Sunday, January 17, 2010

Beautiful lie

That person i talked to and the person i didnt talk to were two so awesomely different people
How can i still remember and smile when i feel so guilty?
And is it wrong to think fondly on my memories if i dont know if they were real? Except how can they not be if they EXIST?
I really hate myself
I should hate you, but you didnt do anything wrong, except be rude, but that's not reason enough to hate a person
I hate how reasonable i am about this.
I know about now, but i dont know about then, and actually i dont think i care.
I just feel so...so...hypocritical by remembering those times and feelings and associating them with you! it's like you degrade my memories just by being in them, actually.

So what do i do about that?

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