hahahaha. I ended up eating my tang yuan instead of ice cream. Yummmm. I mooched around for a while, but…..he left soon after! Yayness. Sill had to endure like thirty minutes of his presence though. shudder it was not nice.

Then Fiona lee came and we went next door to macs where we all spent a happy three hours…or so :) soooo fun. It just furthur highlights my point of how in 4/3 you don’t hv to worry abt what you say or how you act cos no one will judge you. And we all get along so fine! We webcam-ed w yingyu for a while! Then we went home.

I was so effing tired that I missed a bit of zettai kareshi (ok still cant spell it!) how sad. Oh well.

SATURDAY
woke up effing late, had an awesome sleep! Got uber frustrated over unco-operating contacts and left house at three thirty, reaching yiyin’s at 4, and thus began our sleep over! We decided (after very long) to watch Harry Potter at yishun, and we walked the scenic route to the bus stop. Meifeng and I started to get into the mood by speaking in our fake and terribly bad british accent. Or what we thought it was. Hahahah. All the way to yishun. When I realized I’d left my phone back at yiyin’s. LOL. Oh well.

Got tickets, got food, got toilet break. Proceeded into theatre. I need to re watch the movie, contacts blur, cld only hear and see orbs. Lol ten dollars of orbs. When we came out, it was miraculously eight thirty. Three hrs in theatre! Coooool. We got long john’s and cabbed back to yiyin’s and then we crapped.

Yiyin and yingyu made their version of Cadbury ad! Damn lame, hahahah. Worst still, they made Harry Potter vids. one went, (pointing straw) “Lumos maxima!” and pointed, then the other switched on the light. LOL. We attempted Wingardium Leviosa, and sad to say I participated. However, it ended up on the cutting room floor. Hahahah.

NEED MORE FUN ACTIVITIES NEXT TIME! OKAY OKAY??? OKAY! Teeheehee.

Heavy dose of shoot/shag/marry. Then everyone fell asleep. I kept waking up, and I think I didn’t get much sleep, cause im effing tired now and all I wanna do is sleep, but I don’t wanna mess up my body clock, you know? Doubly important since tmr I start new block and it starts at nine effing am! I am so not wearing contacts if they’re blur. And omg I need to go take some flu meds now, just in case.

Kept waking up thru out night. And I didn’t really sleep. I rmb waking up every time yy or mf moved since I was sandwiched between them. No space! Couldn’t stand it anymore around 8am. Our alarm was set for ten, I was two hrs early lol. I think I woke yy, cos shortly after she woke up and sat on the floor. Haha.

We woke so early, but dunno why we still left at ten for breakfast. I ate two pratas! Hahhaha seven dollars on brekkie. Me broke-ey. L LOL. Yiyin left at 11 to meet her fren, yy and mf stayed to watch me eat. More shoot/shag/marry. They made me choose between cone, leehom and xu shao yang! Evil ppl. I chose to shoot cone though, KANIKA ARE YOU PROUD? :D

Then we paid and left, and I scared myslf by thinking I’ left my keys ay yiyin’s. thank god I was mistaken. Bus-ed home and watched a lame movie and then now it’s 5plus omg six soon! Where did the time go???? Shit.

PLEASE LET’S HV MORE FUN SOON! Next time we go…some café ah. If go IC again, sure end up eat macs again. We go some nice café to eat lah. Like maybe café cartel or smth. It’s a reasonable price. Or pastamania! We’ll get student price :D yeah yeah? I shall aim for this Friday. AHHAHAHA. I am like addicted to 4/3.

SHEETS OF RAIN, BED SHEETS AND RANDOM SHIT

HELLO HELLO IT'S LIKE SUNDAY NOW BUT IT'S STILL SATURDAY TO ME :D



woke up an hour later than my alarm, reached school at 9.45am instead of 9am, sorry kit and seph! then did work til almost 2, showcase almost done, i wish i'd more wow ideas, i feel sad tht ours looks plain :(



OHWELL I STILL LIKE IT.

and then i left for pang pang's house to meet meifeng and yiyin ((((:

damn screwed, i took 8, then 163 then 167. lol. took me a long time to get there, i arrived at like almost 4.

those two ppl are like awesome fun hahahha. they were sewing their stuff and i was jabbering on and on distracting them. meifeng was the only one replying, tht yiyin in incapable of multi-tasking lol.

we shared 2 big pkts of wanton mee round 7, one w chilli and one w/o, and then we got ready to leave but hahahha we got distracted and started talking bout random shit and then somehow we all ended up on yiyin's huge bed and lounged around and LOLLLLL friendster is so dead hahahahha.

yiyin kept telling me to stop fucking around lol i think im too used to saying the f word i keep saying it every few sentences! we talked about so much random stuff, i missed them soo effing much, i didnt hv to worry abt unintentionally causing offense cos they get me, and speaking of which, i so dont mean anth by my attitude, i just really cant understand you. the same way you were raised and cant understand why im being sucha bitch, i grew up w accuracy all my life and cant understand why someone would choose otherwise or even not try to improve. yes, i could try to ask again w/o being so pointed, but well hey too bad life sucks, you meet bitches, i've had my share of bitchcity and i've learnt from them so yeah learn from this, because that aint gonna cut it in the corporate world.

back to my awesome friends.

so we were having a great time on the sheets (LOL SOUNDS SOOOO WRONG) and although we'd been planning to leave by 7, at 8.30 we were still there, happy in each other's company.

as we were abt to finally leave at half past eight, meifeng looked out the window and realised it was raining, so i said, hey let's stay then! so we did, and that's how i got yelled at bout an hour later by the mother, screaming that i hadnt informed her where i was going and demanding to know what time i'd reach home. i said ten, but at ten fory five i was still there, yiyin refused to let us leave because her relatives were downstairs and she didnt want for any awkward situations to happens whereby the relatives are like, oh you were upstaris w ur frens instead of being w us, your relatives? lol so we kept having to check if they'd left alr i think we tried three times but they only left at 11.15pm, so yeah, meifeng and i ended up leaving then too. sooo late, seeing as we'd planned to leave since 8plus!

so what did we do in the meantime while waiting for the relatives to leave? some really, really dumb and spastic stuff. seriously. i dont know what possessed us. lol. yiyin also introduced to me the game of shoot/shag/marry. yeah,

and my favourite was when she said "YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED IN A COFFEE SHOP IS IT!!!!!!" HAHAHAHHAHA. i swear i laughed so much.

Okay great im meeting hem again next wk woohoo sleepover! :DDD

*NOTE: I am like posting this one wk after I typed it out lol lol lol so confusing hahhaha.

ALMOST THERE BABY, WAIT FOR ME

'sup.

you wanna know whats up? i'll tell ya what's up! i forgot to bring my internet connection thingie thingie to sch cause i was in this big rush,so now im like in sch w a handicapped laptop :(

so i wanna blog, but i cant, i wanna go on fb but i cant as well, so im like typing this out on wordpad and transfering it to blogger later when i get home, which will likely be well over 8pm. sigh. sah. lol.

yay there's zettai....okay, i do not know the original name for absolute boyfriend. but yeah, that's what imma be watching tonight, woohoo! i swear the song is freakin AWESOME. like immensely.

lalala........im supposed to be doing my reflective report now but the temptation to blog is too great, even if i do not hv internet connection. can..not....resist! hahahhaha.

royston was like "poet uh someone" last night on msn when he saw my pm, which was "i'll pass by but i'll go slow, i'll leave when the wind blows", and i was like, "dude it's a song lyric", hahahaha.
and it is! i heard it on the radio on the way home. some random song. i dont even know the title, lol. but whatever song it is, i think it reallly sums up my ohase right now. i hope the wind blows real, real, REAL soon, cause im getting real sick of going slow. fast fast fast! it's the age of instant gratification, after all.

can actually feel my brain wheels turning. the rusty wheels are like, so outta use. omg i am so weak, i so cannot stay up all night anymore. which is so not good for designers, because majority of our work is done through the night. i was sooooooo effing tired last ngiht, i took a bath and sat there in front of my laptop waiting for it to load and fell asleep. omg. woke up when my head fell off my arm and hit the table. hahhahah no actually i didnt kok the table, but yeah my head fell off my arm and i was like, "...wha?"

hmm okay irrelevant to the brain wheels stuff. it's just that i havent really done any real writing work for so long, i dont even know what's correct grammar anymore. i miss the essays and whatnot. okay i dont really miss the homework, but i do miss the ability to tell correct english from wrong. stupid A1 in english. stupid top of level in english award. i hv rep to keep up you know, i sound like an effing conceited bitch but this is all im good for alr, losing this would be like losing my identity. which, incidentally, i already happen to be losing. first the hair, then the eyes, followed by the arms, next the ahemhem, and now everything else! HAHHAHA i dont make sense right, but i swear im serious,

I WANNA WATCH HARRY POTTER, OH OOPS WHICH REMINDS ME I HAVENT REPLIED MEIFENG.
Okay replied. omg caps lock is really annoying. sigh i need to lose weight. lol irrelevant again. but highly relevant when you wake up every morning and put on smth, anth, and see all the unsightly bulges in all the wrong places. nasty, babeh

i want braces :( i wonder how much they cost. i heard like a thousand over, and i so cant afford it. im having trouble even scraping tgt the two hundred i need for contacts

ooh class's starting, Harvey's taking attendance, and omg Jane's reflective report is fourteen freaking pages!!!!! like omgggggg. ours is like 2pages each. omg. maybe we should go back --- HAHHAHA YEAH MAN Harvey just said our reports are due TUESDAY, HAHHAHHA. awesomeeeee. so we can take more pictures and write more woohooness. lol that doesnt even make sense.

OMG. christine foong is gonna be around on monday for the walk through and we gonna hv to explain to her our concept and everything. ohmyfreakinggoodness.

Righty-o, i have to go. time to work on assignment 2, ttyl :D

okay im home! hv collected my lenses yay :D and i dont think i'l be gg online later, im so effing tired and i gotta be at sch tmr by 9am :(

imma go now, bye!

LIES AND CONTEMPT, DRIPPING ON THE FLOOR, THE BLOOD OH SO RED, YOUR FACE A DISTANT IMAGE

OMG WHAT A COOL TITLE, I JUST CAME UP WITH IT ON THE SPOT HAHHAHA SHIT CAPS LOCK IS EFFING IRRITATING.

speaking of irritating, i dont know if i can stand it much longer! it's like, dont freaking TOUCH me, i dont know you tht well! and dont pretend otherwise! and for goodness sake get help.

argh its not like i wanna bitch or anth but it's like suffocating me. stop making that irritating sound, and stop touching me!!!!!!

okay sounds damn wrong. but yeah.

what effing lucky day, lucky day indeed, where got! stupid horoscope, make me talk like hawker ppl only. and and and omg i still havent got my mr bean dessert, but i had 2 soya bean drinks today, i swear it's not good for health to hv too much.

OH AND denise and reuben are both in melbourne! so exciting, 2 frens both in the same area. but reubs in ballarat, no idea where tht is, and no idea where denise is.

i miss the standard of english in anderson. not that i enjoyed it everyday, i did sit *there*. lol jeezballs i miss eating opp sch, and i miss being at the malls everyday, amk hub and j8. i swear you take those things for granted. nowadays im so sick of queueing for food at design canteen, and i nvr hv time to go to j8 or any malls to get stuff.

and omg, what, you annoying piece of gorgeousness, you think im stupid or smth?? huh huh huh! what! TP design sch not good enough for you? just because you go there now and hang w certified brainiacs means im no longer fit to hang around w you? well you're so wrong,its not funny. i could make your life so effing awesome, if you would just let me in. you nvr even bothered to find out exactly where i am, and now that you know you just dont care? you didnt even ask. eff eff eff eff.

LEEHOM, MONDAY, EIGHT O CLOCK :D yay awesomeness.

you know what, im sick of this this this, i think im passing by slow enough, maybe it's time the wind blows. yeah man woohoo empowerment.

JULY JULY HARRY POTTER MONTH :D

hello little people, i've missed you! hv been busy. and lazy. got a lot to say, but cant rmb anth!

need to slp alr, just wanted to say a few things.

BOO KEE HAH CREEPY SHITZZZ

okay done. hahahhaha! no just kidding.

am currently obsessed with:
1. mr bean tang yuan!!!!
2. SUNKIST ORANGE JUICE. it HAS to be sunkist.
3. TEH O PENG OMGG I LOVE!
4. stacie orrico's self titled album songs! (im stuck on you!)
5. her rapidly fading toenail colour!! gone is the pretty perfect pedicure ):
6. BURBERRY FALL WINTER AD CAMPAIGN OMG!!! YOU NEED TO SEE IT.
7. THAT HUGE BURBERRY BAG, THAT ONE THERE!
8. timingggg.

okay why is danny not replying. must be maple. ahhah i love my timing woohoo fate fate fate ok is born with it hahhahh shit i need to sleep. omg leehom's album got another version did you know did you know? i didnt know til recently!

and i havent eaten mac for like 3wks omgggggg! its good. harry potter, i want harry potter! rupert grint is like sucha awesome actor, i am like in awe. I AM ALSO IN BED. LOL OKAY IRRELEVANT. BUT KINDA KINKY :D

SHIT AM LIKE OBSESSED WITH CAPS LOCK KEY TOO. SLEEP TIME BEDTIME NO TIME!

The desire to stay out just a little later : A Tale Of Adventure

Our day started quite normally. but then again, dont they all?

So Huiting & i met up at 4.15pm at the bus stop and took 54 to Far east p, arriving ten to five and proceeded to the nearest toilet, where Huiting ... you know, used it. Hah. then we went to meet Royston & Cherie at Ngee Ann City.

y'know, everytime i see ngee ann, i read it like 'mary anne' in my head. like,"ngee anne". it's weird. let's just call it Taka. yep.

upon meeting roy and cherie we...oh yes, went to the toilet again. then we went to eat. yum. royston was wearing this cap that made him look so ROUND. like, mr round face. it was amusing. and cherie was wearing this nice top. skinny bitch :(

LOL. she's delusional, she wants to lose weight. someone pls get her a mirror.

back to the food.

i had sushi! and it was gooooooood. and so was the orange juice. i swear i hv this insane craving for OJ & green tea these days. and iced tea. i want some right now :(

after food, we went to find me some socks. how boring. lol. hold on, lemme turn on some music. ooooooh david cook. me likes.

(meeting kanika pris and misato tmr, woohoo! ok actually in bout 12hrs. yayness :D)

we strolled ard aimlessly in kinokuniya & i bought my fab mag (: then roy's sister came (i shall call her Char since i hv forgotten how to spell her name hahaha i hope she doesnt find this D:) & we went to eat mac/kfc yeah the food of the devil ahaaaha. resident calorie counter, cherie, had a hot milo. i however had an oreo mcflurry. ahhh the glorious evilness of it. wicked awesome.

am currently listening to BSB. LOLLLLL. backstreet boys. boyzone. boyz 2 men. so ... boyish. and their so old now haha. ok my personal fave was totally westlife. era of the boybands. so last generation. i feel so old D:

shit im digressing this was supposed to be abt Huiting & me & our adventure.

(oh now it's christina aguilera.ahh the pop princess period. britney xtina mandy etc.)

roy char and cherie left round 8-ish. i must say char looks more mature than roy. wow we ate lunch at like 5plus. how did tht morph into dinner at 7plus?? how did we spend the 2hr plus??? gawd time flies.
so after they left huiting and i headed to HMV. yay we love hmv. all those cds, all the possibilities...of course, we usu leave empty handed, unable to decide on a purchase or unwilling to part w the money. cds are so costly,but we love them. which sucks.

today however, ht actually bought smth.
behold!
Taylor Swift's album, singapore edition. haha $11.90, yes cheapo. haha no lyric book. not that it matters, since she can just borrow mine. i bought mine arnd CNY period. hv listened to it so many times, $17.95 is worth it.

me wants to buy cds. and shoes and bags and books. sigh. me wants to win lottery.

we spent a happy hour in hmv browsing all 3 levels. really wanted to hear claire guo jing's new album but inexplicably they didnt put it out for sampling :(
it's alright though, i made do w david cook (*runs to it screaming*) & kelly clarkson (*jumps up & down*). now i want both (*weeps for hole in pocket*).

by the time we left the shops were closing, bout a quarter to ten alr, but we werent abt to go home, the night was young and so were we, so we pointed our tail feathers in the direction of borders and got distracted by pushcart ice cream along the way. lol. ht got her ice cream and we went to the music section in borders. jeez we're such music nerds.

then we decided to watch a movie. hannah montana the movie, to be specific. so what do we do? attempt to locate the nearest AXS station! we hauled our butts from borders to shaw lido theatre, then the basement, then the underpass to the train station...no AXS station. called mong twice. no showtimes at gv or cathay or shaw. one last attempt to prove we can find an AXS machine : outside Marriot hotel. still no AXS! darn tht damned machine which is present EVERYWHERE but the places we went. ugh. we did manage to help out a woman in need of a cell phone though. our good deed of the day. er i meant week.

hahaha.

it was then ten thirty. sigh. we gave up the movie idea and toyed w the idea of the mac drive thru or perhaps the prata shop. but 54 presently came along so we hopped on. well at least huiting hopped, i hobbled. damn foam shoes, damn blisters.

i love bus rides. arriving in bishan we decided to go to the recently opened 24hr shop n save & buy random junk & slack somewhere. we didnt count on the other 7461 ppl w the same idea, much less the looooooooooong queue at the counter. yeah see how well that idea turned out, we were much better off at ksl, where ht got tempted by rojak & i happily got my teh o peng. mmm, it's so good.

late night supper is the way to go man. one big plate of rojak and one bowl of fishball soup shared, a lime juice for ht and my awesome teh o peng. yeah life's good. everybody seemed to be loving supper since ksl was quite packed. plenty of students frm the nearby rjc lodge and definitely all the bishan kids. damn, bishan kicks ass. saw edward again, he walked past and said hi while we were eating. second time in 5days.

i think ht and i were drunk on pineapples because afterward we stumbled back home walking weird and giggling way too much. okay fine im exaggerating, it was a sugar high, and i was walking weird cause of my blisters. teehee. we met cherie, the other one, the one frm anderson, on the way home and happily bitched bout kanika. hhaha just kidding babe, totally made that up. cherie had been studying at drive thru mac. sometimes design sch really rocksss :D
reached home at 12.30 and yay got the okay to go on thursday.

okay end of adventure. it was really a lot more fun than i made it sound, im just exhausted. need to crash badly. byebye now, more updates nxt time. til then, listen to david's sexy voice and try not to fall in love w him (i dare you!)
*collaspes on pillow* ah, bed.

AHHHHH!

am currently:

in mac lab above studio listening to Come back to me on 98.7FM and grinning idiotically at the com screen while doing H&C research. i love David Cook's superrr sexy voice!!

:D

something's cooking in here!

currently listening to: Innocent by David Cook

omg this song is so freaking addictive lurrrrve it lots lots omgggg. and and also love David Cook's cover of Hello, it's damnnnn niceee his voice is so sexyyyyyy

LOL

anw, 9 May to 10 June, is it considered 1mth or 1mth & 1day?
need someone to tell me!

Hello,
is it me you're looking for?

I LOVE HIS COVERRRR
heart heart heart.
lol so twit.