farewell oh nine

Hey you. Im on my way to chalet right now, and im effing late but im alone so i thought hey why not write my end of 2009 post now?
Yep so here we are, at 31 dec, the last day of the year. And we gotta bid goodbye to 2009, and feel sad for all the things that happened this year.

Are you sad this yr will soon be gone? I cant honestly say i am, because this year has been a total waste of makeup. Haha. I mean, yes, im happy i made good friends in poly, but i also made enemies. and most of the time im unhappy rather than not in school.

But im coping. What else this year? Im sorry, i cant think of anth. Because that's how pointless this year has been. Perhaps because i'd had so many great yrs before this? Idk.

Sure, i became a lot closer w existing friends, but i also drifted away from close ones. I love all my friends, and i truly am glad life brought us tgt. But then there are those you lose on the road of life. Which is sad. Really.

And so, new environment. New friends. Poly has been...a learning experience. I've never done so much work in my life. work is still a totally new thing for me to get used to, and i hope the ppl know im trying really hard. I really, really am. I just wish they knew me a little better, or at all.

Sometimes things get a little too much for you, and you lose sight of the things tht are impt to you, or even yourself. I think this year i definitely lost myself a bit. Maybe some of you close to me might have noticed, but maybe not.

Change.
It is ever present. And no one is an exception. I've definitely changed this year. Several before this have commented on how i speak only proper english and i know this has made at least one person uneasy. And this year many were surprised at the variety of vulgarities spewing forth from me.

Im not sure how i feel abt how vulgar i can be, but i hope you know tht if i am, it's because i choose to be. And there's certainly been a lot for me to curse of this year. I hope that changes. I've realised sometimes nothing is as eloquent as a curse word.

This year old friends reconnected, and other friends were lost to me. I still miss my tuition friends, and my coaches, and i wish i still had their numbers so i could text them, but one of the things i lost this year were all my contacts, and my old phone. So if any of you old peeps see this (unlikely but possible), hit me w a text. But in the meantime i will search for you on fb :)

ah, fb. sometimes i do love you.

This year, i had my first taste of sleepovers. My mum finally said yes to letting me stay over at a friend's house just last week on christmas at yiyin's. i also had more sleepovers at my hse this year, yay. And i finally got a bit more freedom this year, about time too. i have poly to thank for that.

Okay i think that abt sums up 2009. I told you there wasnt much to miss. Thanks, you friends, you've been the only thing for me to live for. I came so close a few times...so thank you. Even if you dont know what you did. Just stay by me.

Goodbye 2009! Hello 2010. I've just abt reached pasir ris too :)

BAH RAH BLAH

what are you doing what are you doing WHAT ARE YOU DOING?????

i dont know, but you know what you SHOULD be doing?

WORK, that's what.

jeez Grace, you suck. HoCos is calling! do your work and stop surfing the net!!!!

I HATE MYSELF FOR BORROWING SO MANY BOOKS JUST NOW, THEY ARE SO TOTALLY CALLING OUT FOR ME TO READ THEM ARGHHH

no mood to go out party tmr. oops i meant later today.

you see, im supposed to go out except i havent told anyone. including my mum and the ppl who invited me. awesome.

sigh

Greek empire. mythology. i love all that jazz.

WHEN LIFE DOES NOT GIVE YOU LEMONS BUT YOU MAKE YOURSELF SOME....you are stupid

:(((((((((


Thanks Leslie, you are nice.

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am probably gonna have bad hair tmr. woot. not. sigh.

read if you care, if you dont, well then, okay.

sup dudes. i just added my cousins on fb, yay. and i realised one of them is attached now. good for him! i know he's been single a long time, he was asking me if i'd friends to intro to him a while back. so anw, we had a short convo just now. makes me miss my childhood.

thank goodness i still hv childhood-ies close to me in my life :) holla Besties! :D

anw.

so i went to his blog and his gf's, even though i dont know her - yet. see, i have a plan. a plan to reconnect w all my cousins! we all used to be super close lah. so anw seeing as my cousins are brothers she alr knows Kelvin so yeah i suppose in time we'll be introduced. i hope we will. i like that idea. and she looks nice. went to her blog and saw that she likes alot of Taiwanese idols, plan to ask if she likes LeeHom too! :D yay leehom wait for me :D

so. it's dec 30, and the year's gonna be over shortly.

cant say im exactly sad to see it go though. it's been one of those years. sigh, i dont even have words to describe it.

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my cousins are like the only part of my family that i kinda like. and i wanna be closer to them again. i just realised all my cousins have really nice names. like me! hahahha.

at Kelv's blog now. god, he is so LI. i am actually jealous. when did he morph into this LI machine? i so missed out on our growing up years. i mean, i've always known he was super smart, top-his-every-class kind, but jeez. yeah i know, i was always worried abt being compared to him. (but hey, i dare say that in terms of intellect, i can hold my own against most.) im so over that now, i dont give a $#^& anymore abt what others think, i just wanna be happy again. yep.

god, i really miss them. they were the closest to siblings i'd ever and will every have. getting teary eyed now. god knows i want brothers more than anything. stupid family feud over dumb stuff. why did we let it affect us kids? if i could do it over.....

im really jealous of all the friends close to my cousins. if they only knew i'd die to be in their place. i dont ever tell anyone this, and i dont think anyone cares enough to pick up on this except maybe a choice few, but im a lonely kid. lonely as hell. i hv awesome friends, awesome beyond words, but beyond that i really dont have anyone else. and i cant tell you how much that sucked. how did it become this way? HOW??? sigh. yeah, lonely. let me try to put it across to you in a way you'd understand. i mean, friends have no obligation to be nice to you, to care about you. they could walk away and not have to explain themselves, ever. but family. family is different. you'll always be connected in some unbreakable way. you can never really cut your ties, even if you wanted it more than i want LeeHom. yeah family. it's a new idea to me, i never thought of myself as having............never mind. it's much too melodramatic.

okay maybe im overreacting. i guess family can walk away too.i know they can definitely turn away in times of need. i....dont know anything. im too young and stupid to know anything about this world. yet im too old and jaded to care. god, im bitter.

i dont know what to say. i never know what i want anymore. beyond instant gratification, it's like i dont even....ah hell im speechless.

there's still some things inside me, i wish others could see. most of who i used to be is lost, but stick around long enough and i just may surprise you. it's alright, the old Grace didnt seem to appeal to a lot of ppl anyways. i've still got some spunk left in me, but for how long only the people above know. talk to me before i disappear completely.

omg the last paragraph was so like, i dont know. emo, almost. i am so bad at expressing myself, i shd talk to Oprah. or a psychologist. cant spell the other one, too apathetic to check it out.

okay, enough talk for now. i just added a guy i knew when i was a kid on fb. crazy reckless thing to do. i guess i just dont care abt anth anymore. he'll probably think im a crazy stalker. but really, i just rmb his name and added it. anw, omg, ITS MY MOTHER'S BIRTHDAY TODAY. omg i cant believe i only noticed it now. ah hell. what am i gonna do? okay. got it.

i really have to go to bed now, plan to be up in a coupla hours to do work. right. i hope tmr blazes by quickly so i may like, settle back into my numb self and let the days pass quietly. i wish certain people would just leave me alone, im rather happy when not disturbed. erm, duh. okay nvm.

EVE OF NEW YEAR'S EVE. what, ever.

time

i've been gone a long time.

i have lost interest in life. i started sch ytd and hv work due in a coupla hrs but i hv not started. i want to stop everything and like, die.

death is not when you're in too much pain to do anything, like live, but when you've simply stopped.

just stopped.

OH HAHHHAHAHHA GAWD SO EMO, IM NOT, IM JUST WEIRD HAHHAHAHA. i still feel lightheaded and cannot walk in a straight line.

bubble!

ITS FRIDAY, IM IN LOVE.




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school....

i'm so tired.
i could fall asleep right now.
but to sleep would be to die.

and i hv died enough so no sleep. omg. my eyes can barely stay open. and it's barely midnight! see, i cannot do two consecutive sleepless nights. shit. how to survive until friday?

bad day bad day.

i love meifeng for listening. i wouldnt hv made it through class w/o her lor. thanks, friend.

I MUST STRIVE FOR THE VERY BEST.

now to convince myself of that.

oh gawd, im so, so tired.

so much work to do, i cannot let all these people down. okay. okay. WORK. CAFFEINE. DRUGS. snore. i wish.

BAD, NOT GOOD, BAD.

wow, just three more days after today and it'll be the end of this term, and there's a huge amt of work left. thank you, slavedrivers.

im trying to find sad emo songs because i feel like listening to sad emo songs, and all i can find are stupid happy songs. like wtf. happy songs are so like, adolescent. did i spell tht right? whatever.

happy songs are so 2007.

it's 2009, and 2010 will be here really, really soon, and this year has sucked real bad thus far. sucked. suck. sucky. argh whatever.

sad emo songs, hello?? gawd, leehom is so effing perfect, how does he do that? damn it it's not fair i just want to jump off a bridge.

okay i need to like, take a bath.

this is not making sense but WHATEVER.

speechless

im sick so i stayed home, and my "mother" just told me, "tmr if you wake up late again then you know." , implying tht i stayed home today not because i was sick but tht i overslept and thus pretended to be sick to stay home. What kind of a mother is she?

In my defense, i fairly screamed at her tht i woke up okay, walao. And now my throat hurts again when it was recovering just now. The bitch. Like i took all those pills cos i was pretending. Like you can pretend to blow your nose. Like you can produce mucus on purpose. Gross.

I look down on her. What a disgusting excuse for a human being.

The nxt time im sick im totally gonna storm into her room and slam open the door and say tht "look, im awake but im sick and gonna stay home and contrary to wht you think im not oversleeping and thus pretending". Tht sounds weak, but against this kind of person tht's the best i can do. She thinks she's the only one who can be sick and stay home from work. She thinks im pretending when im sick. i hate her so much i dont even hv words.

you know things are bad when the only thing tht calms you down is putting a bullet through her head.

Yes, if i ever kill her one can come here to my blog and see my confession. Excepr that i wldnt want to ruin my life over her, that vile, revolting person. She's not worth the rest of my life. Thus i'll not kill her, so if she's murdered one day, it wont be by me, cos she makes ppl hate her really easily. Ask around, im sure you'll find many. She's just detestable.

I dont understand why i need to put up w her. Why cant someone else deal w her? I didnt choose this family. we give new meaning to dysfunctional. I want to escape so bad, but killing myself for her is SO not worth it. Thus i hv the fantasies of killing her. But i dont even want to touch her, she repulses me tht much.

I mean, i understand why she thinks im pretending. Cos im awake at this time doing my work. and i used to pretend back in sec sch. But she doesnt know tht i was so tired today and hv slept half the day away in the morn and in sec sch i nvr took responsibility for anth. Now in poly i fully do, and unlike her i actually vare abt my work. Its not like i can refrain from having a fever and sleeping. And yes, i do hv a mild fever, i took my temperature. Tht cow. Of cos if i slept half the day away i need to do work now, esp since i slept again at 9pm. And yes, i told her i was gg to sch tmr, which makes her increase her certainty tht im pretending. But she doesnt know tht i HAVE to go, does she? I need to consult wilson abt evening wear so i can start inking and colouring for monday's submission. I alr missed today, if i miss tmr too i wont be able to hand in. Also, i need to go collect swatched fr wilson. And there's presentation for commdi on monday, i need to discuss w my grp, i alr ps-ed them today. But no, i didnt tell her all these, cos she doesnt bother to ak, so i dont bother to tell her, either. Dealing w her is so much less painful when there is no talking. Yes, i hv issues, bt its all thanks to her.

I feel like crap. Worse than. My body feels hot and breathing is weird. i want nothing more than to sleep, again, and to stay home frm sch tmr again, w an mc this time, but i cant. I really need to go to sch. And to do tht i need to finish colouring my career wear for submission tmr.

Do you know tht part of the reason i didnt go get mc today is tht i dont trsut doctors, and also i wanted to help her save money? I dont see the pt of gg to a doctor who will tell you you're sick when you alr know you are, and give you meds for it when you alr hv panadol flumax at home. But no, i fully intend to spend this money nxt time, cos she's not worth my concern.



*for those who dont alr know, yes, i hate my mother, and i admit it. But before you give me a disgusted look and judge me for tht, ask yourself if you know abt me and my life. Im pretty sure you dont, so dont go telling me tht i shd give her a chance and talk to her. You're not the one who lives w her, i think i know her better than you do. Just because you lucky bitches hv a gd relationship w ur mums does nt mean everyone else does. Trust me, no one else wishes to nt hv this type of r'ship than i do.

i fell sick. Predictably.

I feel like crap.

I stayed home today cos i woke up feeling like someone sandpapered my throat overnight and i couldnt stop blowing my nose for all i was worth.

And like im not even seriously sick until like previous times but i still feel like shit.

it hurts to swallow and i cant stop sneezing! Which sucks. And everytime i sneeze it hurts my throat even more. Talk abt a vicious cycle.

I've downed like 3cups of honey and lots of flu meds, bt it hasnt seemed to work.

And no i didnt go see a doctor cos i dont like them. It just makes u feel more sick. And poor. And the meds make u drowsy. And then i wld sleep instd of doing my work lah. Which wont do. Im currently doing production drawings. and im so scared tht everytime i sneeze i'll draw the line way out. So i stop like every five secs to blow my nose. Disgusting.

DECEMBERRRRR

IT IS DECEMBER OMG ITS THE LAST MONTH OF THE YEAR AND 2009 IS ENDING OMGGGGGGG.

i am in the sch library again and i've just finished my CommDI essay editing and im supposed to be doing peer review so im like waiting for taufiq to send them to me.

oh he just did, no more reason for me to slack :(
sigh.

first, i shall write down my TO DO list so i wont get sidetracked.

TO DO:
1. peer review
2. response to peer review
3. critical reading list
4. references in APA format
5. career wear sketches
6. background info on selected VIP
7. evening wear ideas

TMR (WED):
1. consultation w wilson
2. inking of career wear sketches
3. colouring of career wear sketches
4. production drawing of career wear
5. evening wear sketches (6pcs)
6. printing and binding of commDI AND THEN HAND IN! yay.
7. find background for career wear

ARGH. does it sound like v little? it takes me a helluva long time. ESP colouring and production drawing!!!! copic markers are SO hard to control, geewhiz.

THURS:
1. consult wilson on evening wear
2. also on final for career wear (coloured,production drawing & bkgrnd)
3. ink and colour evening wear
4. production drawing of evening wear
5. find background for evening wear
6. IF POSSIBLE, CONSULT WILSON ON EVENING WEAR COLOURED FINAL TOO

FRIDAY:
1. print everything!
2. HAND IN BY NOON.

whew im like one day behind schedeule :(( who ask me go sleep last night, damn you lah grace. sleep what sleep, want die is it.

this is only everything i can predict thus far today, in 20min bina will give us nxt project. ok gtg CLASS TIME.

moot.

i want to do my work, i really do.

i REALLY do. serious.

so why am i not doing it??? fuck you grace you disgusting procrastinator and avid lover of the simpsons. FUCK YOOOOOOOOOOOU.

and go do your work and stop eating. fucking pig.

thinking, or rearranging prejudices?

Take this kiss upon thy brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow-
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand-
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep- while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?

O God! can I not save

One from the pitiless wave?

Is all that we see or seem

But a dream within a dream?

Dream Within A Dream by Edgar Allan Poe

one of my favourite poems of all time.

i wish i hated my life. i wish i could summon up an emotion as powerful as hate to prove i am alive.

because who says, really, that the life we are living is truly life? we could all be puppets controlled by a higher power. and by that i mean a parallel universe, or stuck in a limbo between life and non-life. maybe we're all just going through the notions of life without ever really living.

im alive functional. im living functioning.

when?

when have i stopped writing just to vent? yes, when?

when have i stopped communicating with myself? yes, when?

when did i lose interest in my life? yes, when?

when did i stop looking forward to tomorrow with eagerness? yes, when?

when did i let myself go? when did i lose hope? when did i stop believing? when did i start losing? when did i stop being happy? when did i stop loving? when did i start to hate? when did i learn to hate? when did i stop caring? when did i start to fade? when did i stop living?

yes, when?

when it all ends, when it all ended;

when is it ever over?

HI KANIKA

you call that bitching? i think we both know it's not. anyway whatever, i dont want to fight with you, so dont come pick a fight or play the victim by saying you dont hv the energy and dont want to deal with this because why the hell do you think i didnt go last night?

im not saying im the victim, i dont think anyone is here. im just saying that i said what i said because i felt an explanation was necessary for me not going, and i knew you would see it, which is why i posted it in the first place.

do you deny that my words ytd were things i would normally, and always, say? do you think your reaction was normal, and what you always would say? because i dont. and i understand that ppl have moods, but there was still no need for that big a reaction. and i only replied what i did because i felt i shdnt sweep it under the carpet like i always do in life and then explode one day. i dont confront ppl, you shd know that. you would think my saying smth would mean smth. but you didnt, and then you did smth i could NOT stand, you pretended everything was okay and nth had happened. and i hate that, hate that, hate that so much. you should know, because i told you how my mother does it. and i used to do it every single time with everyone in my life because confrontations were just too exhausting and im too wooden to know how to do it anyway. but since i realised that was one of the things i hated so much about my mother, and thus myself, i hv been trying to not do it anymore. if smth is wrong, then it is, and pretending it isnt just wont make it go away. so i only decided to not go when you did not reply.

had you replied, it wouldnt have mattered what you said. even if you called me a fucking bitch who only cares about myself. i probably would hv fought back, but at least it was us being honest to how we felt.

no one wants to fight, least of all me. but you need to know that sometimes, just sometimes, it IS exhausting dealing with you, because you expect everyone to know what to do at the appropriate moment and that you and only you are allowed to have the final say.

i know i sometimes i make you want to punch me,too. but if you dont say anth bout it, it's never gonna change. and just saying "why are you acting so annoying today" does not explain anth.

maybe im making a huge fuss over nothing at all, and i admit that i am a over sensitive person who pays too much attention to small details, but then again so are you, and sometimes its the smallest details that have the biggest impact on ppl. like,things i thought i could overlook turned out to be the things that make me mad over and over again, even months after it's happened. and i know i shd tell you about it, and maybe i have, but i dont rmb, and i think it means to you much less than what it meant to me.

maybe some things dont matter to you, but these same things matter to me. and if what matters to me doesnt mean anth to you, the least you could do is not disrespect it, and thus me. sometimes you insult ppl or things that matter to them without thought, and i dont understand why. im pretty sure i've told you this before, and i know this is a completely different issue from ytd, but it is relevant that you do say things that hurt ppl. maybe unintentionally, but repeatedly.
what i mean is, i feel like you've insulted me by pretending it was okay. am i not big enough an issue to want to resolve? if you were tired and didnt mean any insult, you could have said so. if you thought i was being unnecessarily probing, you could have said so IN A LESS TACTLESS TONE and i would have apologised.

by not saying anth, you implied that i was acting like an immature child that you did not want to degrade yourself by dealing with. you implied that i was acting out, and that replying would have been indulging my childish desires. at least, that's what i feel. and i know you cant be held responsible for the conclusion i drew. but you ARE responsible for inspiring that conclusion.

if i had gone, how was i supposed to act? follow your lead and pretend everything was okay and then try to hv a good time? i didnt want to fight, but i didnt think i would hv been able to do nothing, either. i didnt know how i was supposed to act when i saw you, confront you and make a scene and then ruin the night? i didnt think that was fair to both of us, or misato, after she arrived. or pretend to be happy? again, i didnt think that wld be fair to both of us, because that's what you do to be polite to ppl who dont matter or are insignificant. and you mean more to me that to dismiss like that. i didnt think it wld be fair for me to play nice when i felt anth but. or was i supposed to go over and apologise? i thought about it you know, i really did. but i didnt think i had done anything really wrong or deserved all the blame. the one thing i did do wrong was asking you so many questions when you were in an easily irritated mood. and apologising would hv meant that i was wrong and that it was okay for you to react like that, had you not apologised at all. because if i said i was sorry and you said it was okay and nothing else, i dont think it would be, okay, i mean. i didnt think i could deal with the possibility of that happening, and if it had, i didnt know what i would do. i wld be back in the confront or pretend it was okay situation again.

so i didnt go. i felt it would give me time to think about what i shd do and say. and it might have deflected a fight. and i was honest bout it, i didnt lie and make up an excuse like, i want to watch tv and eat meat. that would hv been disgusting and disrespectful to both you and me.

and now here we are, doing this. i wonder how this will turn out. and i dont know what i expect out of this, because im not angry and i dont want an apology, and actually i dont know what i want, except to not want this to happen again. so you were tired and i was being an irritant, but i had the same feelings before too, and usu i just drop it because escalating it would result in THIS. this being the angry reaction, then the angry defense. then i dont know what comes after that. i learned a long time ago it was easier to live and let live. and yes, i've become an escapist, but whatever, that's my own problem.

so now the ball's in your court, i've said what i probably never would have said or been able to say, and even though i may not hv expressed this best, at least i tried to, and i guess im glad.
where do we go from here?

lethargic beyond belief

Hi its me again. yawn. lethargic. im not going to kanika's party after all.

and its not because there's no chicken, or that i want to watch Flushed Away, or that i hv fuckloads of hmwk to do.

Nope,its just cos im insecure like I ALWAYS AM, and she's in a mood where every little thing will irritate her. And im not in the mood to deal w that. I dont want to apologise for being me,insecure as i might be. Because really, as incredible as it might seem, she annoys people too, not just the other way round.

I suppose i shd really go do commDI. Just not a good day for working, feeling super lazy and just want to stone..

BLURGHHH

hi.

i hv no motivation to do ANYTHING. like even typing this is killing me. i just want to eat/drink.

HAHHAHAHA YAY I CAN DO THAT TONIGHT.

kanika's folks are throwing a party.

i know watcha thinking, what?? she wants to go to a party some dude's PARENTS are throwing????

hhahahah yes i do. because kanika's mum makes awesomeeee cheeeken and like, indian parties hv fuckloads of food! and i love their parties. food good. gawd, all bout food, im sucha pig.

but like, i dont really care anymore. hahahaha fat is like, whatever. so what! muahahhhaha. i want to drink smth super cold and sweet. and eat smth salty, preferably fried.

MCDONALDS WOOHOO.

omg tht reminds me of amanda. HI AMANDA, IF YOU'RE READING THIS :D

AMANDA CHNG YI used to read my blog a lot when i used to INHALE macs by tonnes. that was in the jan-april period. fuck, i cant believe i had like 5mths of freedom and I DID ABSOLUTELY NOTHING WITH IT.

wow i am a lazy fucking pig. fuck you grace!

i need to do commDI

i handed in fashion ilustration exercise 1 ytd. waaa i handed in damn late but ohwell, i finished everything! like, am proud of self. although the grades come back sure like shitzzz. that's what the others say, including the seniorsss and i trust Ashley. ashleyzzzxzxzz.

yawnzxzzx i am bored and restless and i want to like, fly.

although i'll prob be too lazy to flap my wings and then i'll fall and die anw.

omgggg im coughing like mad. think samantha passed me the fluzxzx.

fever and cough will follow.

SIGHZXZX.

it's hari raya! yay. taufiq is having fun. no idea what ppl do on hari raya but i bet its fun.

TAUFIQ, ELIZABETH. WE NEED TO DISCUSS OUR CAREER WEAR OUTFITSZXZXZ! RAH RAH. oh no that sounds like lady gaga's bad romance. damn it they keep singing it. NOOOOOOOOO.

like, i hv nth against her i just dont like this song THAT much. overplay overload OVERRRR.

i could go downstairs and get food but tht would require moneysss. and i am technically -$24. OMG HOW DID I MANAGE TO SPEND SO MUCH MONEY OMG GRACE FUCK YOU!!!!

i love doing work. yeah right. okay actually it is right. i just hate STARTING work, you know that's always the hardest. i suppose i shd dig into nxt mth's allowance a bit more to reward myself.

wow the air outside the house is sooo much cooler than inside, esp my room. cause i am one hot mama :D hahahha just kidding.

lalallaallaalla bored ttm.

how does leslie do it? talked to him ytd and he said he was CONTENT WITH LIFE. like omggggg. how???? im SO NOT.

"windows thrown wide in hopes of tempting a breeze". that line just popped into my head. sounds like smth fr Harry Potter. lalallalaalalallalalallalallalalla ~DISCONTENTMENT~

food ensues.

WAAAA i opened my house door, and the cool wind blows RIGHT into my room. SHUANGZXZXZ MANXZXZX TTMMMMMMMM. super shuanggggg. top floor good for once.

i know, i can just switch on the aircon. but im trying to save the enviroment ok, i feel terrible for throwing so much paper away ytd OMGGG. im suck lah. i need a recycling bin.

im a suckerr im still not doing work. can go die alr, wth.

WEEKEND TOO SHORT

well the weekend has blazed by once again, and i hate it. i hate that weekends always do this. weekdays never pass by this quickly! argh. disgusted by your behaviour, weekend.

i wish i had one more day to enjoy slowly. and could it rain when i'm actually staying in,please? weather is very uncooperative.

yesterday was saturday. yesterday was great...

i woke up early and had a looooong leisurely brunch. then at 2 i went to meet KANIKA.

cue cheer.

she accompanied me to buy my copic markers cos when taufiq and i went to get them on friday art friend closed within like 7 MINTUES, THE AHOLES. heh.

and i took DAMN EFFING LONG to pick my colours, i am very indecisive. and i based all my choices upon heroes of the environment because i didnt think my beloved jewel tones were gonna cut it.

see, practical me.

i wish i had more money to buy more markers because truth be told i didnt really like some of the colours, i just kinda...settled. boohoo.

yeah we all know how we feel bout settling.

okay then after copic markers kanika and i went around city hall tiredly. we were tired for no reason. well she had football, and i well, i was with her. hahahha.

okay i cant tell you what we did, but it was fun, okay. like FUNNNN.

yeah we hung til bout seven thirty then she went to meet her sis and i went home cos i had to buy dinner for my mum. and i wanted to watch tv, hurhur.

YAY GAO YIXIANG. stubble. yummy. yay. i like. meifeng likes him, so because i am a friend who isnt the guy stealing bitch types, he is all hers and i aint gonna paw him or anth.

but nobody said i couldnt look my fill.
*drool*

he so kewwwwwt. awww. kay enough.

lalala.

YAY PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN 1 AND 2 NXT WK. me will be watching no.2.

hope i dont slobber over orlando bloom cos im so over him. it was the legolas thing that i loved.

gao yixiang, yay. godfrey. i suspect it's actually geoffrey. cause godfrey's just....weird. hmm ok shut up grace, who you to comment on people's names. beeyatch.

he hot, me likey loads :D

OH WHAT A PRETTY DAY

the sun is shining, the birds are chirping, and the world looks beautiful after being washed... the start of a beautiful day!

good morning! it's about 8.15am and i dont start class til 3pm AND it's friday! so yup im in a good mood.

but why the hell am i up so early?

wellll.....

i slept at abt 5PM ytd afternoon! it was raining and such a marvelous weather to sleep in. plus my mom was home and i didnt feel like interacting w her so sleep was a good idea. but then i woke up at 8plus and decided i didnt feel like facing the blazing lights so i went back to sleep and lo and behold! it was 7AM today :D

yes, that was a 14 hr sleep.

SHIOK, BABY.

hahahha! i hv no idea how i managed to sleep that long, it's like 2days worth of sleep! i guess the less-than-6hr-sleep took a toll on me this wk.

but yeah i guess im used to waking early now, been doing it for more than a mth. really love the sun streaming into my room right now. oh no pls dnt let me turn into a morning person.

yay meifeng is online due to her not being able to sleep! yay someone to talk to.

bow i kinda dont know what to do w myself. i mean, i have like 6h til class starts and sure, i havent done my hmwk, but i really dont think it's gonna take that long. im a fast writer, loads to write abt.

am hungry, first things first. breakfast!

ice cream, shoes and bus rides.

Hi all! had a good midweek? It's been a fun wednesday for me in the sense that i didnt hv to sit in class all day.

we had fashion illustration w wilson and we drew like a half dozen articles of clothes sigh so asymmetrical,mine are. Must redraw.

Anw aft class eli crystal and i were supposed to wait for taufiq before gg to town to take pics for comm d.i. project. But he took super long cos of tp rawks camp. Yup camp i think. Then he arrived at one thirty and off we went!

I tell ya, we took a super short time for the pics! We were done within an hr! So cool.

And then we made a trip to art friend for fipd stuff and like wow, copic markers are EXPENSIVE, baby.

I ended up buying one pen. Lol.

But we did it again. I cant believe it. Hahaha.

Elizabeth, taufiq and i went off unexpectedly again! There we were, going abt town doing nothing but random window shopping.

It was so funny cos we went to see both male and female apparel tgt hahaha. imagine looking at heels and boxers in one sitting. Haha.

From taka we went to ion and then all the way to orchard central. Tiring. And omg marymount girls just took over my bus. Scary. Eek she's too near me. Scaryyy kanika save me. Omg. Okay.

it was like 6 by then, so we went to novena planning to do our work at udders but when we arrived we realised it was full and a class was gg on so taufiq and i camped at mac instead while eli went to work. at udders. Teehee.

And i actually finished my work! Tht's the best part lah, you know how i usu dont if im outside.

Marymount girls are noisy. Lol im not being mean, im serious.

Anyhoo.

Taufiq damn cute he keep erasing and drawing over and over again! Seriously think too much, his drawings were ok lor! Had to be there to see the funny side.

and then we left round nine thirty and now im on the bus and i wish the girl wld stay further away fr me. Personal space, you know.

I hate when ppl invade my personal space. waa like just now otw to udders. best, i tell you. Cant stand it alr, gonna glare at the girl now.

Ok bye babes! Im broke, anyone wanna treat me? Hurhur. Toodles! Loveeee.