Friday, i am over you

RMB MY STAINED CONTACT LENS POST?

well i've been soaking the lens for about 24hrs now and the stain has gone completely! so i guess using K-Palette wont kill you, but just to be safe im still sticking to the trusty kohl liners.

spent the day w meifeng and Mum caught meifeng in our house!! Mum came home super early today so i was stunned. i casually said "oh hey Mum, meifeng's here, she came to bring me something but we're leaving for dinner soon." hahahha i didnt get scolded, yay.

anw, mf and i had relocated to my place to do hmwk after spending an hr plus at bishan library which sucked cos the sun was reflecting off the glaringly white tables and killing us.

well at least i got some research books. bishan library really sucks though, i think im too used to TP. TP library rawkssssss.

so, in my hse we managed to do some hmwk each, i finished my research and my thumbnails and then, we went out for dinner.

where we met Yingyu and wenjia! yay yingyu.


and and and i saw Jaseline!!! i love jase she looks so much the same and i was reminded of us back then....sorry jase i used to be such a controlling bitch. im much better now. yay im totally gonna stay in touch w her and nxt time we hv gyps stuff she's gonna come too, awesome.

jase and i were both fr gyps and ananias day care....we became close cos well, we were always in each others' faces hahahha she was so small and cute back then! i could easily carry her arnd. now she's about my height! sigh just shows how little i grew.

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sigh. feeling a huge round of self-hate. awesome.

i wanna change i wanna change i wanna change! i also want to die. i hate life and i hate myself and there is nothing to live for so why bother? im such a pathetic, disgusting, pile of failure. failure. look how many ppl i got to hate me with a vengance in my almost-18 yrs? i see no point in turning 18 and continuing w life. my friends will dwindle until there are none left. because i am a repulsive human whom everyone HATES. hahahah! hates. i dont know how to repair my relationships, much less forge new ones. let's just jump out the window! teeheehee.

ugh, God, stop it, stop ME. Grace, you are P A T H E T I C.