spontaneity

today i woke up with no idea what i was gonna do.

i wanted to be spontaneous and see what wld happen.

this is what happened.

CAMWHORING!

take a closer look at the pics, see that figure in the back in each pic? that's JANE. i went over to her place in the end and i kinda got bored and started camwhoring. by myself. because jane was like, "no! i havent put on my eyeliner yet! and my hairband! cannot take picture!"

hmm.

tmr im going to vivo! yay. you know, i realised tht suddenly i hv alot of things to do. so stupid. busy people busy people. we have manymany things to do. and i guess we cant help if we let down some ppl along the way. mmm. which is kinda sad.

i wanna talk to you, and its so difficult to do because u're nvr free, and i dont wana be a bother, so i just kinda stay away. and thats not very nice at all cos u told me to add you, and i thot once i did, we'll talk better, but now its just like, WORSE. i dont even get a msg anymore. u noe, i wld hv been happy with that one msg every 2days thing. now its just kinda...disappointing. but i know u're busy so its kinda like a self-inflicted wound. u know, like, the higher the hope, the greater the disappointment. but hey, self-inflicted wound or not, it's still hurtful.

Basketball camp

ytd was the official bball camp and ooh, man.
yeah, i dont even noe what words to use to describe it, except that i was very tired after it. which is gd, i guess. but then again im horribly unfit.

memorable events of the day!

i jumped off a 6m pole onto a bar that was like a metre away or more. freaky. i know i crapped alot when i was up there. i talked alot. alot. heh. well, i did it, i made it to the bar okay.

and that was the toughest thing of the day i guess.

my team wld hv done the balance thing, but we had a few ppl with horrible sense of balance, LOL they wld hv been okay if we had more time.

we did high elements again! sooo fun! so easy after sec3 camp's CRC. omg.

then we built a raft.
IT FLOATED AND WE WON!
haha! omg, the other team built a sturdy raft and my team built a triangle. seriously. AND WE WON. so cool right! I KNOW. it was soo funny, the other team's raft like, fell apart slowly. everyone thot ours was a bit of a joke. and we were like, aiyah sink then sink lah, gonna get wet anyway. and then we were leading in the race, and then we so won!
okay, then all of us built a raft tgt, which fell apart okay.

by then we were all tired and hungry. aft camp i went for dinner with shirley and qh and then i went home. gahhh im hungry now.


eek my mom just found a house pest. yucks. i hv no appetite anymore.

(Almost) Perfect Day!

i am like, suddenly very happy today. that is rare. even though certain ppl did not reply me in msn, im still happy. to those irritating ppl, boo you lah!

i woke up, watched tv, stuffed myslf, then found some truly beautiful songs that made me teary. man, i love movie soundtracks. wldnt it be cool if our lives had soundtracks too? TOTALLY.

anyway.

i am so happy! i just persuaded weiping to come too, when cs & misato meet up. hmm. where do i fit in? oops, i am such a tagalong. but whatever, i kinda wana try to see of i can make purple buy me that cake he said he wld. oh cool, purple rmbs. and he just went offline. ohwell.

so today i went for training but aside frm the juniors there were only misato and grace. yeah. as in me. i hung ard for an hour then left to meet qh and shirley. they were LATE, as usual. and i totally got snubbed by some very stupid ppl. GRRRRRRRR. then i became very very hungry.

we went to mango, and then we went to eat. yay. i over-spent and over-ate. not good. i so hv to NOT spend on anth anymore. then we went to check out these hot sales guys along orchard road. poor guys, they must feel so violated. hahaha. i feel like im taking advantage of them.
qh and shirls went to watch a late night movie (POTC3) with melody and jun da. and we saw wei song. shirls recognised him and then i did too and we were like, hey he's frm tuition centre. shirls says he looks like her cousin. qh says he's cute. hahahah. so then we ate at yoshi at taka, and gladys wasnt there. hmmm. moving on.

i reached home! and i went to friendster and i realised my fren sent me 2msgs and i didnt see the one ytd so he sent it again to tell me to add him on msn and so i did, and now we're both online but we're not talking causssssse he's BUSYYYY. apparently i hv bad timing. ohwell, im busy too. oh wait he just replied. he was eating dinner. FOOOOOOOOD. yum.

GAH! i gtg do some stuff for bball camp tmr. check in with u bloggers tmr!

ABS!

cough cough cough. im am so tired. i coughed non stop for 3hrs last night, i dont know how i slept man.
like i've said, i've coughed so much, i'm actually developing abs!

i am so proud of myself.
the single life so rocks :))))
thankyou hong wei, for helping me realise that i think so.
(no, he didnt do anth to me!)

I'm not here for your entertainment
You dont really wana mess with me tonight
Just stop and take a second
I was fine before you walked into my life
Cos u know when its over, before it begins
Keep ur drink just gimme the money
Just you and your hand tonight!

im so digging that song now, i think i typed some words wrongly, but whatever.

today qh & i went to orchard and we didnt get her shoes. stupid shop. but we got some totally cute things! well, i did anyway. it is SO cute! ohmygosh. i so cannot decide which one i'll keep for myslf. and we saw some total hotties, as qh so eloquently put it. LOL. he was okay, not THAT hot, but hey, if she likes guys like that.... hahaha. trust me, he had a pretty hot bod. so i tormented my feet in my sexy heels, and tmr i gtg for training. whoopadoddle.

i saw this shirt that i so want, and these totally great heels. of cos, they'll probably hurt like hell, but hey, dont all heels?
here's a little food for thought:
why cant they invent heels which dont kill our feet?

i gtg find my notebook, my Legolas spin-off needs work. and i miss Warren... crap.
lets hope i dont cough myslf to sleep tonight. cya tmr.

back from being outta it

hello bloggers im officially touching the computer again. its been more than a wk since i last posted anth & holiday mood has long hit my fellow blogger friends but im still gonna say it anw.

ITS THE HOLIDAYS BABEYY!

see, i hv been outta it lately. i took a major trip to the sick zone & stayed there a good five days or so. like, my fever hit me hard & fast last thursday, and all the warning i had was the slight cold on wed & the painful sore throat i woke up with on thurs morn that stayed with me til sunday morn. ouch, like, seriously.

i totally missed the last day of school, which, everyone knows is not even really sch, more like Report Book Day and Let Hols Spirit Sink In Day which i hv NEVER missed before but i did this time & lemme tell ya, THAT SUCKED. big time. i mean, SPORTS CARNIVAL! CLASS TEE! i hv NO IDEA how they look like. being sick is so not fun.

so my temperature soared up to 38.16degrees C within an hour on thurs, and lemme just say, it is NOT easy trying to slp well with a high fever, no matter what ppl might tink. i cldnt breathe properly, my throat HURT, my body was like radiating heat. seriously, i tried the sweat-it-out-under-blanket thing for 2hrs and i was abt to die. so the air con went on and i tink im nuts, cos i din even tell my mom i had fever, mostly cos i so wanted to go to sch the next day & i knew she wldnt let me. but then i threw up in the middle of the night and in the morning i thought, hell, who am i kidding, i aint gonna be up for sch in this state. and sure enuf, my temp that morning was 39.05d.C. so i had no choice, i told my mom. and i missed sch. *deep sigh*

THEN, i drank this super dee duper power herbal tea which broght my temp down to 37point smth in like, an hour. COOL HUH. unfortunately i still missed the sch thing, on acc of my temp zooming back to 38.30dC. and appetite was a thing of the past. for the 1st time in a long time, Grace did not hv zest for food. how rare is that?? i still dont, as a matter of fact. i just eat when its time to, but i hv no appetite at all. sure, i get hungry, but i look at food and im like, nah. seriously, for 2 days, i survived on tea and fruit. is that like whacked or what? i rmb i only started eating on sunday, while watching Starsky and Hutch. the fever only left on saturday night, which is basically when the cough started.

cough. i hate coughs. on sunday night i coughed non stop, which i hv been doing for the past 3 days and i hate it. its making me lose slp. so on sunday night i was totally getting ready for chem class the next morning when i started sneezing and coughing -are you ready for this?- blood. yes, i just sneezed into a tissue, blew my nose (excuse the gross image) and looked and saw blood on the tissue. and then i froze, because whatever i had been expecting, it was not that. and then i coughed, with my hand covering my mouth of course, and i removed and hand, and on a whim, i looked and saw blood on my palm. remind u of a drama, huh? i was reminded of when in Dolphin's Bay Shan-ni was dying of cancer and...ahem. anyway. i believed that's when i freaked. i was in my room, alone, and i believe it was around 12+ or maybe later in the night, and i started freaking out and crying "OMG im coughing blood!" of cos, it was only later that i realised no one cld hear me but wth, i talk to myself all the time. so then the next morning, i was hounded by coughing fits. i decided to stay home.

yeah, so ppl who think i blew off sch and chem class, tink again. i dont tink u wld hv wanted to see me start coughing blood in the middle of class and freak out more than me okay. i mean, i cant risk having u win the Most Dramatic Over This Issue title from me you know. after all, it is me who's coughing blood. and i'll hv u noe, i've NVR done tht b4 in my entire life. scary.

and now, its tuesday, and im still coughing and breathing with difficulty, but be assured there's no further blood. yet, of cos. but im keeping my fingers crossed tht it nvr happens again. the only blood activity going on here is with those gd for nth mosquitoes. horrid blood suckers! grrr, i've got 3bites.

sorry that i talk so much- even when its abt a boring fever and cough. long posts do seem to be my specialty. but hey, at least i got smth to post abt eh? :D

hugs and kisses! oh wait, no i cant kiss u ppl, u'll probably get sick too, but i wager cyber kisses are just fine. taa!

Beeeeeeeeeees

i am bitter and bewildered.
whee.

today geog was so eurhyukjvfg. yeah. then smth happened which got us all blatantly staring for a bit. then we reverted back to the oh-crap-bad-results-sucks-what-do-i-do state.

i spent sixty dollars today and not even on shopping. whoo. oops gtg find tht NYAA thing.

cannot stand the hot sticky weather, i so need air con.

and summer love rocks my socks. althou im not really wearing socks now. still.

SUMMER LOVE
SUMMER LOVE
SUMMER LOVE

insignificant post here

lalalaaaaa
i havent got anth to post abt. i didnt go to class today. i miss class.
not SCHOOL class, duh. dance class.

*disgusted grunt*
ugh,
yearbook pictures are being taken this thursday!
God, cld it be any sooner?

*prayer to God*
Dear God,
pls let the photographer come down with a fervent fever tht isnt life-threatening but will not go away til sch lets out for the hols & the sch has no choice but to let us take the pics after the hols. alternatively, just anth that will make the sch decide to postpone the picture-takings til after hols will be fine. while u're coming up with a plan for tht, can you pls let me lose a few kgs, make my face slimmer & help me not get into any more trouble at sch for the rest of the year?
ohyes. and Lord, pls help me find him or her.
thankyou, Amen.

things i hv to do:
~ save more money so i can shop during GSS
~ figure out how to let xh go class w us
~ be nicer to certain ppl
~ be meaner to certain ppl
~ stay out of trouble at sch
~ stop reading trashy cheat-ppls-feelings romance novels
~ get rid of the bks i hv
~ get serious abt math results
~ try not to be too indifferent or negative when showing mum math results
~ stay away from the pringles, ice cream, oreos and candy in the fridge
~ stop consuming so much sugar
~ buy eng compre bk & do it
~ also do lit things ):
~ dont eat junk food for dinner
~ dont eat junk food at all

hmm. long list, dont ya tink? sigh.

cheers!

woohoo im so happy blogger is fixed! :DDDDDD

hmm i tink my reaction is abit slow but this happens when a girl doesnt touch the com for a few days.
anw, YAY BLOGGER IS FINE AGAIN.
hello template changes <3

andand,
I'VE GOT AN IDEA...
well actually i've got many, but this is so great!

this wk i saved some money but i still dunno if i can go for class tmr...this sucks im always strapped for cash. and i wana meet ashley jie so bad and i wana catch up with everybody so soo bad and why arent things going smoothly its not fair GRRRRRRRRRRRRR

and i've added new stuff to my list of things to buy
and khairi owes me eight CDs, that irritant.

i've been thinking what to do lately, and my mind just draws up a big blank.
like, BLANK.
and im hungry.

insane urges!

chicken banana!

i have got supercrazymadlynuttyuberstupidinsane urges to be superduperly ULTRA nice to all my friends! event he ones i havent seen in a loong looong time.

wow.

if u're my friend during this period pls count ur lucky stars because these supercrazymadlynuttyuberstupidinsane urges are urging me to buy everyone presents.

presents.

what do i look like? a bloody money printer?

gag.

and i even returned the library bks i used joshua wu weizhong's IC to borrow.
i am like ultra nice lately.

WEIRD!

list of things i wana do this hols!

~ meet ashley jie
~ go on mad shopping sprees every week or so (hmm ok every TWO wks or so)
~ GET NEW JEANS
~ ditto shoes
~ meet old frens i havent seen in longlong time
~ smth abt my hair
~ pack my wardrobe
~ eat all the candy in my fridge
~ introduce my horse to my dog
and
~ give my dog a bath


HAHA GOTCHA!
i alr gave my dog a bath like 3months ago, he doesnt need another til 2mths ltr.


:D
oh fine, im kidding, i dont hv a dog or a horse. i do hv a hippo! and a lamb. and a kiwi fruit!

ahahah. YIYIN HOUSE VERY NICE CAN but very scary if u leave at night because u run the risk of getting chased by a ghost dog which may or may not:
a) jump over the moon gate
b) sink its canines into ur ankle
c) be real
and then when u go home & relate the story to yiyin when she asks if u're home safely she may or may not:
a) care
b) believe u & get worried & advice u to get insurance frm the owners
c) pick up the phone
of course, all this results in a few possibilities of she may or may not:
a) nvr invite u to her house again
b) invite u over & send u home in her car
c) invite u over, slam the door in ur face & set her dog on u


(: lovely house :)

I LIKE!

STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN <3333
the boys making themselves comfortable :D

random shot!
our hostess performing for us! :D

OMG!

Yiyin's house is like NICENICENICE! see the 1st shot? its the stairs leading to the basement where we spent the whole afternoon and most of the night. HEHEHEEEEEEEE

(see Juanne's blog for more pictures!)

surprisingly i was not the latest althou i did smth super malu and then it was super hot and we walked super long time then we reached yiyin's new house and there was this loud sound:

WAAA......

*insert stunned looks of awe*

*mad dash up to house follows the exclaimation*

"eh? why is the door locked?"

"eh, the door is open."

"come, we go to the basement,"

*everyone troops downstairs*

"WAAAAAAAAA yiyin!"

and that is the start of our hermit-like 6hrs++ in there.

FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

and then we had to leave, and that concludes the fantabulous new house adventure<3

i want to go again!

qiulin & i sang hua xiang! XuShaoYang!!!!! *swoon*

new obsession!

I AM IN LUST.
LUSTLUSTLUST.

AMBROSE XU SHAO YANG

so hot so hot so hot!!!!!!!!!!!
*DREAMY SIGH*
buy me an Ambrose for my birthday. or a Warren, im not picky.
lol.

TODAY, aft sch i decided to go home, but then i went out with NianTee Samantha & JingQiu hahah fun leh we did nonsensical things. sadly, we didnt see GG but ohwell.
we walkwalkwalked around til 1++++ then i went home & changed & then went out to meet Y Q & K. hahaha like code lidat. grr i waited ard then realised they at mrt there. so toot.

we bought lovely things! we talked abt balloons! and peonies! and condoms! and dumb-bells! and boxers! and spongebob! and MATERNITY! andandand......i dont know le.
wa sei i tell u, my bus ride damn long. and tmr going out again, and i am broke and crap lah.


AMBROSE IS SO CUTE

he has been up-ed in my top ten list, and im not penning his screen name anymore, but his given name cos he's so fab. i love his jaw *SO MAN!* lol. i love his shoulders. i love his hair. i love his eyes. i love his smile. i love his arms. i love his bod. *drool* no LOL, jk. i love his expressions. i love that face. HE TURNS ME ON woohoo.

okay enough obsessing.
i am like so tired, i want to sleep.
Ambrose, i love you.
xoxo


LOL.

LALALAAA

dont need to tell me i ought to be studying! but im like damn hungry howwwwwwww.
crap nth to eat, as usual. siiiiiian.
i want to see ggggggggggggggggggggg.
and to suddenly know everything abt math.
and i only got sixty percent for jiacai true friend test.
HAHAHA so much for long time friends.
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.
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cannot tahan, very hungry.



i want to eat duck rice.
THANKYOU KAITING AND JIACAI FOR TEMPTING ME.

stupid jiacai. he finish exams liao............irritating.
seriouslyseriously, there is nth for me to eat here. SUCKSSSSSSSSSS.

andand, anyone knows what to get jiacai (PRESENT) pls CONTACT ME. if u read this and hv an idea, i am assuming u noe how to contact me, if not, TOO BAD. no lah, just go to the side there & u will see how u can contact me.
and i dare to type this here cos that jiacai nvr reads my blog. then whne he does, he nvr tags. then when he tags, its like once in 545378 days. so in short, he nvr reads my blog.

YIYIN:
if u see this pls bring like alot of money with you on friday because i hv no money to pay this week and i am too lazy to contact you to tell you so yeah.

KENNETH:
if u read this i will give u a million dollars because u dont read blogs.

sing a song of six pence, a pocketful of rye!
four and twenty blackbirds sitting on the pie!
when the pie was opened smth smth smth.......
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

GRACE'S TOP TEN MOST IMPT GUYS LIST:
1) Warren
2) ------
3) ------
4) -------
5) --------
6) ---- ---
7) -------
8) ----- ---
9) WUZUN
10) XU ZEYA

hahaha ok the last 2 arent really lah but whatever. i havent seen no.8 in 45642 yrs! hehehee i just just forgotten evryone else on my list i hv such a horrid memory why am i still here i must go study but i am so hungry! i dont care liao going to eat noodles and then STUDEEEEEEEEE.

1000 miles

A Thousand Miles
Making my way downtown,
walking fast, faces pass
and im homebound.
Staring blankly ahead,
just making my way,
making my way through the crowd.

And I need you
And I miss you
And now i wonder

If i could fall into the sky
do you think time would pass me by
cause you know i'll walk a thousand miles
if i could just see you tonight.

its always times like this when i think of you
and i wonder if you ever think of me
cause everything's so wrong and i dont belong
living in your precious memories

Cause i need you
And i miss you
And now i wonder

if i could fall into the sky
do you think time would pass me by
cause you know i'll walk a thousand miles
if i could just see you...tonight.

And i, i dont wanna let you know
And i, i drown in your memory
And i, i dont wanna let this go
I, i dont.

making my way downtown,
walking fast, faces pass and im homebound.
staring blankly ahead
just making my way,
making my way through the crowd.

And i still need you
And i still miss you
And now i wonder

If i could fall into the sky
do you think time would pass us by
cause you know i'll walk a thousand miles
if i could just see you
if i could fall into the sky
do you think time would pass me by
cause you know i'll walk a thousand miles
if i could just hold you
if i could just see you...
tonight.

sigh. love this song, vanessa carlton is so cool. sian diao, dunno do what. hate this stupid damn hot weather.

today was so dumb...almost late to sch, then nvr study, then still crap alot for the test. i left out so many points! but still i tink okay lah. after sch KT Adel and i went J8 eat breakfast where i saw my darling. the darling i've had my eye on since forever...sigh. GG<3 hahaha. jk.

i tink guangyang guy is like, from gyps. if thts so, i've known him like forever. he is like so cute. lol. then jacq came. then we walked J8 for 2hrs. Fun. yay.
Adel & CK! yay. he was nice lah, made that keychain for her. lol i guess love does sneak up on you when u're least expecting it...their story is so funny. not tht they're in love lah, but still.
then gy guy was totally nearby and i was so like, SIGH. lol.

aft tht adel & jacq left for TP and KT & i went home to change & get txtbks. i was early for once & KT made me wait. ORANGE IS LIKE THE COLOUR OF THE DAY. hahaha. we went to tution centre then i saw Juanne & Shirley and blahblahblah Adel & i went KFC where CK saw us and his fren was totally stupid. malu. then aft tht we went library and we saw song downstairs and i was reminded of chi shun a lil bit then CK met us at library.......

and then as i was going home JC asked me to meet him for dinner so i went and im damn full cos of pizza. see my day so eventful. i want to see gy guy leh. i reli tink he's frm gyps lah, but JC doesnt noe who im talking abt.

sigh. i am so wasting my time...i shd just end it all b4 anth starts becos im just so not interested. sweet nothings mean NOTHING and i dont really care if they do anw. i am so not looking for anth, and i dont plan to. im just so deprived tht a lil attention feels nice. esp since the one i want attention from is like, terrified of me. hahaha it is so funny. hilarious. depressing. i mean, doesnt it TELL you smth? i strike fear in ppl's hearts. LOL i am so powerful. so what shd i do?

i dont care luh. adel bought me hawthorn candy! :DD and treated us to KFC! :DD and JC paid for my drink! a lil bit anw. why? becausebecause, I AM BROKE. yes, its true. mum needs to return me money and i still hv to pay for dance class. SIGH. plus i am trying to spend as lil as possible, GSS IS coming. heheheeeeeeeee.

i am so sian lah, im not going to blog le. grah.

Play School<3

Over It:

I’m over your lies

And I’m over your games.

I’m over you asking me when you know I’m not ok

You call me at night,And I pick up the phone

And though you’ve been telling me, I know you’re not alone

And that’s why your eyes,

I’m over it.

Your smile,

I’m over it.

Realized

I’m over it, I’m over it, I’m over

Wanting you to be wanting me

No, that ain’t no way to be.

How I feel, read my lips

Because I’m so over, I’m so over

Moving on, and it’s my time.

You never were a friend of fine

Hurt at first, a little bit

And now I’m so over,So over it

I’m over your hands

And I’m over your mouth

Trying to drag me down and fill me with self doubt

Oh and that’s why your world

I’m over it.

So sure,I’m over it.

I’m not your girl

I’m over it, I’m over it, I’m over

Wanting you to be wanting me

No, that ain’t no way to be.

How I feel, read my lips
Because I’m so over, I’m so over

Moving on, and it’s my time.

You never were a friend of mine

Hurt at first, a little bit

And now I’m so over,So over it
I’m so over it

Don’t call,Don’t come by.

Ain’t no use

Don’t ask me why.
You never change;
Leaving all the crying in the rain

.

.

.

Yay Over It by Katharine McPhee is so nice :DD

i did so many things today. random things.

like, i woke up with absolutely no idea of what i was gonna do aft sch. then during recess kaiting invited me to her hse and i said yes. but then, she changed her mind. and i rmbed tht ben and i might meet. so end up i was to meet KT at 2 and ben aft 3. then i hung ard opp sch real long then went home to change.

was late meeting KT (: we went to macs, where we saw KT's classmate & his fren. KT classmate left & we tried to study but failed appallingly. LOL. ben came & bickered with me. GRR he irritates me. but i proved him wrong hahaha.

ben left and KT & i went walking. we went to the arcade & got score of 101 on the bball game. LOL (: then we pretended to be lil kids.

KaiTing the big baby! ahahha.

grrrrrrrr blogger's being difficult, i cant upload the others. ah, here they come! :)

I'm Grace the Kid! or Kid Grace. sounds cool, eh? :D

then we went for dinner. where i saw Stan. MRT Stan. hehee yes, tht's how i know him. and i rudely but correctly invited purselves to eat with him cos he looked so poor thing, eating alone. haha i know i don like to eat alone. he looked like he cld use some company. Stan's like, rich! haha he's a foreign student frm HK and he just WONT speak Cantonese to me! sigh. not fun lah, i wana hear him speak Cantonese lah so cool can.

the rice stall ppl totally flirted with me. ugh. so not cool.

lalala! tmr got Macs breakfast and im still broke this week boohoo and Stan has small eyes like KT haha so funny omg im thirsty i shall go drink water now oh no this post is so frivolous :D

when you

Dang ni

Ru guo you yi tian
Wo hui dao cong qian,
Hui dao jui yuan shi de wo,
Ni shi fou hui jue de wo bu cuo.
Ru guo you yi tian,
Wo li ni yao yuan
Bu neng zai he ni shang yue,
ni shi fou hui fa jue wo yi jing shuo zai jian.
Dang ni de yan jing mi zhe xiao,
Dang ni he ke le,dang ni chao,
Wo xiang dui ni hao,
Ni cong lai bu zhi dao,
Xiang ni, xiang ni,
Ye neng chen wei shi hao,
Dang ni shuo jing tian de fan nao,
Dang ni shuo ye shen ni shui bu zhao,
Wo xiang dui ni shuo,
Que hai pa dou shuo cuo,
Hao xi huan ni,
Zhi bu zhi dao
Ru guo you yi tian, meng xiang dou shi xian.
Hui yi dou chen le yong yuan,
Ni shi fou hai hui ji de jing tian
Ru guo you yi tian
Wo men dou fa jue
Yuan lai shen me dou ke yi
Wo men shi fou hai hui ting liu zai zhe li
Ye xu kong xu rang wo xiang de tai duo,
Ye xu gai hui dao mei yi mo
Mong li hui xiang yu,
Jiu hao bu you yu
Da sheng de shuo wo yao shuo
Dang ni de yan jing mi zhe xiao
Dang ni he ke le, dang ni chao,
Wo xiang dui ni hao,
ni cong lai bu zhi dao,
Xiang ni xiang ni,
ye neng chen wei shi hao
Wo xiang dui ni shuo que hai ba dou shuo cuo
Hao xi huan ni,
zhi bu zhi dao.

hahahah! so totally an old song. but its the pre hate-cyndi days (:
not much to tell abt today, and anw my leg hurts too much for me to try.
haha.
leg & typing, so irrelevant.
whatever!
i am so,so broke.
sigh.
and unless i am very much mistaken...i am hungry.
dang.

ytd there were newlyweds taking bridal pictures in our sch :DD
so nice (((:
yesyes, hopeless romantic here.
maybe they met in sch, fell in love and thus started their lovestory!
LOL.
fertile imagination.
whee. i am so hungry.

straight talking

HAPPYSEXYPASSIONATECOOL BIRTHDAY JC!!
(its my 8yrs++ fren's bday!)

just got home from school, just turned down an invite for dinner with jc becos i was at my own doorstep and too lazy to walk back to j8, just finished reading my book.

i cant believe i did the SS essay, jeez. my 1st piece of SS hmwk all year.

u know, i've done some pretty stupid things in my life. some were idiotic, most were embarrassing and a few were downright humiliating. like that tim ein day care when i played tht game in a skirt. a flouncy, flowy skirt that- ahem. nvm, lets put tht in the past shall we? and then i realised i do or say an embarrassing thing at least once a week, and i guess, tht's normal. we've all read abt ppl doing stupid things for love, havent we? and u noe what? i admit i've done some PRETTY dumb things in the name of "love", cos its more like obsessive infatutation (: and i rmb most of them well. haha, its funny when u reflect back on them, but at the time? gosh, u just wanna crawl into a hole and die, tht's how bad some were.

and today i realised how much i miss *P (name changed). P and i can still talk, if only for a bit, and i realised tht we;ve just missed a chance for us to grow closer. i mean, heartbreak has always been a reason why women connect and we've nvr gone thru those b4. sure, i has *Ass, then *Jay, but i'd nvr even gone into detail abt it. honestly, i hadnt even been honest. and then recently she had *T, and i kinda er got into smth with *W and we nvr told each other anth. and thts a regret okay, bocos i nvr have anybody to tell everything to. certain ppl FLAKE on me, most cant put themselves in my shoes and... i dunno. it just sucks alot. i wana ask somebody what the hell is going on with me. everything just kinda sucks now. i mean, we're not really super chummy, cos we're too alike. we're like Andy and Tash, always like, u noe? nvm, read the book. im like Tash, and she's Andy, cos she'll nvr do anth as self-destructive as Tash did, but i totally wld. plus i totally needs what Tash does, and it sucks.

yes, i've thought things through. *W was just such a shock, i nvr had time to put up any defence and tht why it started. but then *W turned out to be like every other person and yeah, *W might as well hv ripped my lungs outta me but hell. it happens. and i lived. and he ran. but then those things happen where u cant just ignore, and *W was...nice. i felt like a bitch and went to befriend *W. but tht was all it was gonna be, serious. but then...it just got out of hand. hell, it was nvr meant to go this far, and i nvr meant for anth like that to happen. ok, maybe a little similiar, but not THAT. its just so...awkward. bloody hell.

u see, i gotta stop with the thinking and just do. why bother to tink? nth's ever gonna come outta it, im psychic, i noe what im saying. and besides, fantasies nvr came true (:

hehehe i sound quite wrong. like i did smth...bad. hahah. funny.
am going to drool over Xu Zeya now! :DD

now that you know

"Now You Know"

In these eyes,more than words,
More than anything that I've spoken
As the skies turned to gray
My heart's just about to crack open
So the story goes
There’s something you should know
Before I walk away and I blow the ending
[Chorus]
I never wanna be without you
Oh no, here I go
Now you know
What I feel about you
there's no running
I must have been wrong to doubt you
Oh no there I go
No control
And I’m falling
So now you know

Feel so light, craving oxygen
All this truth's left me empty
Will you run?
Can you handle it?
Cause I need you to tell me
Maybe this is bold
But I’m hoping you’ll stay for the happy ending
[Chorus]
I never wanna be without you
Oh no, here I go
Now you know
What I feel about you
there's no running
I must have been wrong to doubt you
Oh no there I go
No control
And I’m falling
So now you know

No I won’t look back when I tell you what I think about you
No I won’t look back when I tell you what I think about you
So the story goes-yeah you already know
So don’t be a fool and go spoil the ending

I never wanna be without you
Oh no, here I go
Now you know what I feel about you
There's no running
I must have been wrong to doubt you
Oh no there I go
No control, and I’m falling
So now you know

falling in love all over again with this cheesy song. i wish khairi wld return me my cinderella story soundtrack. haha im like cinderella minus the dead father, a mother instead of the cruel stepmother, no evil stepsisters and no fairy godmother. teehee.
then again hilary duff didnt have a winged fairy with a magic wand either, though she did have that cool woman.

now you know now you know. you run, run, run. becos u cant handle it. i dont tink u cld ever, but i did tink u cld. the ending's alrdy been blown so yeah, i dont care anymore. i was warned abt you, so i brought this upon myslf. everything fits, doesnt it? the gray skies, the eyes, the lack of control. i never bothered to correct ur thinking, but i never really wanted to...because it wasnt really necessary. why deny smth that was true? she might not hv known it, but it was true what she said. i guess there is smth u shd know, but im too numb to rmb what. im lying, im not numb. i just dont want to rmb. numb? yeah, maybe tht's what they call it when everytime i tink of it, my throat goes cold & i cant breathe properly. there's no running for me but it certainly doesnt apply to u, does it? u're doing a fair amt of running, enuf for the both of us. i was wrong, but not in doubting you, i was wrong about you entirely. if anth, i was wrong in not doubting you. now im empty and devoid but i know the answers. you will run, you cannot handle it. run all u want, be assured, i wont give chase. i never wanted for this to tur out like this u noe. i had no control any of the events, and those i did, they were fine. you lousy coward, you wont even give me the chance to tell you what i tink abt you. at least let me know so i wont look back anymore. fool. i didnt want you to know. i didnt want you to go. how cld i when i never wanted to be without you? but forget it now, its all over. yeah, now u know, but so do i i was wrong, wrong, wrong. being wrong isnt killing me though, you going away is. but heck, i hate you, so wth.

go away, world.
call me whatever you want, i dont care anymore.
irritating.

Happy Earth Day!

Earth Day Earth Day!
its raining, cool or what?
COOL.

i had plans today.
they all got dashed and im doing nth of which i planned (:
not fun, i want to go shopping.

yesterday olivia julia & i went dance w/o xiuhui. that girl went to watch PHAMTOM OF THE OPERA. so artsy huh? dance was better than last wk! ohcrap wait i just forgot the steps.
*thinks*
oh gosh, i really did forget O.O
ANYWAY, aft dance, we had a nice latelatelate lunch at BK, & oilivia & i splurged on dessert sins! we are so eating healthy nxt wk. uh huh.

then we went shopping. *bliss*
i found 3tops i am gonna buy.
only reason i didnt ytd was the lack of funds ):

OHWELL!
qh promised to go w me on thurs. yippie.
now, i hv to do work.
bleach.
i want to eat!

pink polish with sparkly bits

its friday! its 11+ on a friday night & my eyes are damn tired!
this is due to my past 3hrs of using the com, doing my physics project.

now, my part of research & taking out impt pts are done & zhang ming has just sent then over to jiaxin. i feel so guai.
do u noe how RARE it is that im doing hmwk on a friday night? or even on any night?

COOL.

my left hand nails are now polished pink with sparkly bits! *pretty* :DDD

i wana tell u ppl what my grp discussed in the meeting, it was SO infomative, but alas, i gtg.

cya tmr!

the big routine!

yesterday was saturday(:

i woke up earlier than i normally do on saturdays...granted, i had more sleep, cos of the 2days MC from school. hahaha. i did my chores, then i went to ToaPayoh to support Olivia at campus superstar auditions. Stupid lack of aircon, so hot, but nvm, we were there to support OLIVIA (:

but then Julia, XiuHui & i had to leave for class first, Olivia wldnt be going for class today...class was supposed to be totally explosive & BOOM-y. but the only bombs going off were Patrick's temper. for no apparent reason, he was in a bad mood. oopsy.
he took it out on 2 kids and a few others. thankfully, us 3 were spared.
it was supposed to be the big routine, but cos nearly everyone had forgotten the steps...sigh.
there was this fatty who kept blocking me in the mirror. yesyes, i noe her size needs more mirror space, so i moved, several times, and the bitch just kept following, to prevent me from seeing myself in the mirror, when she totally knew it was important for noobs to see how their steps looked like.
she did it on purpose. grrr.
bitch, its not like she was super good or anything.
see, she brought out the vicious side of me.

then, Patrick was missing his best student (Olivia), so he just kept picking on everyone else, making it sound like we were complete idiots who wld nvr be able to dance properly.
Granted, most of the class were timing/rhythm-impaired, but there was still no need for him to be so cruelly truthful.
i mean, i like Patrick & all, but sometimes he can be a bit...tactless.
he said XiuHui had wrong positioning, that my hand movements were sloppy & abt 6 others who were doing the wrong things.
damn, i was totally like the shit there ytd okay. totally.

i guess i can sympathise with Patrick. (i hv to be vindictive and cruel from here :[ )
our class does seem to hv an exceptionally large amt of ppl who cant really dance, and even a few who cant dance at all, but are simply doing steps.
i guess i can see why Patrick has us down to pathetic. i cant say i wasnt offended when he said we werent there to learn how to dance, but to better appreciate the art of it, thou.
i mean, there ARE a few of us there who CAN dance, eg XiuHui, Julia, me & Olivia, who just need more practise and we'll be as good as the average dancer out there.
like hello, 2wks ago Patrick's favourites were Olivia & that china ballet guy.
by now, isnt it kinda clear that the ballet guy will nvr be able to DO hiphop? he's just so...ballet, not hiphop.
althou he's trying, and i admire that.
some in the class are too afraid to try.
some dont even show up for class )):
oh whatever.
i just wana see what happens next week when Olivia gets back to class.

this time, im not going to stand anywhere near the fatty.

guess what?
its grey skies outside on the left, plus clear blue sky with puffy clouds on the right, and its raining.
see what i mean when i say the weather is indecisive?
it just stopped raining.
tsktsk.

after class, we rushed backt to TP for the results. we missed Olivia's audition, but thats okay, someone videoed it.
i hung round til 6+, then had to scurry home.
the results came out abt 7.45pm.
Olivia didnt make it ='((((((((((((((
i dont know how's she seeing it, but apparently she didnt hv v high hopes.
that girl is one seriously busy girl. if she'd made it, i duno how she wld hv coped with everything else in her life.
its just sad, u know? that she didnt get in.

sigh.
i really shd be studying right now.

---

this is all so dumb, so stupid, the way im going about all this.

i just want to run away from it all, and avoid it for the rest of my life.
i dont know what i mean, i dont know what im running from, but i know i dont want to face it.
i just want to hide like a hermit in my house forever, yet i want to get out and break free of the vice thats got ahold of me.

i dont ever want to go back.
the only joy i seem to get these days is-
never?

i dont know,
im so confused.

whats going on?
why am i feeling this way?
WHAT IS this feeling?
stupid dumb thing.

if only i can get out and DO something...
but what?

i dont think i ever felt more lost.
oh gosh, i need direction, i need goals, i need discipline, i need something to hold me down.
i feel as though im floating away.
seeping thru the spaces between the fingers gripping me.
wait- are they fingers?
or an imaginary hand thats not even there.
im losing my sanity.

u know what i feel like?
like im wandering aimlessly thru empty space, blinded, lost...and im not thinking. im just...void. like there's simply nothing inside me, u know? nothing. i dont even know where im going from here...wherever here is.

what happened to me?
i thought i had plans, goals, achievements, targets!
i had everything mapped out til im 20...didnt i?
now i feel as thou im incapable of responsibility, incapable of doing anything im supposed to.
im through wondering whats happened to me.
the most important questions now is:

what am i going to do?
how am i going to get my sense of direction back?
how can i get my life BACK on track (the track i've so carefully decided upon)?

it sucks to be lost.

funny, the weather seems to be like me nowadays. it cant seem to decide if it wants to be horridly humid, depressingly drizzly, swelteringly sunny or anything.
its just gloomily grey all the time.
how depressing.
then the waterworks just turn themselves on suddenly, and down pours the rain, steadily down, as though it'll never stop.
then it does.
so totally indecisive.

sucks.

from under an umbrella

its a rainy grey thursday & i got my feet wet walking home. am on mc today as im like sick with fluuuuu. fluuuu. my throat hurts like hell. like, owwwwwwwwwww.

and i reli shd be studying now but i've left my blog alone for a wk now & i wana update. just now i went to polyclinic & was supposed to meet qh at 4 but i reached tp mrt at 3.30 & then at 3.40 she said meet at 4.30 but so late, i dowan wait so long so i went back.
at j8 i went to try on this top i wanted but turns out the fit aint all that great; the shoulder area is too big. then i met ranjini & py, who gave me a flyer i had no use for. then i went to buy an oreo mcflurry, & the damn guy obviously has smth against me cos he went to shake it up real bad. i stood there, stunned for a moment, wondering what i had ever done to him, but no answer came to me so i said thankyou & left. ass.

i need to make more lists, hv got many things to do. i wish i was super sick, at least it beats being in between.

get this!
Anderson B girls are in national top 4!
whooo!!!!!!
we beat SCGS on mon, lost to RGS on tues, & beat YuYing ytd!
SC lost to us, beat YuYing, & WON RGS ytd!!! we were all like, OMG! they in or we in?! if they in, we out!!! but we're in, & our next match is on monday against either nanyang or jurong. omg.
:( phs & wrs are out...anderson is the only north zone team left in the running. as i blog, phs & wrs are playing against each other again at clementi. i tink steph & xiaohui are thr X) i wish they both got in! north zone is stong de lor. hais. my throat bloody HURTS.

Amy is in China now, i wonder how she's adjusting. i cant wait til dance on sat, i wana see the routine put tgt! i wana go shopping SO BAD, but i just cant. dosh is tight, & so is my schedule. im abt to go into negative figures alr ):

i wana go to sch tmr, but i dont wana take the math test ): i just wana go trng, cos tmr is shooting, will be slack. and its friday. i love cca on fridays. it is so relaxed. althou seeing how things hv been going lately, i dont tink i'll be relaxed v much. dang, its all my own fault.

sigh.

Light my cigarette, little boy!

Fergie's Glamourous:
if you aint got no money take yo'broke ass home
you say: if you aint got no money take yo'broke ass home
g-l-a-m-o-r-o-u-s, yeah g-l-a-m-o-r-o-u-s

(b-section:)
we flying the first class
up in the sky
poppin' champagne
livin' the life
in the fast lane
and i wont change
for the glamorous, oh the flossy flossy

(chorus:)
the glamorous,
the glamorous, glamorous (the glamorous life)
for the glamorous, oh the flossy flossy

(verse:)wear them gold and diamonds rings
all them things dont mean a thing
chaperons and limousines
shopping for expensive things
i be on the movie screens
magazines and boogie scenes
im not clean, im not pristine
im no queen, im no machine
i still go to taco bell
drivethrough, raw as hell
i dont care, im still real
no matter how many records i seal
after the show or after the grammys
i like to go cool out with the family
sippin', reminscing on days when i had a mustangand now i'm in...
(b-section then chorus)
(ludacris:)
im talking champagne wishes, caviar dreams
you deserve nothing but all the finer things
now this whole world has no clue to do with us
i've got enough money in the bank for the two of us
brother gotta keep enough lettuce
to support your shoe fetish
lifestyles so rich and famous
robin leach will get jealous
half a million for the stonestakin trips from here to Rome
so if you aint got no money take yo'broke ass home
g-l-a-m-o-r-o-u-s, yeah g-l-a-m-o-r-o-u-s

verse:
i got problems up to here
i've got people in my ear
telling me these crazy things that i dont want to know (fuck y'all)
i've got money in the bank
and i'd really like to thank
all the fans, i'd like to thank
thank you really though
cuz i remember yesterday
when i dreamt about the days
when i'd rock on mtv, that be really dope
damn, it's been a long road
and the industry is cold
i'm glad my daddy tell me so, he let his daugther know.

cool, i had no idea the song was abt that.

yawn. short week, & im not used to missing fridays. fridays are like, the best way to welcome the weekend. im stil glad thou.

went to sch late ytd, was lazy to stand at gate during assembly thus went to eat first. ugh, eating. too much of it lately okay. i've downed 2packets of Ruffles since last week tues or smth, but they're so good!
grr i want to go shopping. no, MUST RESIST TEMPTATION. hv to save up for present.

i've been really snappy this week. more than usual :(
im sorry at all the ppl i may hv upset (or not, cos i noe some din hear me) i noe i snapped at you guys & it totally wasnt ur fault SORRY.
pls blame PMS. or maybe im just not in a swell mood. sigh. sorry.

after school today i went to eat opp with some frens & we ate at a void deck, where we observed the shouting of a crazed old hag. oops, thats mean. then we got scared off by her coming towards us ("RUUUUN!!" no jk.) Lynette ran the fastest & forgot Nicholas' hp. So he had to go back to take then they came up with idea to go disturb the woman.
So Danny went & tried to help light her cigarette, only the lighter was empty :X the woman scolded him & lumbered off. we followed, giggling like mad.
she is freaky.

i dont wana stay home with Mum tmr...crap shd hv had dinner with ppl tonight, i forgot Mum's going to Aunt's place...i noe! i'll watch the dvd i borrowed! yay.

can we fix it please? i dont like fighting and cold shoulders.

`my april fools day(:

Daddy's birthday!

i woke up at 10+, late for meeting misato. oops. she & i were going to buy a teddy bear for tht idiot chishun then meet the rest at 12.
no one informed us tht it had been cancelled.
i found out half an hr b4 we were supposed ot meet them & obviously both of us were damn pissed. but we went to buy the bear anw, nice ppl tht we are.

we went to eat at macs, where we started toying with possible pranks to pull...as it IS April Fools Day X)
we were mad at the guys, so.......
*calls kimchi*
*calls kimchi again*
*calls marcus*
"hello marcus? do u noe u make misato cry? she was totally looking forward to this the WHOLE wk, & then u cancel? u make her damn sad can, then now she crying & wont stop. walao. misato nvr cries lor, then now she wont stop! i duno what to do..."
HEHEHEEE we are evil. misato cldnt stop laughing. i am such a gd actress. i spent 5min on tht call.
WICKED X)
the whole point was to make them feel super bad. marcus was v apologetic & went to scold the others. chishun then apologized ltr & he sounded so apologetic tht we decided to tell him it wasnt true.
it was damn funny.
sorry guys, u were good sports :) & chishun stil gets his bear.

we were on a roll. so we pranked more ppl. we told like 5ppl tht misato was in love with them & got mixed reactions...i like kanika's best :DDDD junhe's wasnt v funny.
its so cool tht ppl can forget its april fools day.

i found out smth totally traumatic today :( i dont even noe how it began! how come ppl dont believe meeee... spent a fortune on food, how gluttony!

went to misato's place & laughed like crazy at ourselves on youtube XD
studied a LEETLE bit.
tried to choreograph moves but had no time.
went home.
bought loads of snacks at cheers on the way ))):

going to do hmwk now, happy aprils fools day everybody! :D

passion is as passion is<3

im sooo happy,
im finallyfinally doing what i LOVE
and that makes me so happy ((:

i got out of bed today, unsure if i'll make it to class. but as it turns out, i managed to finish chores in time to choing to class :D
i had absolutely very leetle time to get ready so i just grabbed a shirt,shorts & one of Cousin Amy's necklaces & dashed down to city hall like a madwoman. ugh.
all i ever accessorize with anymore are necklaces.
i shd really make an effort.
hmm.

anw i thot i was late. plus betty was MIA, so i sms-ed Julia who said XiuHui was on her way too. Olivia was cabbing down & wld be slightly late. ANW, dance was superfun today!
SUPERFUN
<333333
im so glad i made it to class, i wld hv KILLED myslf if i missed it today :DD
xiuhui likes dance now! & shirley & i were asked to stand in front & i was like, !#$%^&* !!! LOLLL it wasnt that bad in the end. olivia was so pro today, patrick likes her now. patrick tinks im weird cos i kept pulling my outfit ): in my haste, i had worn an outfit which showcased my flab & i kept tugging at it, so much so that he read it. HEH.
i guess the gd thing is he cld point out my mistakes & correct them (:
ate with julia, xiuhui & olivia at BK then rushed home while olivia went to campus auditions. mommy didnt allow me to go & support olivia & daphne )): OHWELL.

i've decided im going to listen to hongwei more from now on.
ziai too.
goodbye temptation & restlessness!

i need to go study for chem now (:

fishnet umbrellas

steph showed me the 10 reasons she specially got for me cos im EMO
LOL it was hilarious. i love the fishnet umbrella, Unhappy meal and get sunburn frm opening the fridge ones X)

AND vs Newtown today
won 73:35 :D
& omg the WRS vs Newtown guys match b4 us was so scary, esp the freethrows which wld decide the outcome of the game!

big nose, big nose, big nose
discrimination & hypocrisy

i totally got misunderstood lately. once, twice, three times, four.

nooo.

how come ppl see things this way when its actually so far from the truth?

and how come ppl only believe what they want & if the truth's not the answer they're looking for, they reject it?

bombed the math test today ):
moodwise:
neutral, kinda slacky b4 recess
panicky aft recess
cheery aft sch (according to misato)
excited during match
sian diao upon reaching sch
frustrated when practising shooting
super sian diao from dinner on til reach home

i had rojak for dinner & amazingly im still full.
fantastic.
oops, it was more like 3/4 plate of rojak.
and a cup of ice cream.

to sum up this week, it was emotionally conflicting.
i have many accusations thrown at me now, like my 'too proper' speech, my supposed dao-ness (=.= i am like, so not dao), my bumbo-ness and a few more i am too lazy to type out.
am going to bed, so sian lor.

buy me a fishnet umbrella u pundeh, LOLLL
i injected indian in my speech, happy?

a trip to the doc's

i just went to the nsc for my appt and didnt go 4 training, which, u may not belif, i reli wanted to go.
i was using my big pony bag today. as usual, it was partially open ( or closed, whichever)
& i cldnt help but wonder what ppl must hv thot of me, with my coke & pringles inside. they must hv been like, gawd, look at her awful diet! soft drinks & chips, gosh!
becos, quite a few ppl looked at me, & this woman stared at me as i was drinking my coke. i tink the nurse gave me a glance too. im nvr bringing junk food there again.

oh. my doctor's name is MALCOLM WATSON GREAVES.
uh, sounds like grieves.
not a gd thing huh? esp when he's a doctor.
OH, THE IRONY.
:D
ooh. prof greaves is so cool. for one, he does look kinda grievy, like, he din smile at all or crack a joke to lighten the tension. he's got coffee brown eyes, head full of thinning white hair (HA, oxymoron, head FULL of THINNING...ok nvm) & these wrinkles which say "I AM WISE & KNOWLEDGABLE" hehe.
he went quiet for a bit & i thot, oh, how gloomy. & then he says, "so if nth else we'll see u again in 2mths" & he smiles!

LOL he looks so grandfatherly when he smiles. i am operating on a hunch that that is what grandpas look like cos mine both died long ago, but prof greaves totally looks like the grandpa type pictured in the movies!
So cool, lol.

So then aft that i went down to the pharmacy to collect my meds & i was so busy sms-ing ppl that i went str in & totally forgot to take a queue number!
plus, i didnt rmb.
so i sat down waiting stupidly for like 25min =.=
all the while happily sms-ing away & tinking my turn's bound to come soon.
-.-
why am i so bimbotic?!?!?!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR pissed off.
i feel so DUMB.
at least i rmb-ed then, & didnt stone there the whole afternoon.
grahh.

So guess what?
Consultation fee ALONE was $21, w/o govt sub is $48.70!
O.M.G.
AND, the 2meds i got cost $23.05 in total, & i dont even wana noe how much it wld hv been w/o govt paying some of it.
i am so broke now.
$40+ on doctor stuff ):

i am going to finish my coke & pringles.
(PS, i am seriously disturbed by this GIANT UGLY lizard in the room, u tink XiaXue will come & kill it for me? i hate lizards, & this horrid one is STARING at me. oh, shudder.)
X(

Cousin Amy rocks

This is a post entirely abt my gorgeous cousin Amy.
i spent the afternoon with Amy biao jie, & i wld still be there watching Mean Girls had today not been a Sunday where i wld hv to go to sch tmr.

Amy biao jie watched me grow up, & as a kid she was my idol. She was evrything i wanted to be. Now she's moving to China ='(

Althou Amy biao jie is maybe twice my age, she's totally cool & looks young. well, she IS young. gorgeous, glamourous, independent, passionate Cousin Amy, who turns heads everywhere she goes.
seriously, she looks so glam when she dresses up & even when she doesnt, she has this look that is so effortlessly classy. like today, i was due at her place for waxing. & she had been out with her frens so she came wearing this simple empire cut dress with a belt over jeans & sunglasses. simple, yet sophisticated. so polished.
see, thats why she was my idol. i guess i still kinda wana be like her, except for the whole move-to-china-with-husband-cos-of-his-job thang because 1) my chinese is abt as gd as Hermise, Amy's cat. (exactly, i cant speak chinese.) 2) my husband wld not hv to move anywhere. if anth, he'll be moving other ppl cos he's gona be a bigshot in the company. make that HIS company ((: but hey, everyone's gotta start somewhere, its cool.

i found the perfect shade of red in Amy's house. im gonna use the exact shade when i get to do my own room. & i ADORE those ceiling-to-floor wardrobe doors in the spare rm. the cover the length of one wall! SO perfect.
i love Amy's house. it was so plain when she got it.

Biao jie is a beautician in training. that means she's licensed to do manicures, pedicures, facials, massages, waxing amongst other things. & she's probably gona open her own shop when she returns in 3yrs.

was gona write more, but my mom is irritating me. actually now she's pissing me off.
better go now.
bye.

xanga? grahhh.

spent 5hrs trying to make my Xanga site more presentable but stupid Xanga just doesnt work for me. didnt even get to upload my vintage glam pic.

ANYWAY
aside frm the failed Xanga revamp, i had a lovely day!

got PSed by betty, went dancing & made 3 new frens ((((((:
hows that?
independent Olivia, cool Shirley & sweet Julia, who doesnt hv a nickname.
poor Julia, i shall call her Jules. hmm, no, Julia suits her better :D
Julia looks nice without her glasses u noe. she shd switch to contacts, which r high maintanence but oh-so-rewarding.

i hv been online for ages. i had planned to study ):

u noe, i tink Blogger is fine, Xanga has that irritating bannerad that u hv to pay for to remove, or use that special code that they tell us not to use. i shant move to Xanga anytime soon, but im glad Cheryl finds its working great for her.

my sliced fingers are healing fine, the wound's closing alr. yippie.
oh hey i realized Olivia joined too, so i gotta support Daphne & Olivia :D

havent been able to reach qh for a few days. sigh, i wana talk to her.

&when i look into ur eyes, the rest of the world is an insignificant blur.
we stayed like that for a moment
a moment too short to last forever
a moment too long to not matter
&we stayed like that for a moment.
you & i.
wld u hv looked away if i hadnt made u?
i admit i got lost for a bit.
u're a distraction, but u're my distraction
& u're as good as distractions get.

byebye window

today i forgot to bring money to sch. i need to rmb to return money to zhangming.
yawn.
someone called me emo. hah. i am not emo.
althou i do hv cuts on my hands & wrists now.
aft sch, i witnessed an explosion of glass.
okay it was pretty cool but also super dangerous.

NOOOO THIS IS SUCH A BORING POST.

SHHH, i have a secret.
kailing's essay? wasnt reli by KAILING (:
dennis is dumb. everyone knows that glass cuts. edges are SHARP. i was holding a piece of glass, & the guy decides to snatch it frm me & pulls it frm my hand, effectively slicing my fingers.
SLICED FINGERS.
ouch. & i accidentally cut myslf on the wrist with the glass.

training was FUN.
i am SLEEPY.
Lit teacher gave us OREOS!
i gave half my Toblerone away ):
& i am HUNGRY.

hv a gd weekend! an interesting post will come...when im more awake.
much love.

camp!

back frm happy camping! i meant to keep a photojournal of campstuff but all i got is a few measly shots which don tell much.

meng meng & alvina!
yay, our trainers/instructors! crazy monkey lah, that meng meng (:

i did the freaky CRC! the toughest one somemore, & i fastest leh! X))) no, actually i was like, SLOW. ohwell!
kayaking! lol, ernest fell suddenly & went splash. then we almost capsized (: & i hv an orh ceh as a cool souvenir.
rockclimbing was...tiring & difficult for shorties like me, as in, short legged. ):
absailing! did i spell wrong? is it abseiling? whichever. was doable!
inline skating was great! i landed on my butt zero times, for the first time! cheers!

ooh im so tired now. damn sleepy seh.

mealtimes were so grahh. hate the washing system can, ew.
bathtimes were super duper short lah, cannot wash properly, plus damn cool. shiok lah, but my hot water bath was absolute bliss. i need it hot X)
bedtimes are boring, too early, and completely uncomfortable.

but all in all,
IM A HAPPY CAMPER!

loves the 3/3 cheer.
loves FIFI* :D
loves (hmm ok mayb not so much) the dance XD
loves the campfire
loves most of the cheers *EVERYBODY DANCE NOW*
hahha.

when we arrived back at sch, i was kinda jealous of the ppl who could just go home & slp happily. not me, i had class. ohwell, im not complaining, i love it! and, i was gonna go support DAPHNE :D but it got changed.

i tink my sentence structures now like crap right, don make sense. too sleepy to really care, sorry.

Meng Meng!: every bit as kiddish as us acts abouts half OUR age! =D

cool class today, saw juniors. had fun. need sleep. bumped into ben. idiot. camp is TIRING. i feel thoroughly exercised. grr doesnt make sense. i mean stretched.

bai se qing ren jie!

the babes i spent white valentines day with!

kaiting & i looking COOL~ lol, no we're just playing! hehe.

look out kaiting! my 'scissors' will cut off ur head! ahha so lame X)

sitting at our remote place, chatting. sorry i noe its blur (:

My lovely ZiAi & KaiTing! ;D

the lovely Grace & ZiAi! LOL.

hmm i tink the pics are abit small, shant put small le.

kaiting helping ziai take off her shirt! =DDD its totally blur.

finally, Grace & ZiAi posing pretty in front of the camera! :D i am such a gd photographer, u noe, aside frm the whole blur pics thing X)

i love the remote place <333

totally cosmic

hi darlings i had a gorgeous day & im feeling quite hungry.

hah no link right. ohwell it rained when i was walking home and- GRRR omg i hate those stupid irritating STRANGERS on msn who keep trying to talk to me & im just plain not interested to talking to strangers. why the hell was i so nice to even accept their add huh.

so anyway.
i had a gorgeous day!
went to sch, went to mrt stn, went to PS.
Adel, ZiAi, KaiTing & Grace. yay.
we didnt watch movie, had big lunch, then went to arcade.
i so want those adorable Monokuro Boo pigs.
then adel left & us 3 went to a remote place & talked alot alot.
yay i've rediscovered 2 frens who understand ((:
im a happy duckling.

now if only i can hv some food.

ohyes. this morn i met joshua at the mrt stn & now i only owe him a buck.
i've got a whole bunch of things to pack for camp & i best get started!
but i wana idle here.
what to do.

this will probably be my last post b4 i go off & be a happy camper.
miss me kay dearies, i noe u ppl read but dont tag, like ZiAi (:
when one fren leaves another comes.
no link! ^^
grr my foot is numb.

off to raid kitchen.

restless!

i havent a clue as to why i've been so restless lately.
alright, maybe i do, but it cant be just that.

its dinnertime! for the 1st time in 3days im not dining with qh & shirley, shd save me some money (:

TTo7 is off again...sadly. grahh.
its raining again. v spontaneous. cool.

i cant get over this restlessness. i totally feel the need to DO SMTH, but i dunno what. maybe i shd do hmwk. hmm.
not.
i dont really want to.
maybe later.

i do hope tmr will be a nice gd day when im not restlessly awaiting whatever im awaiting. yeah. doesnt reli make sense. ohwell.

to a gd day tmr! *thumbs up*

whats left?

grrrr XP cancelled.
but then now im free X)
however this means im gonna burst soon

omg i hope qh calls soon if i dont talk to somebody smth inside me might go POP.
*restless*
*hungry*

the high feeling finally left me.
all the things left undiscovered.
leave me empty & left to wonder.
i need you.
dont walk away.
hah, ashlee simpson's undiscovered

such a contrast to the bouncy balloon-y feeling i had the past 2days!
kinda feel like crying & very empty inside, i tink its cos im hungry X)

i want to be happy again! what can i do??
wat time do i go to sch tmr?
hmm.
hv to check w somebody.
i feel like binging!
i feel like eating!
i feel like sighing.

where are you? what are you doing? ):

hello march hols!

ahah this sunk in abit late huh, ITS THE HOLS AGAIN! yay yay yay.

plans today:
-slack at home
-meet XP @ 3+
-buy girlstuff
-hopefully meet QH aft dat
-slack at home somemore

whee i went to read Meg Cabot's All American Girl again. love that book. Sam&David are so cute.

blahhhhhhhh i am seriously worried abt Bets. she's totally a s----- now. & she's addicted ok! she;s got all the symtoms: lethargic, lack of focus, well anw she's totally suffering frm cig------ withdrawal. omg what am i gonna do if smth happens to her? i cant lose her as a fren, i totally obsess to QH & Bets abt almost everything! i'll hv 1less listener! & companion to do fun crazy thing with! i so want her to quit. this is so not gd for her.
plus, she's convinced she'll nvr be anth in life.
thats's just so not true.
i hate the propaganda the stupid sch forces upon their students. with all due respect to the deyi ppl in charge, they cant just assume all their students will go to poly & not make it to jc! according to Bets, the teachers nvr even mention JC to the kids, its all poly this & poly that- its like they've alr put them down as completely unable to do well in O lvls to be able to get into JC! someone shd pt this out to the deyi teachers.
grrr this pisses me off.

has anyone noticed an increase in the no of teen smokers nowadays?
why has so little been done to attempt to rectify this?
up the price, i say! jack it up so high that no average teen student can buy it w/o putting a serious hole in their pocket.
i hate cigarettes.
is it not bad enuf that my dad has been blowing cigarette smoke in my face since forever that now even my frens hv to do it too?
who the hell invented this killer thing. IT KILLS, do the smokers care so little abt that?
i was so suffocating ytd when i was flanked by 2smokers on either side of me, on my left my fren & on my right some stupid act cool guy who tried to pick us up "for his company".
more like attempt to hit on us, i say.
that asshole didnt even let us keep the namecard, that loser.
loser.
loser.
loser.
*pissed off*

grrrrrrrrrr. see, i can discuss intellectual stuff alright, i am so not bimbotic.
*sees the time*
crap i gotta meet XP in an hour & i havent done anth.

i cant wait to go to sch tmr! omg i can hardly sit still. OMG!
*bounces up & down in excitement*
^^

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AHAHHAA OMG THAT WAS SOOO RANDOM. fun though.

hehehe i tink it was a side effect brought on by my high-ness. i've been infected with high-ness as of ytd & i caught it in sch. i tink it was upon receiving my report slip. hmm. WEIRD.

ppl who hung with me ytd will noe! i was SUPERDUPERLY HIGH-HIGH-HIGH! &then i was happy.

WHY?

I DONT NOE EITHER!

*grin*

*grin*

*grin*

okay my face muscles are getting tired from all that grinning.

hey maybe i can get TONED face muscles!

:DDD

see what i mean? i am HIGH.

i feel like pinching cheeks and sqeezing hands. ahahha stay away, i fear i am contagious. HMM, then again, CK aka Betty & Adel both werent affected by me today. GRR thats sad, im not contagious after all. dumdeedum. okay lets blog abt smth serious now.

hmm the alarm clock just went off suddenly.

how spooky.

PICTURES! (make that random pictures)

RANJINI!

(aft cca on wed during dinner opp sch)

& i do belif thats aneesh's white shirt & chia chiu behind. ha omg he looks like a kid.

RANJINI!

(aft CNY celebrations long ago)

ANEESH!

(aft CNY celebrations long ago)

PRINCESS!

(Aunt Cindy's doggie. Princess is her name.)

ahahahaha.

was bloghopping just now & laughed again when i read junhe's post abt that tym when matiin got mud all ovr himslf while playing rainy soccer. HEHE SOO FUNNY.

DANCE!

i am sooo happy, misato agreed tht we can choreograph smth for TTo7! & welcome Thiviyah, i love u for joining us! :)))

DANCE BUG

me. hehe! BUG. haha Fatty (athirah) called me a small bug =D

i went JS with Bets today! then went to buy FBTs for camp. tired, but still cant wipe that grin off my face. grrr.

WHO WANTS TO GO VIVO &/OR AMUSEMENT PARK W PY & OTHER PPL ON TUES? tell me.

i hv an urge to poke somebody.

rahh.

this is a long post.

wheewheewhee! i love just a smile!

*(dreamy)SIGH*

:DDD thats it for now!

AHAH, DANCE.

hey dears i was at youtube watching videos just in case i see any moves even thou misato says we arent dancing anymore. ANYWAY, i got sidetracked & decided to reminise abt last yr's dance.

went to watch our audition video and almost died laughing :DDD
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O9CB1BLO8eY
here it is if u're interested! i rmb shokchen had just learnt it & we hadnt really finished all the choreography so we were like, OH LETS JUST DO FREESTYLE & u can see us WORKIN IT halfway thru! also, u can hear tania & steph laughing at us (they took the video) and if u look closely, we're laughing too X)

ah, memories.

compare that video to the one taken during the finals (:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lM4Ehrop9GQ
shokchen's gone & i totally shd hv zipped up my jacket, adel shd hv WORN a jacket & A DIFFERENT SKIRT & omg...its so funny. ROFL. if u're wondering wad tania said behind the camera "did u see that?" was abt...well...that shall stay our secret. SHHHHH.... two words : wardrobe malfunction X) aint gonna say no more.

oh misato pls be supergirl & choreograph smth! u noe u're gd ((:

obsessing!

wu zun SO SHUAI in hua yang shao nian shao nu.
SO. SHUAI.

JUST SO YOU KNOW
i shouldn't love you but i want to
i just can't turn away.
i shouldn't see you but i can't move
i can't look away.
and i don't know how to be fine when i'm not,
'cause i don't know how to make a feeling stop.
just so you know
this feeling's taking control of me and i can't help it
i won't sit around, i can't let him win now
thought you should know
i've tried my best to let go of you but i don't want to.
i just gotta say it all before i go,
just so you know.
it's getting hard to be around you
there's so much i can't say
do you want me to hide the feelings
and look the other way
and i don't know how to be fine when i'm not
'cause i don't know how to make a feeling stop
.
.
.
this emptiness is killing me
and i'm wondering why i've waited so long
looking back i realize it was always there just never spoken
i'm waiting here...been waiting here

i LOVE the part that goes 'im waiting here...been waiting here' he sang SO nicely there.

oh u stupid fat ass i loveyouloveyouloveyou!
i just felt like saying that. its so weird, talking abt nobody! okay, then i shall talk abt...ADEL.
ahahaha adel is a stupid fat ass!
HAHAH.
no adel im just kidding u noe i love you ((:

tonight i shall attempt to write poems for lit. whee!

i dont love you, i dont even want to.
yet i feel this way.
i dont wana tell u, i really dont.
it'll make u run away.
but i cant help staring at you when u're around
and i cant stop tinking of you.
dont say you know
how i tink i feel bout you
cos that wld make you, a real big ass (=X)
you shdnt know it makes me feel really dumb, u noe.
i dont wana say anything at all...
just dont say u know.

hahahah. put it in tune with the song. its funny.

darling im back!

ohmygosh i havent been online for SO LONG everything almost died! my frenstr, blog, email, the various other things like whosgoing...hopefully i can rmb the password. YAY IM BACK and im gonna rant about random things again!

today was CROSS COUNTRY 2007. at muddymuddymuddy bishan park ): yuckyuck. VERY yuckyuck. seriously. so anw, fion & krys were kinda late, so in turn we 3 were kinda late to meet fadhil and we arrived at park entrance at 7.30++am (LATE) ms sek was behind us so we were lyk, oh haha teacher late too then we all walked to the tentage n OMG so far!
walkwalkwalkwalkwalk i worry i wldnt find bballers then POOF adel & evelyn in front of us!
walkwalkwalk i complain adel walk v slow then we pass by mat & ncc ppl sitting sumwhr followed by vicky(?), jasmine & another guy who led us to tentage WHOO we finally reached it.
then blahblahblah we encounter disgusting mud and we're like, EW. or at least i was. they run bballers watch blahblahblah everyone run finish & ohyes must rmb to return alvin money.

ard 9.30am: the bballers were bored. kaiting adel xp and i sat ard & i fell in love all over again with jesse mccartney's 'just so you know'. <333

ard 10.30am: all students dismissed and bballers waited for bus, bus came & we set off for McDonalds woohoo. i listen to jesse mccartney and am emotional *sniffsniff*

11am: breakfast! kaiting convinces me to buy 2 sausage mcmuffins & i almost die trying to finish them.
i tink it'll be some time before i eat another one again.

12pm: we've stoned at macs real long. finally time to go SBC. i attempt to wash off stinky icky mud frm shoes.

1pm: match starts!

ard 2pm: match ends! we've won A.I. 67-22. we kinda trashed them. supercool playing.

3pm: we are on bus heading 'home' actually some are going home others going out.

4pm: adel & i brave the rain to go AMK hub where i buy roast pork for Mum cos she likes it (:

5pm: adel & i at J8! we talk abt lotsa things like our very own made-to-order perfect boyfriends X) hint- adel likes the crappy kind! (as in will crap with u, not crappy as in bad!) then we suggest to each other who suits who. apparently i need someone who will qian jiu me alot. well, NO I DONT! she was right abt the bad boy look thing though..

6pm: i am home!

...and that concludes my day. cross country was a muddy affair this year. my past 2 yrs were loads better, i tink. now, a random quote:

FAT PIG FAT PIG FAT PIG!

A warm cloudy grey day

hi im finally blogging after like half a mth.
here i am at kanika's house using her computer and there pris is on the floor doing math file and look, xinping is on the bed listening to my mp3. she looks comfortble with pillows all around her.

i'd take a picture of us here but i dont hv my bluetooth device to transfer it over.
kanika's in the kitchen gtting us ice-cream. and im sitiing at the com eating my lollipop.

oh.

the ice-cream just came. it looks yummy.

wish i had my bluetooth thingie. the ice cream looks real good.

we came here to do pur SS project, we've finished it. Lyn & Fiona will hv to present, wheewhoo.
.
.
.
okay i'm gonna go now.

to a fugly week ahead

im out of contacts! shall hv to spend the wk in specs ))):

today i scored my team's only goal in PE & it was completely tyco. it was SO COOL, lynette passed the ball to me and i hit it straight at the goal and it rolled there casually, SO LEISURELY LAH LIKE NO ONE'S BUSINESS lidat then so easy to block so we were all like aiya wasted but it went right between the goalkeeper's feet and plop! a goal!!!
:DDD

then during recess i asked 3/5 ppl abt the geog test n they said it wasnt easy but then this idiot said it was easy, say until like all the others exaggerated lidat & me being gullible i believed that idiot.
i am so going to kill him tmr. i've alrdy lost 8m.

aft geog test pris fiona jacq tess n i went macs & played cards alot alot becos some ppl i noe nvr called when they said they wld -.- typical.

Valentines Day 07!

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY I LOVE YOU!

lol.
gave out 5000 sweets lah. like, i went to sch the paper bag so heavy thot go sch give away le can be v light liao then went home still so heavy! ohwell means got ppl give me gd lor.

training got cancelled so i sat ard slacking then ate with ranjini, sujie & szuhsein cos matiin, guangfu they all pangseh and ranjini was quite pissed. she say wont talk to them tmr but then ltr she realised chiachiu had her hp pouch or smth so she smsed mat then we so coincidentally met them at the mrt stn and ranjini said call chiachiu back so mat went, "CHIACHIU!" "CHIACHIU!" "CHIACHIU!!!" damn loudly everybody was like whats his problem and chiachiu came back and see, ranjini is soft-hearted.

crap what will i do tmr? and i still havent had time to do tuition hmwk!.

the sweets and yummy edibles i got today can last me til june :D

big girl now

i've grown up! i hv an IC now (or at least, i will hv one, in a few wks).

IM SO JEALOUS.

kanika & i talked alot today until super thirsty, girls are such chatterboxes arent we? LOL. new fren shirley helped me transfer very overdue payment to jeanine. yay.

hv to pack valentines day presents, sooo many lah can.

IM SO JEALOUS.
IM SO JEALOUS.

im going to get ppl frm 3/5 to hint me for geog answers, maybe diana. God knows i hate geog.

im sooo like, why does SHE get to do that? why dont i? so yeah, im jealous.

uefhkjhsehrg

i was gonna blog abt smth but i forgot what.
crap.
this happens all the time.

u noe, i've got like 500 mosquito bites on my legs. okay more like 5 but they're all like really icthy and there's this one tht's damn red wonder if i went round sch with it totally THERE on friday. how embarrasing.

speaking of embarrasing khaliq totally freaked out the china guests on friday LOL so funny.

i failed the 2nd math test too, everything was frm sec1&2 & i forgot!! pissed off. i better get 2digit. either tht or chiachiu better fail. otherwise he may extort anth =O
hmm i've been eating alot alot lately. just ask adel, she noes. i get hungry aft like an hour. its so bad. like, had a real filling dinner an hr ago i started stuffing myslf with nuts & desert. tsktsk.
am supposed to go out tmr but too lazy to contact bets. I AM SO STUFFED RIGHT NOW OMG.

hmm i tink i hv eally small hands, like adel & i were playing piano then i cldnt reach the keys at all. argh i feel bloated.

gtg watch tv, byebyebyebyebyeeee.

stars, saturation & sleepyheads

YAY YAY YAY DAREN WON!

i like Diya & all but YAY Daren won! i was gonna vote but then i got caught up in the performances & forgot but ohwell its okay he still won in the end isnt that great?!
JON IS SOOO CUTE!~

ytd mom made me drink saturated dang gui. can i just say, BLEH.

fell aslp on the sofa last night...woke up suddenly and it was so dark...wld hv been v freaky if i hadnt been so disorientated. instead, i simply went to my room & fell aslp again. it was 6.15am LOL X))

kinda lookin forward to sch tmr. how odd.

hmm i dreamt of a gold dress recently... GRAH how random omg so warm in here im gonna stop blogging now & retreat to my ACed room cya!

da bai tu nai tang

say goodbye to grace giving out rabbit sweets!
i realised tt i've bought 2packs in 2days & finsished both in one day)):
plus feedback says eat too much sian le lor, & i agree cos i oso eat dao ni le.
SO.
whats new?
i dunno.
we'll see on monday.

ytd lessons i rmb LUNCH, MATH (thelackthereof!) and EL! omg 3/3 so cool so many free periods lately. and EL! we had the SPEAK workshop. super crappy. aboriginal LOL! Band1, 2 & 3 all tgt so i got to sit with YingYu who crapped with me and she borrowed alot of ppl's hps @ one pt she was holding 3! i dont tink any1 paid much attention. most were doing math! some playing with hps, like YingYu & I. borrowed ChiaChiu hp again & beat my ytd's score thou stil long way frm beating his nvm i will jiayou OMG i became so bad at Bantumi i used to win all the time! GRRRR. i must play more games lah.

TODAY!
failed math test, i still dont get logarithms. ohwell i tried, i did. during recess i RUUUUSHHHHED mt hmwk & did a crappy one tht i didnt hand in cos mrs lim forget. GOOD. in mt lesson chiachiu walked in & announced tht he got kicked outta class & he looked damn pissed. whoo another zheng lao shi disliker! krys & i got yuan wang for talking )):

XP, KT, Adel & I went 4 lunch @ J8 & had v nice discussions abt sch stuff.
went back for trng, played slightly better than wed.
OMG *depression sets in*
why did i ever think i cld play bball? i suck at it, i am such a noob, how can i scold others noob? i suck SO bad at bball. & i cant even do anth to improve it cos im just not cut out for it ='(
HuiYing is right. im just not a basketball player, im a noob. an amateur. and i shd hv joined netball instead.

so then was pretty down aft tht but i tink i concealed it well no one noticed anth wrong cept my alter ego took over & i was too girly and squealed & was uber icky. i hate myslf when im so girly. its disgusting. stupid alter ego.

ate bland bread for dinner ): idiot, ppl still convinced im like shunu omg so blind lah they. speaking of blind! ranjini, py, szuhsein, ncc guys & i played blind mice @ playgrd damn fun maan. cept for the uber icky alter ego me lah. ugh. but i did hurt my ankle when i jumped & landed badly. all the shock went to my left ankle & i almost sprained it thus that scream was understandable.

i want to go rollerblading aft exams!

where are you why r u so invisible how can u hide away? appear! erm, please?