Cruel, you

Time to tell me the truth
To burden your mouth for what you say
No pieces of paper in the way
'Cause I can't continue pretending to choose
These opposite sides on which we fall
The loving you laters, if at all
No right minds could wrong be this many times

My memory is cruel
I'm queen of attention to details
Defending intentions if he fails
Until now, he told me her name
It sounded familiar in a way
I could have sworn I'd heard him say it ten thousand times
If only I had been listening

Leave unsaid unspoken
Eyes wide shut unopened
You and me
Always between the lines
Between the lines.

I thought I was ready to bleed
That we'd move from the shadows on the wall and stand in the center of it all
Too late, two choices, to stay or to leave
Mine was so easy to uncover
He'd already left with the other
So I learned to listen through silence

I tell myself all the words he surely meant to say
I'll talk until the conversation doesn't stay on
Wait for me, I'm almost ready,
When he meant Let go,

Leave unsaid unspoken
Eyes wide shut unopened
You and me, always be
You and me
Always between the lines
Between the lines.

I feel terrible, everytime i sneeze it's like, OUCHFUCKYOU.
yeah it hurts.

anyway im tiredddd. did loads of chores today even though im sick. and im still so in love with that awesome song. go listen to it.

I WANNA LEARN TO PLAY THE KEYBOARD.
cause it's portable unlike the piano, even though if you learn to play the piano you will definitely know how to play the keyboard. i think.

ah keyboard.
i cant believe my mum said no when my cousin wanted to give me her old keyboard (which wasnt v old) cos she had no space for it.
i swear my mum robbed me of all chances to learn anything new. i mean, if i had some latent talent, i could have like pounded on the keyboard and discovered it. but no, she didnt even give me the chance to pound on anything.
no money, no nothing.
i hate being poor.
i just want to be sufficient, not rich.

Kanika's hilarious.

anyway.

i am a terrible person.
but hey, if you know you're ___ then dont USE that awful unflattering angle! it is SO BAD, it makes you look twice as ___. im sorry, i really wanna be nice, but you're making it difficult. please just stop.
oh gawd. i will stop.
:(

on a different note, i am starting to really develop a liking for babies. hell. this cannot be happening. i am losing my identity!!
(i just watched the ending of Taohua Xiaomei and the babies were like, cute. but not as cute as the dogs! AWWW.)

doggiiiie.

Godfrey Gao Yi Xiang <3